- Religion and Philosophy
Who Is the Real Jesus Christ?
Searching for Truth
I have been searching. Searching since I was a young girl to know the truth of who is the Real Jesus Christ? I didn't just want to know who the Jesus was that people would tell me about, but I wanted to know first hand who this True Living Jesus Christ was from revelation. I wanted him to reveal his truth unto me about who he was and is today.
I remember going to church and thinking, 'how do I know what I'm believing is real?' After all, people made up so many figures, including santa and the easter bunny. The thought really bothered me, but I knew there had to be a solid truth. There had to be a creator, something smarter than all of us. I had to search and I had to find truth and know that I could stand on what I believed in. So I have searched...and searched...and I have found Him. I have found the True Living Jesus Christ.
Deceived Then Found Again
One of the terrible, false religions that has been arising this century is the New Age philosophy. Yes, I have attended one of these false churches when I lived in Ft. Lauderdale, Florida. I was about 24 years old, and I was searching. At the time, I was taking care of my grandmother who had Alzheimer's. I was on a journey of cleansing and finding truth. I wanted to know what was real and what wasn't. I remember sitting in one of the sessions at the New Age Church and they explained that they didn't think God was something looking down at us, but an energy connected within all of us. Some guy stood up and tried to give people "a word of knowledge" but he wasn't even specific. He told me I was experiencing an awakening, although he heard me talking about it that morning. So fantastic job....he could hear! Seriously though, I was being so deceived. I thought I was experiencing an awakening, yet I was so distraught within, so broken, and so lonely. I just wanted more. I wanted to feel special and wanted to believe something positive was taking place.
I remember going home and taking a nap. Upon waking up, I remember feeling this separation, this utter loneliness from God. I felt that I had rejected him by trying to believe what I thought may be true, but was a lie from the pit of Hell. I felt guilty and more broken. I woke up feeling more alone than ever, wondering what if there were no God? What if there was no God to care about my pain and I am completely alone here? What is the point? At that moment I realized...I must believe in a greater power. There was an inbuilt yearning within me where I could not let my yearn go away. I was born with it, as we all have been. We yearn for the truth and we yearn to know him. Some of us just do not know it. Upon waking up and feeling completely lonely, I knew I had to believe in that greater power. I was still just so confused with so many questions.
I remember turning to other religions, spirituality and feeling massively broken inside. This is because I already was a Christian, but had been straying. He was with me all along and never left me. I remember feeling my lowest low after a terrible breakup. I had been cheated on, left, stolen from, and left alone in California. God took me back to MD, then I decided to move to Florida to help take care of Grandma. I remember clearly lying there on the floor of Grandma's apartment as she was asleep, and I was balling my eyes out. I had decided to truly come back to Jesus after a friend had helped pray me against being deceived. So I was on that white carpet floor with my arms spread out. I had no strength to get up. I had no strength to do anything, nor did I have any desire. I said "Please Jesus...please help me...touch me Lord." It was at that moment I felt a loving grip on my arm touch me. I will never forget it. It was not anything I could humanly explain. The touch sent chills upon my arm and gave me hope. He had not forsaken me.
Afraid...but Still Searching
I had not opened and read much of the bible, so the Jesus I thought I knew, I was so afraid of. I thought I had to try to be someone, and had no idea how strong his true love for me was. I didn't feel worthy and his grace seemed like something that was so distant. His grace was right there, I just had to reach out and touch it. I just had to know him and his love for me. I was in turmoil because I was unable to comprehend his true love for me, and I had not yet given him all of my wounds and pain. There were times during that period I literally just had barely any hope...but still by his grace...I was able to hold on by a small thread.
My New Friend
After turning back to Christ, and realizing I needed to just seek him with my whole heart, I decided to attend several deliverance services. At one service, while waiting for prayer, I began speaking to a jolly lady next to me named Debbie. Debbie was about 25 years older, had short brown hair, and blue eyes. I began to feel my cold, dried up, anxious personality loosen up a bit. I remembered I had a sense of humor as we sat there talking and laughing together. At that moment, I forgot about my sadness. I felt connected again, at least with someone. We exchanged phone numbers, and we still keep in touch today, 7 years later.
God knew I was lonely. He knew I needed help and guidance. I was not ready to just start reading the word everyday...I was not hungry for the word yet. So he sent me someone to help comfort me through friendship. Debbie would invite me over to her house and she would cook me dinner. We would listen to music together and worship the Lord. She would constantly tell me the importance of reading the word of God, but I just didn't understand. She would then read it to me.
I remember feeling so depressed at times that all I wanted to do was lay on her comfy couch. She would get me a blanket and put it over top of me. I look back and see how good the Lord was to me. He allowed me to meet such a kind, selfless person. His love was working through her. We would go to church together and I decided to get baptized. I remember the congregation all surrounding me after baptism as I prayed for the Holy Spirit. I tried so hard to feel the feeling of love, but I still felt so terribly broken. I still felt defeated. I felt so defeated, but knew that I had hope. My hope was from Jesus. I began to feel a love inside my chest. I still could feel a brokenness, but I felt something different. Actually I was baptized twice in Florida, and I am not sure which time I began to feel this, but I remember feeling it at that moment and still feel the Holy Spirit today.
For the past year, I have been avidly reading the bible. I prayed that I would be hungry for his word, and he listened. Now, I cannot go about my day without reading or listening to the word of God first, otherwise I feel annoyed with everything! I read the word and I have an unspeakable joy and patience! Praise God! I can feel wounds from the past being healed, literally. About 6 months after I began reading the word of God, I began to feel the word literally begin to pierce my heart, clearing out the wounds! I am no longer depressed or anxious. I have a peace that surpasses all understanding, and I just want the world to know this truth!
You see...when you search...you will truly find. You will feel his undying love. You may wander, but you are his sheep. He will always bring you back. Jesus says in John 10: 27:"My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me. I give them eternal life, and they shall NEVER perish; NO ONE will snatch them out of my hand." Of course, you do not want to wander. There are always consequences, and sometimes you have to be hit over the head to listen!
Notice how Jesus says his sheep will NEVER perish. He does not say they will perish if...they do this or that...he says NEVER. He says that NO ONE will snatch them out of his hand. Understand this...when you are TRULY saved, you are one of his. There is absolutely NOTHING that can take you out of the palm of God's hand. This is extremely important to understand. No matter the heartache or pain, the depression, the sadness, the confusion...when you are truly saved and truly his...he will always, always have you in the palm of his hand. And you have eternal life in Heaven awaiting for you when you leave this Earth.
This loving Jesus, this forgiving God, is beyond our imaginations. We are blessed beyond measure. We are blessed that he came to Earth to save us from eternal damnation.
He was born of a virgin Mary, walked planet earth for 33 years, died on the cross and rose to Eternal life. Why did he die? To save you and I and whoever truly accepts him as Lord of their life. To save the one who repents of their sin. To save the one who is sealed with the Holy spirit until the day of redemption.
Jesus Christ humbled himself as a servant. He did not come as a rich man, but he came humbled. He wanted to teach us about the Kingdom of heaven. He created all of us, because Jesus Christ and God and the Holy Spirit are all one (all one in three persons), yet he was rejected by his own creation. He just wants us to love him and accept him back.
Is that so much to ask? To repent and to accept him? All of our sins that we have ever committed, he felt the burden and the pain on the cross! He felt worse than you or I can ever imagine! But he loves us that much! In John 3:16 it states that "for God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life." Jesus Christ was the Word in flesh form. He fully God and fully human. This can be difficult for some to understand...but it is something that we as Humans are not able to fully understand. We just must know that Jesus Christ and God are one in the same, and Jesus is our way of salvation to God. He absolutely loves everyone of us and the only thing separating us from Jesus is if someone decides not to accept him. He paid the price and he was the ultimate sacrifice.
He loves us all. No matter what you have done, what you have said, what your past was...call upon the name of Jesus Christ. You will not regret it. He will take all of your sins upon that cross...so that God can see you as clean. This is all because of the blood of Jesus Christ. He is the Savior of the world. He shed his blood for us. Do you want to make Jesus Christ the Savior and Lord of your life? He loves us!!