The Thorns In My Side Complete Me
Each crisis I've plowed my way through, every dramatic event in my life, all my journey's have profoundly effected me and are part of who I am. The times I didn't believe I could muddle my way through were thorns in my side that forced me to push on or rest . These actions weren't always easy and sometimes I had to take a step back and evaluate my life. The times I was cursed with the why me I had to give myself a mental slap to remove that aspect from my thought process. Reminding myself that everything happens for a reason and that all in all, it could always be worse.
Overcoming such obstacles as my disability and mental health issues which I deal with on a daily basis, over coming grief at the passing of my brother, sister and fiance, handling the aftermath of destruction caused by my daughter's ex-boyfriend, raising my youngest daughter alone, struggling to keep my head above water while providing a home, food, clothes, comfort and support, assisting my middle daughter during her teen pregnancy and abstaining from having a drink of alcohol keep me focused, giving me the strength to push through these challenges. These were at one time thorns in my side that I struggled with and some of those are part of me that will never go away. However, they have also and continue to be my guiding force that has made me into the person I am today.
My faith, family and friends are my inspiration. First and foremost, without my faith I probably wouldn't be here today sharing this story with you all. My faith has kept me from drowning in my sorrows, pushing me to move forward instead of taking steps back, keep me from taking that next drink, removing the negative aspects that have inundated my life, comforted me through grief and sadness.