Truly, As I Am
Look in the mirror. What do you see? Look again. Who do you see? Is the image truly an accurate reflection of the woman looking back at you? Is the outer appearance equivalent to the inner appearance of who you are? I would dare say that in most cases it isn't. Many of us are impeccably polished on the outside but unraveled, stained, worn and torn on the inside. We are unraveled by the uncertainty of our identities. Am I defined by the world or by the Word? We are stained by past sins and mistakes, worn by unhealthy relationships, struggles and hardship, torn by the constant decisions and pressures to seemingly be everything to everybody simultaneously. Should I stay home with the children or go back to work? Should I return to school or change jobs? Should I be content or pursue my passions? Should I marry or remain single? Am I sacrificing for others while neglecting myself? It is only a matter of time before the process takes a toll on our minds, our bodies and our souls. It will slowly chip away at our self-esteem and value, eventually causing us to be desensitized to everything around us. We will find ourselves going through the motions and rituals of everyday life but deep within we are struggling to make it through the next moment. And finally something has to bring us to the point of asking, "Who Am I?"
I believe that the answer must lie in Someone much greater than ourselves. Who I am lies in the foundation of who God has created me to be. I can't rely on my personal perception of me because like most women, that perception is tainted with insecurities and frailties. We are surrounded by images and messages of beauty that are so superficial today. And that makes it difficult to see ourselves as God sees us. It promotes an ongoing arena to compete and to compare with one another. I believe that every woman should desire to be at her very best externally; but not as a means of masking her attire internally. So, how must we measure and define honorable beauty? By the Source, the One who created us in the beginning. I thank God that my confidence is in Him alone and because I am valuable and beautiful to Him, the perceptions of others hold very little weight for me. If the Bible says that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, then it is so and I must hold fast to that. I no longer can be tossed back and forth about who I am. When looking in the mirror, who's looking back isn't as significant (I didn't say that it isn't significant) as Who's looking down on me which is the true source of who I am. So, with rollers in my hair, a white mask on my face and wearing a big frumpy robe with matching big slippers, I can look at myself and say, "Girl, you are looking good!" Not because of the image glaring back at me but because of the God-given confidence that radiates from within me. Note: Please don't try this when husbands are near the area.The response may not be favorable. He may not touch nor agree...
Now that I'm confident in who I am in Christ, I can now accept who I am not as a woman. I can love all of me-my strengths, my weaknesses and all that exists in between. God really does love me as me with blemishes and all - if we could just embrace the same in each other. We must surrender all that we are and all that we are not to the Lord. It's okay if we sometimes fall short of other's expectations. It is impossible for us to be everything to everyone all of the time. That would be supernatural and I do believe only God holds that title. Women have so many roles to fulfill and it can be very overwhelming. As a result, it's possible that we can lose ourselves while meeting the needs of everyone else. Talk about 'wear and tear' on yourself! To give others our best, we must be at our best. That means taking the necessary care of the vessels (bodies) that God has blessed us with.
I'm excited about taking hold of the life that God has given me. I have greater passion, less anxiety and I'm ready to really dream big. You see, when a woman knows who she is, the possibilities are endless. There are no boundaries to what she can achieve. When a woman of God is excited about life, things change and lives are transformed. It doesn't matter where you are currently positioned, God can propel you into places that you could have never imagined. Just make up in your mind to just be happy! Shake some things loose and off of you. Life will pass you by if you don't purposefully make changes. It has to be with intent. Otherwise, every excuse or negative thought will keep you captive to a dull and miserable life. Life is much too short and precious for that kind of mindset. It may require you to pull away to be with the Lord in a quiet place but it is so worth it! Only He can give you the peace and direction that you long for in life. It may come instantly or in a process but believe that it will come.
Call someone and tell them that it's time to take inventory. It's time to pull out and pull it together. The process of change must begin with self. When we have confidence and acceptance of who we are, then we are ready to move forward. We are free to love more, give more and be more. Put aside all that weighs you down. Renew your mind. Be determined to make each day a better day. And if it isn't, trust God anyway. Speak possibilities into existence. You can't reach the destination if you can't see or imagine the exact location. The clock is ticking and you want all that God has for you. Tell someone that there is an abundant life out there just calling your name. It is summoning you to greatness. Get excited about something! Make some noise and shout with confidence, I'm here! I'm Blessed! And I thank God that I'm living life.... Truly, As I Am!