(4) Demonic Attacks!
DEMONIC ATTACKS AND ASSAULTS
I can assure you that demonic attacks do happen. Many people willingly invite them in by Satanist's practice, Ouija boards and excessive drinking and drugs. It has also been noted that even some of our Saints and the holiest of God's people (documented cases) have been beat up, thrown from their beds, scratched, punched and severely assaulted. They are neither mentally nor are they making it up. There are people in the world who have not given Satan any legal authority to be there yet still the devil attacks. Why these horrific assaults?
I can only assume that the closer you become to Jesus and God, the more you will be tested as Job was and of course the more you will be despised by these demonic forces. A simplistic explanation? This evil doesn't need to go after those who are already doing his work, they attack those who are doing God's work and they hate God.
God is in control of everything of this world and the heavens, including these demonic forces that have swept our world, don't be fooled into thinking that they have any power over God because they don't. They are allowed by God. Why does God allow these demonic attacks on those who are not opening any doors and not giving the devil authority?
After a long time thinking about this question, I believe that the 'bigger the purpose' for God, the BIGGER the demon. For some of the chosen ones, it is a test of faith! Does this make sense to you? It does to me.
I believe that he is picking his team. Many people will talk about God, they will spew that scripture out of their mouths, assume that they are holy, look down upon others, sit in churches and pretend but when the true test of God is presented into their lives, they look away. They don't know him. Who wants a player who runs off, deserts you and joins the opposite team when it seems that you are not winning the game? God wants loyalty at all costs-not lip service.
MY EARLY TWENTIES AND MY FIGHT FOR MY SANITY
I was severely assaulted by Demonic assaults in my mid-twenties and yes, I at that time I had given the devil authority to do this. I was messing with tarot card, playing with ouija boards and it opened the door to the evil...a door that I could not slam shut without Jesus. I was a mother of two children and too busy to give God any real thought at that time. I was what many would call a a 'lip-service' believer. I said his name, never picked up a bible and read and I constantly sinned with no repentance.
You would think with my experiences in childhood that I would have kept God close to me but I didn't. For approximately two months, every day I was tormented by what I call assaults; during my waking hours and especially when I drifted off to sleep. My two children witnessed things also but they were too young to understand what was really happening. Things being thrown at me, scratches, voices and all they would say is "Ghost Mommy." Each night when I fell asleep, a vibration would come to me. It would show up and penetrate my dreams, pulling me out of it and waking me. These assaults would push me against walls, ceilings, upside down and vibrate me with a strong vibration that I can only explain to you as pure hell. I felt the worst things that I could ever imagine and never knew from any of my experiences on earth. It terrified me!
I explain this vibration as everything bad in the world. It was full of disgust, evil, hatred, anger, lewd, vomit, perversion, and repulsive things so vile, so dirty that I was terrified! Each and every time it would arrive to attack me I would be so terribly afraid that I would become paralyzed and I could not fight it. I would be so scared and freaked out that it paralyzed me. It would overtake me with its power and I could not fight back! It was absolutely terrible and I didn't know how to make it go away. I so badly wanted it to go away. I regretted touching any of these occult things. I had thought it was just fun and games and I found out the hard way.
In my waking hours I worried about having to go back to sleep, it was consuming me with fear and began to trigger panic attacks, the same ones I had when I was a little girl. I would have welcomed "the lights" because at least they were good. This was nothing like the spinning vibrating lights. I went to a Doctor and explained what was happening and I knew that I sounded insane, wouldn't you think so if you heard this story? I tried anti-anxiety treatments but still the assaults continued, even when I upped the dosages of Xanax. I went to a Catholic priest who told me that I was evil. I knew that I was not evil and walked out, never returning to such a faith. Now that I think about it...it was probably his breath blowing back in his face.
THIS SPIRIT TRIED TO MAKE ME GO INSANE
I had confided in a neighbor friend and she introduced me to a woman who was not of any specific faith, but very spiritual and believed in Jesus. She talked to me, calmed me down and she understood what was happening to me and she knew it was real. She spoke to me about Jesus and God and about prayer and what these attacks were about. A test of my strength. She assured me that I was not going mad and that I was being tested. My soul would eventually understand but that I needed to fight and be armed! She said that there was a special reason for this happening to me but she did not know what it was. "God will reveal it in time."
I sat listening to her that day and I was thinking that his is was just crazy, as if I was trapped in some bad Hollywood movie that wouldn't end and I couldn't get out of it. What was happening to me was even crazier. Can you imagine this happening to you? And no, I wasn't on drugs or drinking. NOTHING! I had opened a door to the darkness and I had no clue how to get rid of it until this woman told me to open up my bible and start praying! You know what? I did!
I began to read the bible trying to absorb the words and I begged God to stop these assaults. All I knew was that I didn't want that vibration bothering me each night and it was attempting to make me go insane and somehow I knew it and it was doing a very good job trying.
THE VERY LAST ASSAULT BY THIS EVIL VIBRATION
After enduring this for two months, One evening I closed my bible and fell off to sleep. Again this wicked vibration arrived and it woke me up. It was not as strong this time and it came in white light. I was confused at first. It was shining in my bathroom and I was enticed to walking into the room. Even though it was enclosed in white, I still somehow knew it was darkness. (if that makes any sense to you)
I heard my small child's voice. "Mommy...something is hurting me in here." It was one of my sons standing in the doorway of his bedroom near the bathroom. I stepped out into the hallway and took his hand, bringing him into the bright bathroom. I knelt down and asked him where does it hurt? He said his back. Turning him around I pulled up his tee-shirt. Scratches and gouges, welts, bloody and sore pus infested things were all over his back. I pulled the bottom of his pajamas down to witness claw marks down his buttocks. I was horrified and angry that they were attacking my babies!
Immediately the light turned to a bright red shade and the vibration became stronger and more vile. My other son ran into the bathroom and joined us. He was being assaulted in the bedroom and was terrified! He huddled against me on the floor in the bathroom with his brother. I began to say the Lords prayer. This was the first time in two months that I actually was not paralyzed by fear and fought this horrible evil vibration with everything I had and this time I used Jesus!
"Our Father who art in Heaven...."The vibration began to choke me! It did not want me to say this prayer! it was stuffing something rotted and horrid down my throat! It was trying to force this vibrating this energy of putrid stench into my mouth and down into my throat! I was gagging and unable to say the prayer. I looked at my children and their eyes were bulging, the vibration was gagging them also.
I remember telling them by telepathy to say the Lord's prayer in their head! The next thing I remembered was hearing the loudest vacuum noise, as if a tornado had just gone over my head and it was so loud that it woke me up. I was screaming..."DELIVER US FROM EVIL-DELIVER US FROM EVIL...over and over. Only Jesus, calling upon Jesus's name helped me. Thank God for Jesus!
The Only Way to Remove Demons is Jesus
DELIVER US FROM EVIL
As I write this Hub today, I have complete memory of that evening. The only difference is that now it is twenty years later and I am no longer afraid. God is with me and apparently I passed the "test." My sanity was restored. (Some may argue this) As this woman told me "my soul would know when I was meant to know. " She was true to her words. I do know why I was tested those two months and why I needed to be armed with God. I am in 'full armor' now.
I do know this much...I would rather take a beat down physically in any form than to suffer the afflictions of what I suffered with demonically for those two months. When I tell you that these happenings were the most horrible-vile--excruciatingly painful-the worst suffering I have ever experienced in my lifetime. If you knew what I have had to contend with on this earth--you would be quite surprised to hear me say this but it is the truth.
There is such things as hell, Satan, demons and repercussion for sin. Please don't buy into the lie. The biggest lie of the devil is that he doesn't exist. Is it crazy to believe in the devil? NOPE. I see him and his minions and I have been given just a small glimpse of what hell is. I thank God for what he has allowed me to experience. I am here to share with you, to plant the seeds of the truth of Jesus Christ and this spiritual war among us! Crazy you say?
Don't Open the Door To Demons
Say I am 'crazy' now but you have been warned about the darkness and following the darkness! You all will eventually see Jesus and even the demons shudder in His presence!. So shall you shudder if you continue playing with the occult and follow the darkness after being warned of the truth. I surely understand why God placed in the bible not to play around with witchcraft, sorcery, occult, charlie-charlie etc. They open the door to the demons!
For as the lightning comes out of the east, and shines even unto the west; so shall also the coming of the son of man be."
WHAT DO I KNOW OF HOLY? Addison Road
What Do I Know of Holy?
Too many people to count have said the very worst things to me and about me when I have asked for help, needed a friend or someone to teach me about this spiritual war. "Who are you? You are crazy! What do you know? You are demonic! You don't even know the Bible! I am holy! You are not!"
You are right. I am NOT holy. I can NOT make myself holy! Only God can make me holy! I can not even assimilate or contain in my body or my mind the fullness of the things I feel and see on some days and it is such a huge struggle to contain it. It feels feels as if my mind and my heart will just burst from all of these spiritual things I am seeing. You have no idea of the suffering I have had trying to understand this and for anyone to help me.
I continue to try to understand. I continue to seek out the help that I need to understand, though it falls on mostly deaf ears or those with spiritual arrogance! NUTS FLAKES AND FRUITS? HARDLY PASTOR! How sad to see those who have taken my strong desire to learn and use it for their monetary benefit or hidden gains. Do you know how I see you? I see most of you as a bunch of hustlers! That is what I see! A bunch of jokesters and fakers standing behind "The words of God" and a computer screen, podium talking and teaching things that you are spiritually clueless to. False teachers, false doctrine, false prophets and scammers is what I have found out in my journey.
You are right! I don't know anything of being holy! Nor have I EVER claimed to!
Though many of you claim to be holy and you are not. You are fakes and you are heartless, showing no compassion! I know what I know what I know and I continue to seek out answers....waiting...waiting and hoping that the Lord will just appear and talk to me again...or send me someone who will return my questions with answers. I can hardly trust many of you for help. Sad but true.
Let's just say that I don't want to be holy if that is what you call being "HOLY." Jesus will teach me how to be Holy! I am sure of that and I would never rely on people such as these false prophets and false teachers to teach me anything! You are barren. "Go away I never knew you!" That is what I am hearing in my mind about many, many of you!
I Will Walk Out On The Water To Jesus
I have every right to feel this way! You are supposed to be members of "THE CHURCH" but instead you are wolves in sheep's clothing.
When the time comes because the birth pains are starting! The mountains and earth will tremble and shake...and all of those of you who dress the same and quote the same and pretend, you will see that your oil is not enough to get you through, no matter what you profess my fallen friends. You will be the ones who run! Hide! Renounce the Lord! Cry! Fear and covet because your life means more! Your material things mean more! Your fame means more! Your fortune! Your b.s. is just that! It is all bullshit!
You watch me! I want you to watch me when that day comes! You will see my oil full one day! I will walk out on the water to Jesus and fear nobody but God. So all of your talking jack means only gratitude and pats from others right now. You bunch of gossipers! Slanderers! Haters of good! How sad that eventually you will all see what I see and then we will see how you handle it because you will be shown as much mercy as you have shown me!
Eventually Jesus will show me the way and I will hope that you will have learned a few things by this story and why you should take a really good look at yourself in the mirror and ask yourself this question...
How much oil you really think you have?
No Matter How You Sell "sorcery"' It Is Still the Devil!
Tarot-Angel cards, Ouija boards, mediums, new age religion...no matter what 'pretty little package' you sell Satan in....it is STILL SATAN!
Deuteronomy 18:10-11 "Let no one be found among you who sacrifices his son or daughter in the fire, who practices divination or sorcery, interprets omens, engages in witchcraft,or casts spells, or who is a medium or spiritualist or who consults the dead"
The Ignition of a Flame
Nazi's Hidden Among Us
Many of you who are reading this may be quite confused by this story. I had written this on the instructions of God for His own perfect will and His own perfect appointed time. It has been seven years that I have been waiting for God to fulfill what He told me that He would fulfill. God does not lie and He always is faithful. Seven years of a walk in this fire with only God to protect me and guide me.
I have numbered the stories by chapters. Start from the beginning and read chapter to chapter and do not skip around or you will miss what God is showing you. It will allow you an understanding, a basic foundation of me, my life, my spiritual experiences with God, the demons and the devil. I pray that God allows you to grasp the full profound spiritual meaning of my story and how this all happened and where it started! This is the first part of my testimony of the Living God, Jesus Christ. It started with a prayer to God and it was activated in the spiritual and manifested in the physical.
Due to many, many things involved in this story, Politics-corruption-Nazi's and of course ...good versus evil...you will see my series in many categories. I am not quite sure where to put them due to so many variants. I will scatter them as if they are leaves on a windy day-hoping that the very lucky will get a chance to view "History in the making" and above all..to witness God's justice...prophetic and a warning to all who have not called upon Jesus as Messiah.
May God bless you!