Roots of Suffering
Why are we miserable?
We are miserable because we are not aware of what we are doing, of what we are thinking, of what we are feeling. So, we are continuously contradicting ourselves each moment. Action goes in one direction, thinking goes in another and feeling is somewhere else. We go on falling apart, we become more and more fragmented. We lose integration, we lose unity and naturally, a life that is not harmonious is going to be miserable, burden, suffering. At the most one can make this suffering less painful and there are a lot kinds of painkillers available.
There are only two ways out of this suffering. They can become meditators being alert, aware, conscious or the cheaper way is to find something that can make you even more unconscious than you are, so you cannot feel the misery. The second way is not the true way, it only makes your suffering a little more comfortable, a little more convenient. But it does not help, it does not transform you. The only transformation happens through meditation as meditation is the only method that makes you aware. You have to become aware of your body and what you are doing with it.
The first step in awareness is to be watchful of your body. Slowly, slowly, one becomes alert about each gesture, each movement and as you become aware, a miracle starts happening. Many things that you used to do before, simply disappear. Your body becomes more relaxed, your body becomes more attuned, a deep peace starts prevailing even in your body, a subtle music pulsates in your body.
Then, start becoming aware of your thoughts. The same has to be done with the thoughts. They are more subtle than the body and more dangerous too. When you become aware of your thoughts, you will be surprised at what goes on inside you. If you write down whatever is going on at any moment, you are in for a great surprise. You will not believe it. Just for ten minutes go on writing. Be truly honest, go on writing whatsoever is going on inside the mind. Don't interpret it, don't change it, don't edit it. Just put it on the paper as naked as it is, exactly as it is. After ten minutes, read it, you will see a mad mind inside. We are not aware that this whole madness goes on running like an undercurrent. It affects whatsoever you are doing, it affects whatsoever you are not doing, it affects everything. And the sum total of it is going to be your life.
The miracle of awareness is that you need not do anything except to become aware. The very phenomenon of watching it, changes it.
Watch your feelings
The very phenomenon of watching it, changes it. Slowly, slowly, the madman disappears. Slowly, slowly, the thoughts start falling into a certain pattern: their chaos is no more, they become more of a cosmos. And then again, a deeper peace prevails.
When your body and your mind are at peace, you will see that they are attuned to each other too, there is a bridge. Now they are not running in different directions, they are not riding on different horses. For the first time, there is accord, and that accord helps immensely to work on the third step, that is becoming aware of your feelings, emotions, moods. That is the subtlest layer and the most difficult, but if you can be aware of the thoughts, then it is just one step more. A little more intense awareness is needed as you start reflecting your moods, your emotions, your feelings.
Once you are aware of all these three, they all become joined into one phenomenon. And when all these three are one, functioning together perfectly, humming together, you can feel the music of all three. They have become an orchestra. Then, the fourth happens.
Which you cannot do, it happens of its own accord, it is a gift from the whole. It is a reward for those who have done these three. The fourth is the ultimate awareness that makes one awakened. One becomes aware of one's awareness. That makes one a Buddha, the awakened one. And only in the awakening does one come to know what bliss is. The body knows pleasure, the mind knows happiness, the heart knows joy, the fourth knows bliss. Bliss is the goal, and awareness is the path towards it.