Sinning Made Me Miserable
I accepted Christ on December 26, 2009 but up until today I didn't really feel born again. That's providing I am born again or did it right today. I just sincerely prayed to God today to make me born again. I said, "Dear Jesus, I repent of my sins. I believe you died on the cross for me. I know I deserve hell. Please wash me in your blood, and cleanse me from sin. Help me not to sin anymore." Something similar to that.
For the past five years I got better, but I kept sinning the same sins and that made me miserable. I don't want to offend God and I know I was hurting myself too by my destructive behavior. I guess sometimes it takes awhile.
I can only pray to God, that though his help, he will keep me from sin. I know I'll never be perfect, but I want to be. I want to be holy. And I want to be a light for others to shine and show them the way to Jesus who is the light of the world.
I agree with Skye2day that Jesus is the only way to true peace in this life and the next. Why would anyone choose satan over God? That's an important question to answer!
God is good. He has helped me in so many ways. Perhaps I WAS saved but now I feel like I'm saved even more. See, since December 26, 2009 my health has gotten much better. I used to have terrible mood swings and now I don't. I feel more peaceful and I have been able to live life more peacefully.
I thank God for helping me. I have been reading the bible for years now. I have been going to a group called celebrate recovery which is a bible based 12 step group and it's very good.
I know God will continue to help me and make me better because I truly want him to.