Knowing all that I do "know" about God, I don't think that I do. However, I love to share the Word! You know, I once went to work with Hollister while I was leaving Seminary, and there was this really cool manager who hired me, even though he was not supposed to based on the Abercrombie/Hollister Co. regulations. He'd worked his way up to management having been with them for so long. The only other alternative means to become a manager in that org. is to have a college degree.
I left Seminary because I genuinely felt compelled to go to art school. I was not a preacher when I was four years old, I was an artist, and I still am! Now, I won't say that there were not events of backsliding that followed my departure - I'd be a liar if I did not say that were so (I still "feel" backslidden, but I know the Word).
Back to that manager... long after I'd worked there with him, I encountered him working as a manager at a GUESS store in Durham, NC. He recognized me from an distance, came up to me and gave me a big hug. He sort of mocked my Seminary background a bit, but on that day when I asked him how and what he was doing with his life, he told me that he was now at the Seminary that I left studying the Word. ??? Go figure. See, I've been around the world - literally - and I have drawn no conclusions, but I've witnessed enough oddities transpire to see clearly that God is really the one who will use me - I need only be aware of Him, and at His disposal. I've been equipped with knowledge, but it's not my duty to go around shouting it from the rooftops - God will lead me where he needs me. To this day, I can't fathom what may become of the tragedy that my time abroad led to, but there was a good bit of "God-Talk" happening amongst myself and those who disagreed with God as a concept.
I neither feel, nor to I think I live for God. I won't say that I do - if I do, then I do so inadvertently because I think he picks up a hammer when he needs a hammer, and a compass when he needs a compass. What tool I am is chosen for the task that God needs to perform... but I am not a performer of Christ-likeness, since I can't live up to, or for Him unless He finds me to be the man for the job. I have given up entirely on thinking that I have control over much at all, save what little I can control such as my behavior, which, if I may, is not living for God, but just a pleasing sight for God to see...Others, as history revealed, like it, too...Manager/Preacher.