Qui Tollis Peccata Mundi: The Perfect Gift
“Qui tollis peccata mundi” … so drifted the song into my night dream, as songs are wont to do (see “Songs and Soul: A Spiritual Experience”). Now, three years later, the same lyrics drop by as thoughts during my silent sitting meditation.
That time three years ago when I dreamt of it, I had asked a priest and was told the lyrics were from the Latin song “Agnus Dei” (Lamb of God) and meant “who takes away the sins of the world.” That time, to me it only had a surface significance. I just took it to be that Jesus simply wanted to stop by and say hi through my dream.
With the recent challenges I faced and somehow miraculously overcame, the words took an entirely new dimension. It was as if the veil of the illusion of separation between self and others had been lifted. The ‘others’ and the ‘me’, which are separate entities, have become one and the same, all blameless---sinless, in the eyes of Agnus Dei.
After so much had transpired during the busy holiday season, the silent sitting was my soul’s opportunity to call to my attention to the fact that an important experience had transpired, going unnoticed. An “impossible” situation in life had miraculously brought enlightenment to both parties at conflict with each other.
I was one of the two “parties at conflict.” I was so thrilled to have received four gifts from this enlightened “other.” But it is not these four gifts that I refer to in this hub title as “The Best Christmas Gift Ever”. It is what these gifts symbolize that is the best of all--- her enlightened perspective of the situation that was developing between the two of us, in our relationship. Finally, we realized where each one was coming from and why there had been so much conflict in the past. Among a few things, she acknowledged my efforts in trying to resolve the difficult situation and this was more than what the whole world could offer me at Christmas time. Years of efforts at curbing my “little” ego self and just staying consciously aware in the moment were not in vain.
The Lamb of God had taken over, seeing beyond the eyes of our ego selves, piercing the illusion of separation, shining His light into the world, making it sinless. Making the other’s and self’s blamelessness perceptible. Our difficult relationship has turned into the perfect one with a more compassionate understanding for each other, for us to grow further spiritually.
Each thing in this world in its perfect time and place when seen through the eyes of the Lamb of God. Every person, sinless, blameless. Each animal, plant, situation is perfect exactly as it happens according to God’s master plan, designed through His Divine Providence.
I move along the next experiences in this hectic holiday season and have one other major challenge to surmount. My ego self resists the apparent difficulty in this experience. It says no to changes. Notwithstanding, equipped with the insight gained from the recent miracle, equanimity sets in using the same perspective, each thing is in its perfect time and place …
For a beautiful Christmas gift, thank you, Jesus,
Qui tollis peccata mundi !