Sink or Swim Life
So it sleeted the night before, but roads were clear of ice. I headed out in my husband's blue 94 Aerostar van, aka, the War Pony. Here in the countryside of Kentucky the roads are narrow and no shoulders exists. On my way to visit with my sons in Peoria, Illinois, I was excited! Happy with the van's ease of gripping the road with each turn. I called upon Wakan Takasila, Sacred Grandfather, God and prayed out loud for safe journeys there and back. Beginning with a full tank and oil topped, all is looking good, feeling good! Then I choose to take the road my husband insisted I not take. And through that choice came a reminder that in life we sink or swim.
First the passenger side front wheel slipped off the pavement. As I tried to correct, the back wheel went off the road and soon found myself airborne over a five foot ditch, bouncing off the lip of the other side, landing on all fours wheels and rolled into a very muddy cornfield. Totaled the War Pony!
I was not scared, my heart not racing or pounding hard, but instead, I was ..... How do I put this delicately....well I was more than mad! First few thoughts were, I will never get to see my grandchild grow, oh my the pony is dead and why God did you not hear my prayer from my heart? I even used my life breath and passed those words across my lips!
The worst was my head smacking on the steering wheel. I jarred my lower back. There are minor scratches from the seat belt across my chest. For a fifty two year old woman, I came out of that Aerostar flight in pretty good shape. I am suffering from black eyes, but I am okay. I was walking and bending slowly, but bending. The best thing is that I was coherent. See it pays off to be hard headed sometimes! And speaking of being hard headed, while waiting for van to be secured for tow, I was still talking to the Creator about how I felt let down.
Suddenly, like a sprouting seed, I began to think about "what if". I know that seed was planted by my sister in-law in an email about a woman who had a horrible day. At the end of her day she complained to God why He let all those annoying things happen to her. His reply for everything that occurred was that He gave her the least harmful of events to happen in her life that day. For instance; for missing the bus that day and having to take her car to work instead, she missed out on that bus being hi-jacked. What if? I know I cannot see into the future, but I believe God can. He simply asks us for trust.
Standing back from the scene, I recognized that I was very lucky. Had I been in the car and same thing happen? I probably would be broken. It occurred only 15 miles from home! With in an hour, my husband, me and the war pony were back at our abode, safe. I decided to run into town and get some ice cream for my husband, one of his favorite treats, after all I did kill his the war pony! As I slipped into our little red prism, a childhood memory came flooding back.
I was six years old on a family vacation. During one of our morning swims in the pool, I almost drowned. My brothers rescued me, but later that afternoon, my mother made me go back out into that blue pool. She wanted me to overcome my fear! Today, swimming is still one of my favorite sports. I overcame. Slipping into the car was like going back out into that deep blue pool. I have applied my mother's lesson throughout my life and quickly took control of the steering wheel and conquered the fear. I put my trust back into the Creator!
My husband was thankful I was okay, and despite his horrible cold and need to go lay down and rest, he stayed up with me the rest of the day and evening to watch me because of the blow on the forehead. Then we decided I should take the car and go see my kids, like I promised them. He was very supportive of unpacking and repacking. After a good nights rest, I was fit for travel. Creator answered my prayer and safely delivered me to my sons, and grandson. I also took the road my husband told me to take!
Conquering fear and instilling trust have kept me afloat in my life. As we tread our way through life we learn to swim or we simply sink. With this accident, I am reminded we sink or swim baby! And honey, I made it to my grandson's and we all are back stroking just fine!