If I understand your question right, you have lost faith in God because your imperfect human lover gave up with you.
It seem you lost faith with the one who loves you unconditionally because you were disappointed with the failure of a conditional “love”.
I can tell you that God’s love and involvement with you is far greater than any lover, parent or spouse can match. God’s love is true and therefore is unconditional. Forget what the religious authorities and institutions will say. They falsely proclaim God has conditions. They have no authority over God. Jesus called them “hypocrites”.
That human lover does not love you truly because that was conditional. God will never dump you. He has always been with you, is with you, and will be with you forever. I am not suggesting you do bad things. The bad choices you make, will still hurt you. He prefers you make the best choice for yourself.
God talks to everyone, but only a few listen. Contrary to what others may tell you, God prefers not to communicate with us through words. Words are imperfect sound symbols, which are created by man.
He rather talk to us by other means. One means of communication he prefers is experience. He is probably conveying to you what false love feels like in a ways no words can express. If there is any message from him, it could be that you are bleeding over false love. This will help you understand and recognize that his love is different. It will also help you recognize real love when he sends you a true lover, a child or even a dog.
He lives in you. He has always been with you long before your conception in this life. He will always be with you, during death, and beyond death. He understands and feels your pain and loss.
It does not serve you well, if you lose your faith with him now, because this is the time you need his love and presence even more.