Living with Ambition
Ambition is the greatest poison there is.
It brings all other poisons in: greed, violence, competitiveness, struggle, a constant state of war with everybody else. It does not allow you any space for love to grow, and your real being flowers only with love.
Ambition is against love. Anything that is against love is against you and your real life, your real destiny. And nothing kills love more than ambitiousness.
Ambition means you want to be ahead of others. Ambition depends on creating an inferiority complex in you. It creates an ill state of affairs; it depends on that. Unless inferiority complex starts existing in you, unless you are full of it, ambition cannot function.
So, a child is being wounded in such a way that he starts feeling a deep inferiority: that others are superior and he has to surpass them, otherwise he is nobody. Each child is taught to create a name in the world, fame in the world. Each child is told, "The way you are is not right. You have to prove your mettle, you have to become "somebody"... as if you are not anybody yet!
You are born with a certain flavor of your own, with a uniqueness, with an individuality. Nobody else is like you...nobody else has ever been like you and nobody else will ever be like you. But this truth is never told to you. You are told, "Become somebody;' as if you are nothing. So you have to become, you have to compete to become. And of course, then struggle starts, because everybody is told to become somebody. Then, naturally there arises a cut-throat competition. Everybody is against everybody else. Life becomes a war, a constant war. In this state, there is no possibility of peace, love, silence, joy, celebration. All is lost.
An intelligent person is one who comes to see that there is no need to compete at all. "I am myself, you are yourself, I need not be you, you need not be me." A rose is a rose; it need not be a lotus. The lotus need not become anxious, worried about becoming a rose flower.
The whole nature is in deep peace for the simple reason that competition has not poisoned it. There is no competition at all. A small rosebush has no inferiority complex that, "I am so small." Nothing of superiority, nothing of inferiority, but each is unique. Human consciousness is being conditioned for it.
If you drop all ambition, then a totally new process sets in: your natural growth takes over. Then, you are not competing with others; you are simply evolving each moment within yourself, not comparing. If you are playing music and it is beautiful this moment, next moment, it will be more beautiful because out of this moment, the next moment it will be more beautiful, because out of this moment, the next moment is going to be born. From where else it will come? Next moment, you will have a deeper music arising, and so on, so forth. You need not be competitive with other musicians; in fact, if you are competitive with other musicians, your inner music will never grow. You may learn more tricks, strategies, techniques, how to defeat them, how to go ahead of them by right or wrong means because competitiveness is so blind. It does not bother at all what is right and what is wrong.
Competitiveness believes that whatsoever succeeds is right and whatsoever fails is wrong. That is only criterion for an ambitious mind: the end makes the means right. For a non-competitive mind, there is no question of thinking of others; you simply go on growing on your own. Your roots go deeper into your own nature. Not that other trees have reached deeper so you have to reach. You reach deeper for your own nourishment, you reach deeper for your own enrichment, you reach deeper because your branches can go higher. Only the deeper the roots go, higher the branches reach, but it has nothing to do with others; others are accepted as they are. Nobody takes any note of others.
It is certainly starting a new life up from the very beginning. That's why Christ says: Unless you are born again, you shall not enter into my kingdom of God. A rebirth is needed.