I'm turning 65, I found out 2 years ago I was a border line Diabetic person, and had arthritis in my lower back and hands, Then I started getting tired more than usual, I was losing allot of late 240 to 169, my finger tips became very senitive to bumping them or hitting them as normal to things that never bothered before, I decieded to go in for a check, but hadn't recieved my medicade yet , not till I'm past 65 on july 4 th 20011, and it will take 115 dalloras off my ss check, which doesn't cover what I need alredy for just the basic Rent , Lights , Phone and insurance and carpayment.
I was alreay see life through the eyes of one thought it was all over but the dying.But! I started talking to Our Lord and trying convience him I ready to commit my self 100%, but I got no sense I was opening the door, Then I thought as a Dad and what I would expect from my own children, I began doing what I knew would please him, and I cleaned up my act, applied my self 100% to the health issues, excecised, eat smaller and healther foods. I prayed and talk with THe Lord more , and I wish u could see what has taken place I feel years younger my hands are filling back in, I sleep at night.
Well I could tell you allot of things I felt, Whats most important is I learned that I had to become more concerned how my father in heaven might feel about my action here on earth and how I was focusing on my own needs and stop working others to manage my life for me, while I was kind of milking thier feeling for all my whims and even worse was trying to make them to feel obligated, Well Changing my ways, becoming responsible for my own needs was all it took to put me back in the game of life. I guess I was tested and my faith was rekindled so that I might travel down the road of happinesss with those I love a bit longer.