Destined to Win: Images of Glory
Beginning and End
As I was driving to my new class on Genesis, I began contemplating the meaning of the word. Then my thoughts turned suddenly as I headed west, and saw the beginning of a brilliant sunset, that seemed to have been painted by God Himself across the sky. There were so many phases of it, that I decided to stop immediately and pull out my camera to document it.
The sunset, like my life, had so many different dimensions and colors, that it helped me to anticipate what might be next. These things don't happen by accident, They have been arranged to help busy people to stop in their tracks. In Romans, it says that "men are without excuse because God has made it plain that He exists through creation." Suddenly I understood, exactly what that meant, and the reality of that truth reverberated through my entire being. How can we say there is no God?
There have been times in my life that I absolutely had no idea what was happening, or how I got in some of the situations I found myself in. I came to realize that often people, (such as myself) are so doubtful of their value to the world they live in, find themselves drifting.
There simply doesn't seem to be a course that our lives are on, without some type of spiritual direction. I know thousands of people in cities, who literally wander day to day, with no plans for the future. They have given up, having tried some way of belonging in a constantly changing world. They did not learn to adapt to changing environments, relationships and family dynamics. They exist in survival mode, minimalized in a society that is so rapidly "evolving" that they can't catch up. I once was one of those people.
At the brink of despair, I had an encounter with the unseen spiritual world. In a moment, a split second, I became aware that something, Some One, was protecting my soul, guiding my path, and shining favor on me. I believed that it was something I had done myself, found this miracle, but I was later to learn that God Himself was the initiator of this newly found relationship.
I felt deeply loved, in fact, my whole heart and being was saturated with the deepest profound sense of peace, something that I was rarely afforded during my difficult years. I had been searching for it, tried pretty much everything including "transcendental meditation" and chanting, and every variation of the "New Age" movement. I studied the ascetics, the poets, the prophets, and all that, but never experienced anything like this before.
I couldn't explain it away, I couldn't escape from the power of it, I just wanted to soak it all in. My dad had told me about all this before, but I didn't believe him. All my life, I had tested the waters, only to be disappointed every single time. Couldn't make sense of it at all, and now it all made perfect sense. Jesus was His name, and I have never been the same. Not to say that I am in any way perfect, far from it. I know that I am forgiven and things that once caused me shame are erased from the hold they once had on me.
His presence never left me, and I found that there is always enough of the Holy Spirit to go around the entire world. When people are under the influence of the Holy Spirit they do kind things, good things, loving things, right things. If the world would turn towards God, everything could be different.
So instead of thinking of myself as a "loser" I became victorious. I stopped hating and started loving, Everyone, even the most unlikely and unloveable people. I forgave, and moved on from the blame game. I took responsibility for what I could and accepted the rest.
I stopped trying to control and let go and let God be in charge. He never takes a nap or sleeps, so I figure my problems are all safe with Him. I asked for directions when I got lost, and a word would come that would set me right back on the right path. I found joy in the journey that I once regarded as impossible to navigate, and things unfolded before I even got a chance to pray. People I prayed with got better because God helped them.
So I am on a new path now, one of justice and mercy, and honestly, it feels like I am destined to win!