This is it- so realize it! (haha- no one knows diddly, but this is my opinion and I do hope you listen)
There is no god and there is no religion other than what those before you would wish you to believe. I feel for you, as I began my earnest religious path at the age of 12. I followed that path for many years, but your answer is not to be found through the eyes of my puberty. Realization more often comes through the eyes of maturity and experience. Your question really has nothing to do with religion, as that is mere belief and you sound a bit asea in your wonderment of such. Did you invent religion? Have thee a definition of such? Yes, it's in the dictionary but scholars have not only debated it, but killed millions over it in the past 2500 years. I sure hope you are not of that ilk. What then could be a realization of something that someone else stuffed into your mind? You buy into another's ideas and you give your life to someone else's ideals and come into this world with a child's feeble and narrow minded ignorant bliss. Bless them, but your family and environment put those ideas there. Did you realize that? Unfortunately, that is exactly what they have wanted since Jesus died. He did not preach such feeble following, but to come into your own from a point of individual strength. Nonetheless, the money mongers, churches, evangelists and politicians will spin your little brain wherever they wish, in hopes of gaining more power and wealth. Believe me, they are very acute and it is so easy to fall into anothers web. Jesus knew about lambs- shall thee be another? Less than 6% of our country, and the world, are leaders.Lambs and sheep make up the rest. That's the way it is. OK, you get a couple of bucks and rams from time to time, but of no consequence. Prove me wrong. Now, after 60 years, I find this as total absurdity. I say that you find your own god and find your own path. That is the raw realization and I stumbled across it when I was 50.That is the long answer to your question, but I deemed it necessary, so I thought it appropriate to expound. Obviously, you are still a bit younger and will have your own shocks in the next 20 years. You are on your own, kid. DEAL with it and your mold will be much better to your liking as opposed to what others want you to be. And, shall thee still keep the faith, according to scripture, the Truth shall make thee free.
Blessings for success.