Your words may indicate your source of confusion: 'belief' and 'faith' are not the same, though very similar. The former is about cognition (thinking) and logic, as well as early socialization experiences from your family and culture. The latter is more centered in the 'emotional' brain, which, while having capacity for logic, also relies on a deeper 'knowing' of the heart. In addition, 'religion' and 'spirituality' are likewise similar, but not the same. I would encourage you to find a qualified Pastoral Counselor or Spiritual Director (not just any 'pastor' will do, and in fact, you might want to avoid them).