"GOD is a SPIRIT" (John 4:23-24)! Do you really think there is "lost" in GOD? No! You're only experiencing a "lost" of your (man's/flesh's) "philosophy, idea, or set of values!"
You're beginning to "GROW" in Christ! I Corinthians 15:31 says "I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, "I DIE DAILY!" It's not that we die physically, we come into TRUTH in HIS WORD by "researching" ("STUDYING" II Timothy 2:15), or "searching" HIS WORD to "see if (WORD presented to you) those things (WORD) are so" (Acts 17:11)!
Once Scripture is "researched," and It differs from what one has been "taught," it "cuts" (Hebrews 4:12) or "hurts" (Isaiah 28:13) when It "breaks" one's (flesh) ideas, philosophies, and values" they've acquired over the years!
This is the BEGINNING of doing what GOD requires of us! II Chronicles 7:14 says "If my people, which are called by my name, shall HUMBLE themselves, and PRAY, and SEEK MY FACE ("STUDY"), and TURN FROM THEIR WICKED WAYS; "then" will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land."
GOD HATES PRIDE! James 4:5-6 says "Do ye think that the scripture saith in vain, The spirit that dwelleth in us lusteth to envy? But he giveth more grace. Wherefore he saith, GOD resiseth the proud, but GIVETH GRACE unto the "HUMBLE!"
Therefore, in order to receive the GRACE of GOD, one has to HUMBLE himself and let go of what we have been "taught" rather "Study" and "Believe" what is in HIS WORD!
HE has given us GRACE ("Good News") under the New Covenant in the "Gospel of Christ" in which we can be "SAVED!" Ephesians 2:8-9 says "For by GRACE are ye SAVED through FAITH; and that NOT of yourselves: IT IS THE "GIFT" of GOD: Not of WORKS, lest any man should BOAST!"
Isaiah 28:13 says "But the WORD of the LORD was unto them precept upon precept, precept upon precept; line upon line, line upon line; here a little, and there are little; that they might GO, and FALL BACKWARD ("WAIT;" Acts 1:4), and be BROKEN, and SNARED, and TAKEN."
It "hurts" when one (flesh) "falls backward, be broken, snared and taken!" It means giving up "our ideas" of the "philosophy, idea, and values" we've "created" and/or been "taught!" That's why GOD asked us to "Trust in the LORD (WORD) with ALL thine heart; and lean not to "thine own" understanding" (Proverbs 3:5)!
Three Keys, you're NOT "in the twilight zone," but exactly where the LORD wants you! Continue "STUDYING," "PRAYING, asking for "REVELATION" of TRUTH in HIS WORD!