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Sudden Fear As We Turn To Help.

Updated on November 30, 2011

As we remember out of child hood life, with friends and family.

My daddy was a Mig welder, he smoked and drank a lot all through his life.

His daddy was a very rough man on all the kids..there was a lot of kids they had back then,

One day he sat us down and told us another story how when him and his younger brothers and he always took care of them, but it was so hot they needed water..He was rough and he didn't give them water until the job was done.

My dad was a tough man, he made mom feel bad a lot..he did get physical with her. Later on in life dad thought he would be fine, but he started getting headaches and vomiting so we took him in and they found a tumor behind his left eye, size of a orange.We had to finally put dad in my room so mom and I could have the other room..he had breathing machines hooked up to him..When he went I sat by him and held his hand..he was only 46 years old ..he said he couldn't die he had his grand daughter to hold, I let him hold her and he gave her to mom, I looked into Dads face. He was holding my hand and I felt how cold they were.

I did really love my dad yesterday he would of been 72, my mother is living she is 72.

I wish I could of helped but my heart ached for my parents.

Dad use to take us to a fishing hole and we fished all day and caught frogs..and we we're happy in our own little world playing with daddy, he died so long ago..but he is with God I believe he repented at his death bed he was so calm..Oh daddy I love you

Written By Betty Bolden



Jesus Is my Joy


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      DeBorrah K Ogans 

      6 years ago

      Betty, Your pain is hearfelt... I am so glad that you have found Peace with the LORD! May your pain continue to ease knowing that you where there for your Dad to the end when he needed you the most. You even gave up your room for him... Right before he was able to cross over you gave him HOPE and placed new life in his hands... He is now with the LORD and there will be a glorious reunion! God Bless You! In HIS Love, Grace, Mercy Joy, Peace & Blessings! Remember to ALWAYS let JESUS be you JOY!

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      Lita C. Malicdem 

      6 years ago from Philippines

      Your father knows by now that he had you for a daughter with a forgiving heart. Those trials somehow helped you not to give up on him because you have a kind heart. With your prayers, he will be fine in heaven. Regards to your Mom! Take care. Jesus loves you!

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      6 years ago from Rocky Mountains

      jesusmyjoy Thank you for sharing your heartfelt testimony of love. Your writing touch's my heart with the love of God. Each day is a gift indeed. One day you will see your dad sister. Praise God. You are so precious jesus my joy. I love you in Christ. Beautiful.

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      Pastor Dr. Carlotta Boles 

      6 years ago from BREAKOUT MINISTRIES, INC. KC

      God bless you jesusmyjoy.

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      Betty Bolden 

      6 years ago from Bucyrus Ohio

      thank you brother pat..

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      Bro Pat 

      6 years ago

      Betty; I send my condolence and am glad to know that your father had given his heart to the Lord. Makes a lot of difference in ones life.. God Bless you today and my prayers are with you... Bro Pat.

    • jesusmyjoy profile imageAUTHOR

      Betty Bolden 

      6 years ago from Bucyrus Ohio

      God bless you all

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      Isabella Mukanda-Shamambo 

      6 years ago from Fort Myers

      You write so feelingly my sister. I could feel your yearning and desire to reach out to years gone by but I am glad too that you realize your dad is in a better place and that too in-spite of the sometimes hard times, you did have wonderful days. Remain encouraged sister.

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      His daughter 

      7 years ago

      I pray that the pain and emotion that you have felt through this life experience will be turned to good. It certainly is a reminder to us how precious each day is and that we need to make sure it counts by doing all God has for us and growing in that relationship with Him. God bless.

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      7 years ago

      What a nice hub. Explains why people have to change there innermost fears. Thanks for sharing.

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      James A Watkins 

      7 years ago from Chicago

      There is so much emotion in this little Hub. You made me feel it. And that is the mark of a writer with creative talent. Thank you.

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      April Reynolds 

      7 years ago from Arizona

      I'm glad you had good memories to hold on to among the hard.

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      William Benner 

      7 years ago from Savannah GA.

      Great hub, I really appreciate you sharing this!

    • WD Curry 111 profile image

      WD Curry 111 

      7 years ago from Space Coast

      The worker who showed up at the end of the day was paid the same as the ones who clocked in early. Life isn't always fair . . . thank God!

    • jesusmyjoy profile imageAUTHOR

      Betty Bolden 

      7 years ago from Bucyrus Ohio

      Thank you so so much

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      7 years ago

      I can feel your heart, dear one. Memories can be dear, but they can also be hard. I am glad you have found comfort in fine day you will see your dad again. Jesus is our joy and Jesus gives us hope.

      May God bless you today...and always.


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