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What is Grace?
It can happen only when neither the disciple nor the master is doing anything; it can happen only in a nondoing, absolute nondoing, because grace is not something you can do anything about. You can simply be receptive, open, that's all. Nothing positively can be done about it. It is already flowing - the whole existence is filled with grace. You are closed, and the more you do something, the more you will become closed - because every effort gives you a more egocentric feeling; whatsoever you do creates your ego.
Whenever you do something you start thinking of the future, of the result. You start expecting. So two things happen: firstly, whatsoever you do becomes a food for the ego; secondly, whatsoever you do leads you into the future, then you are not here and now. And these both are the barriers. One thing: you must be here and now, and you must not be - you must not be - an ego. Then you are open, and whenever you are open the grace is already flowing; it has been flowing forever. If you are not getting it, it is not something that you can get by doing.
The more you do, the more it will be impossible for you to get it. The whole effort of the master is to teach you nondoing, nonaction. Or in other words, the whole effort of the master is to take you back - to teach you how to die, how to throw the ego completely, and how to be in a state of nothingness, a state of nonbeing. Buddha called that state anatta, the state of no-self: you are but you are not a self. Then there is no boundary to it, then there is no barrier around you, then all the doors are open - then life can flow, come and go, through you.
Grace is not something special that is going to happen to you: grace is the very existence itself, it is grace-filled. The blessing is showering on you. Only one thing can be done, and that is to help you to disappear, to help you not to be. And whenever, even for a single moment, you are not there, flowers will start showering.
You are doing something. When you also stop, growth happens. When you also drop doing, suddenly the ego disappears. You are not ill; you have become whole and healthy. And whenever you are whole you have become holy. Both the words come from the same root. The word holy doesn't mean anything more than becoming whole. Whenever you are whole you are holy. And you cannot be whole with the ego, because ego consists of division. Ego creates a split, you divide yourself. When the ego disappears divisions disappear. So the whole effort is how to make you effortless, and the whole doing is how to bring you to a point where doing ceases, is no more.
Grace has been flowing always, that is already the case. It is there right now, flowing around you, but you don't give a door to it. All your windows are closed, all your doors are closed; you are closed, imprisoned in yourself, you don't allow any winds to blow. These meditations we are doing are just to help you to drop all doing.
A short story...........
One man, a great king, came once to Buddha. In one hand he had brought many flowers; in the other hand he had brought a very rare, valuable diamond. And he had brought both because he thought, "Maybe Buddha will not like the diamond; then I will give these flowers, put these flowers at his feet."
He came, both hands were full; in one hand the great diamond, in the other, flowers. First he tried to put the diamond at Buddha's feet. Buddha said, "Drop it!" He thought, "He has rejected the diamond," so he dropped it on the ground. Then he tried to put the flowers and Buddha said, "Drop it!" so he dropped those flowers also. Then there was nothing to give him as a present, so with both hands joined in namaskar, he tried to put his head at Buddha's feet. And Buddha said, "Drop it!"
Then he was in a puzzle - what to do? How to drop this head? Buddha started laughing and he said, "Those things were useless - you can drop the diamond, that is not of any significance; you can drop the flowers, that is not of much significance - unless you drop yourself. And those two droppings, those two orders, were just to prepare you so that you can learn dropping. Now the ultimate has come. Drop yourself!"
And there cannot be anything else before a buddha. What can you give as a present? Flowers, diamonds are meaningless - unless you give yourself, unless you become the offering. You are still doing - that's why there is a problem. Whenever one of you drops doing and not doing anything, suddenly the happening, suddenly flowers will start showering.