The Book I Never Wanted To Read
The Book That Got Left Behind
It was too late. She had left on her flight back to the U.K.. But there it was on my guestroom bedside table, a book she had been reading since she had arrived to stay with me a month ago. The next time we talked on the phone I told her about leaving the book behind and she said she didn't need it anymore and to not bother posting it back to her. I was happy with that because the cost to ship it back to her was more than the book was worth.
I had better things to do
I love books, I love reading and I will read just about anything, but this book just didn't appeal to me. When I had asked her what it was about she replied 'miracles, magic, that sort of thing'. Not the sort of book I was the least bit interested in and it surprised me that she would bother to read it herself. I thought I knew my old high school girlfriend but she seemed to have changed a lot. Not in appearance, she still wore her thin straight hair very long, tied in a pony tail and never ever wore make-up, not even when she had got married back in 1974. We both turned 18 that year and I had been her bridesmaid. She had moved to England been through a miscarriage and a bitter divorce and had visited me here to 'get her head straight' she said.
I had better books to read
I put the book away with all the other stuff I intended to put in a garage sale one day and never gave it another thought.
Could Not Sell It
I did eventually have a garage sale a few years later. I was going through some personal issues myself and felt I needed to rid myself of clutter from my house and my mind. I found 'the book that was left behind' in amongst other books I had persevered with reading to the last page and vowed never to read again. I flicked through the pages, no pictures or illustrations, just text but on the front fly leaf was written 'To Jenny, this book was given to me when I needed it most, now it is mostly needed by you.' With love Layla xx'. I had no idea who Layla was or why Jenny had felt she didn't need it anymore. But I was just a little intrigued and as the people browsed my sale I started reading. By the end of chapter one I knew I would not, could not sell it. This book was talking to me.
The Right Time And Place
I read the entire book and found a change in myself I would not have thought possible. The author spoke of miracles as Jenny had said, but he also spoke of enlightenment, something I was only just being open to accepting. This book had enlightened me a lot about myself and others but I knew it was only the tip of the iceberg. I was, according to the author at a stage of 'Enlightenment through suffering' I was indeed, complaining a lot and asking "why me?" A stage we all go through at some point and a lot of us unfortunately never move to the next stage 'Enlightenment through outcome'. where you no longer ask 'why me?' but instead ask "what is in this experience I can use in a beneficial way, even though I may not understand why it is happening right now?"
Life is a jig-saw
When I invested some time going back through my life, I saw clearly how each event, no matter how good or how painful, had led me to where I am now. I was astounded to learn that even going through suffering at various stages in my life it had put me in touch with people who became my close friends, who in turn have led me to where I am today and doing what I love and being surrounded by people I love who love me just for who I am. All of the pieces fit perfectly and without just one of them the puzzle is incomplete. it is much easier now to be thankful for the suffering because without it I would not have had the opportunity to become a better person. That is not to say it is okay that certain people brought about suffering in my life, and it was a big step for me to quietly forgive them but i do accept there was a purpose working silently in the background.
So having read it through a few times and grasping the whole concept of the book I moved on to other things in my life but carried what I had learned with me every day. My life miraculously took a turn for the better. I relaxed and viewed the world in a totally different way.
I never thought about the physical book again. I had read it, understood it and learned a lot from it. I never realized that it was even missing from my prized book collection or even how it came to be missing. But just recently it turned up again like a long lost friend.
The Old Is New Again
My daughter was moving house (again) and had stored some boxes of her books in our garage. She came by to collect them this week and as she was picking through them and stacking some in a pile to give to charity, she said 'hey, this is yours Mum' It was 'the book that got left behind' I have no idea how she came to have it and she was astounded as well because we have not lived together since she was in her late teens. How did she know it was mine? I thought, but when I turned to the fly leaf, under the note to Jenny was written, 'and now your turn Chris, love Jen xx' I get goosebumps just thinking about it. The note to me was definitely not there before and when I asked Jenny, she said she had written it and hoped I would one day read the book. Well I had read it eventually and seeing the book again I decided I would read it again, just for old times sake.
I don't remember reading that.....
I am only up to page 80 of 260 odd pages and already I am amazed at the content. I recognize it as the book I read a long time ago but there is so much more that I am learning that it is as if I am reading it for the first time. I understand that people come into your life for a reason, perhaps to teach you something or perhaps as an opportunity for you to be the teacher and I believe the same can be said of books. The book that got left behind was left with an intention for me to read it but I just wasn't ready at that time. A few years later I was more than ready and it helped me immensely. I believe now at this point in my life I can honestly say I am ready for the third stage mentioned in the book and that is 'enlightenment through purpose'. I am eager to experience going beyond looking for the outcome in life. I want to discard the attitude of 'what's in it for me' and not be so concerned with attaining more and more material possessions. I intend to get my life even more on track and living a life of purpose, fully and lovingly. 'The book that was left behind' showed up in my life again just when I was needing it.
The Book That Got Left Behind
Well I suppose I should let you in on the name of the book that got left behind. It is written by Dr Wayne Dyer and it is titled Real Magic. He has written many books and I intend to read all of them and whilst I have acquired many self help style books in my lifetime, Real Magic is a stand out for me. I highly recommend it :)