- Religion and Philosophy
My NDE Experience
In a flash your life can be gone due to some illness or accident. In my situation I had a bad reaction from birth control pills that gave me a stroke on November 13, 2012. I was in a drug induced coma for 4 days and no one can't tell me that I didn't have a NDE (near death experience) While I was in this coma, I felt my conscious mind slipping away. I was gliding quite quickly over a river of blood where I saw cells floating in this river. This place I describe was reddish brown in color. My conscious picked up speed as I glided over this river. I felt like I was there forever. I did not know the time, as we all know that even when we are asleep in a normal state we don't know the exact time.
I wasn't aware of who I was or where I was... all I remember is what I asked in thought. "what is this?" "Where am I?" I don't remember an answer given to me, I just kept gliding over this strange bloody river. Soon this river started to turn to human skin. The skin was reddish brown and it started to pop up out of this river and formed into this tall entity that resembled a human. However, there was no facial features, no nose, ears or eyes and it was bald headed as it stood very tall in front of me and it kept growing. As I got closer to this thing I heard a voice in my spirit tell me that I was slipping further and that I should turn around and go back to my body and life. All of a sudden I started to glide backwards quickly into my body. I didn't see a tunnel or a white bright light like others describe, but I know that I was slipping and did not know where I was heading to. Perhaps I didn't reach that part yet, but as the days unfolded I realized and felt it in my spirit that If I would have gone further I would have gone through that tunnel and saw this light, Jesus, the angels and my deceased loved ones like my mother and sister who died in 1999. I was very closed to them and still miss them very much. God has revealed to me that if I would have seen this light and saw my loved ones that I wouldn't have gone back to my life to finish the job that he had assigned me.
When I came out of my coma I thought it was still November 13, 2012 and my dad told me that it was November 16, 2012...that I had been sleeping for 4 days. I was like... "I've been sleeping that long?" That wasn't sleep to me. Putting it mildly to not scare me, oh yeah I was sleeping peacefully. I don't call floating over a river of blood and seeing some strange entity sleeping peacefully. This was no dream...it was more real than I am sitting hear making this hub. I often wondered was I seeing a part of hell or some demon. Maybe so or maybe not, but I wasn't afraid at all.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Psalms 23.
God's rod and staff comforted me while I was on this strange journey. It's possible that we all might go through evil areas before we reach that beautiful light of God. We are not supposed to be afraid as we trust in the Lord to protect us every step of the way. The tall entity I saw I believe equalled a road block put up by God to keep me from continuing on to the light because of my free will that would not want to go back to my life on earth that I would have rathered to staythere with Him, my mother and sister in Heaven.
After I was home from the hospital I did not think anymore about what I saw...I just wanted to recouperate and go on with my life from this stroke. One afternoon I went into the room where my dad was watching a talk show and on this talk show there was a doctor who had a
NDE...his name was Dr. Eben Alexander. He talked about this murky place where there were roots and vessels and creatures were bubbling up out of this substance, his description of the roots and vessels reminded me of what I saw when I saw the cells floating in the river of
blood and the creatures coming up from the substance was like what I saw when I saw this entity coming up from the river. My mouth dropped when I heard of his experience. It made me start to think about my experience more and more because now there was someone else going
though what I had gone through... not crazy after all, I thought to myself.
Dr. Eben, talked about moving on until he came to that tunnel, light and God... he also claimed he was on the back of a butterfly wing with a young lady he didn't know, but she knew him. Dr. Eben Alexander's condition that brought him to his nde was bacterial meningitis and a coma. He talked about how he was put up for adopton and he never knew his birth family but after this experience he had an urge to find them and eventually he did. His birth family showed him a photo of his birth sister who had died in 1999 and this woman in the photo was the same woman he recognized from the butterfly wing while they glided through Heaven. Of course Dr. Eben was sent back to his life because he knew he had a purpose. He had a wife and children and an assignment to tell the world that God and Heaven is real. The Dr. used to be an athiest and now he is a believer.
His experience confirmed my experience because I wondered and worried about what it was that happened to me while I was in this coma. Now many people believe that they actually have died during an NDE and that is not the case. An NDE is just that and is plain as day to understand that you are closed to death, that you have not died. Man's version of clinical death is different than God's version. When you die you don't come back from Heaven to your body. Your nde is just on the threshold of Heaven... your body lays on your deathbed waiting for God to send you back to your life before you are at the point of no return.
This is what I heard in my dream one night after I asked God did I die. He instructed me to look Hebrews 9:24-27 up.
24 For Christ has entered, not into holy places made with hands, which are copies of the true things, but into heaven itself, now to appear in the presence of God on our behalf. 25 Nor was it to offer himself repeatedly, as the high priest enters the holy places every year with blood not his own, 26 for then he would have had to suffer repeatedly since the foundation of the world. But as it is, he has appeared once for all at the end of the ages to put away sin by the sacrifice of himself. 27 And just as it is appointed for man to die once, and after that comes judgment. Hebrews 9:24-27
If you are hanging off the side of a cliff in your pick up truck and you can see rocks and other debris falling...you know that any minute you will also be like those rocks falling, but someone pulls you to safety so that is most definitely a NDE just as well as someone leaving their body during an NDE or OBE they are experience on their death bed.
I believe there is a threshold going into Heaven, led by angels...like they say one foot in the grave and one on earth is true. After my NDE I have been having dreams and prophetic things happening to me. Right before Christmas there was a cab driver who was robbed and set on fire. Now this is something that doesn't happen to often...the thieves just rob or shoot the cab driver. Needless to say, in this case the driver was set on fire. I had a dream that my uncle that I have not heard from in a long time had a job as a cab driver, he was robbed and set on fire. I did not know about the cab driver in the news until a couple weeks after it happened. The reporters interviewed him to get his story, he survived the attack thank God and the thoughts of my uncle being set on fire went away.
I just wish I would have known what was going to happen to this man before he was robbed and set on fire... I could have warned him. Some things are allowed and I know that God would have instructed me to help this man if it was in his will. I can't explain why this dream happened after the fact. I was always intuitive and had dreams that was prophetic... in fact months before I had my stroke, it was July 2012 and I had a dream where my sister Julie who is already deceased was in the park with my aunt and I... Julie passed out in the park and my aunt who is a nurse started to do chest compressions and cpr to bring Julie back.
Julie got up and I saw her spirit walk away from her body with me walking behind her calling her. She would not look my way, it was like she was ignoring me and I continued to try and get her attention. I followed her into a mall where she walked over to this restaurant. There was a man flipping pizza. Julie's ex-fiance used to be a chef and in the dream it was like she was going to check on him to see how his life was going. Her ex walked up behind her holding another woman's hand. Julie saw that her ex moved on with his life and she walked away. Still I followed behind her calling her and she would not look my way. She got on this elevator that
was filled up with people and the door closed before I could get on the elevator. I quickly ran to the next elevator to try and catch up with her.
And as soon as I got on a man ran up and opened fire with an assault rifle...I was the only one on this elevator and I got shot. The dream continued where the elevator door opened and I got off, I was alright and I was not looking for Julie anymore. I walked through this mall and I saw two old women sitting down engaging in conversation and they becked for me to sit and join them, so I did. Not long after there was a good looking man who walked over that they knew... he smiled at me. One of the women told him to ask me out. He blushed and walked away but then within seconds he came over to me and asked me out on a date. The dream ended.
One part that disturbs me is being shot on the elevator. This dream happened just a week before the Aurora theater shooting and I felt I picked up on this tragedy. However, now my thoughts tell me that the gunfire aimed at me was from the devil who attacked me. Me being attacked by this gunman was the stroke I had. Getting off the elevator tells me that I survived this stroke and is now recouperating and doing well.
Julie getting on the elevator was a sign telling me that I couldn't come to Heaven yet, that I had to finish my life here on earth and of course that I should keep my heart open for a certain gentleman that will soon come into my life. I also had a dream before this one where I was attending my stepsister's party...it wasn't a birthday party. I am someone who never goes to parties so this is odd. I used to avoid any family events. but in this dream I was at her party. I did not know what the celebration was for until I found out in January of 2013.., my stepsister was having a baby shower and at that time she was 8 months into her pregnancy. February 19, she had a beautiful baby girl.
This dream was also in July of 2012. So the timeline was July 2013 through February 2013. which my stepsister did not know she was pregnant in July. Okay I hope anyone who is good at interpreting dreams will put their thoughts in on what could be going on since my NDE, and even with dreams I had before my stroke and NDE.