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Going Home From Iraq

Updated on February 27, 2010

Combat Tour in Iraq

 This is my third deployment to Iraq.  The first deployment took place from March 2004 to March 2005.  The second deployment went from October 2006 to December 2007.  The current deployment is ongoing but started in December 2008 to present.  This hub has been written on 18 Aug 2009, the day before I am to go on mid tour leave.

I couldn't be any happier with this new development because there are so many negative things going on in the world today.  I only know what I read on the internet for news because I am quite frankly tired of all the rubish on the news channels.  Personally, I am the kind of guy that would be content to hear about something once.  What I have discovered with T.V. news is that they love to drag a story through the dirt until nobody gives a rip anymore.  Anyway I digress.

 

Coming Home

Baby I'm Coming Home

Throughout the past deployments, I have changed my personality. This is kind of to be expected because of the stresses of combat. After the first deployment I became distant from everything and everyone. I hid from social contact even with my family. This is a period that in retrospect I regret. The second deployment was far worse and I continued to sink into self destructive patterns of behavior. I drove my family further away from me, I refused to talk about somethings that I witnessed during the deployment with the only person in the world that deserved to know...my wife.

I think this period of time coupled with the intermission of the first deployment compounded and drove the wedge even further. One would think that a marriage would not survive in this type of environment. Well they'd be right on the money. Divorce was imminent and at one point it was almost worth giving up, then I spoke with my friends who recommended a movie for me to watch. The movie was "FireProof". If you have never watched this movie and are having troubles in your marriage, watch it and learn. I did just that and told my wife about it. She watched it and sent me the book.

So we discussed where we were going as a couple and agreed to see where it goes. From that day to this I have taken measures to change who I am as a man. I cannot say that I am where I should be but each journey begins with the first steps. I look so forward to going home, even though it's for only two weeks. In this time frame I plan on giving everything of myself to my marriage. I know that it will be an incredibly hard journey but I believe that love deserves every effort that it requires. My wife is the strongest woman I know and I admire everything about her.

With the excitement of what is to come and what is possible I am beside myself with excitement.  I have practically worn a hole in my floor from pacing so much.  For a hardened combat veteran who has realized the fallacy of his ways and wishes to make everything right again, there is nothing more exciting than going home.  I am sure other vets may feel the same way.  I know that I will be tested by myself.

Daddy's Coming Home

 For my baby girls that mean the world to me, I look forward to spending some good quality daddy--daughter time.  I tell you there is nothing greater than being your little girls hero.  Remember I am SuperDad.

So good times will abound as we get to catch up on all the happenings of the last eight months.  For everyone at hubpages that reads this I will see ya'll again in September. 

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      Candie V 7 years ago from Whereever there's wolves!! And Bikers!! Cummon Flash, We need an adventure!

      It is so great to see your words filled with hope and optimism. I don't think you are alone in the way you have coped with life, but your environment has isolated you physically. Well done in your quest to discover what is truly important. Keep up the good work (and I do mean 'work') it will pay huge rewards later. Many hugs!

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      dohn121 7 years ago from Hudson Valley, New York

      Great to hear, Superman. You deserve it! I look forward to your return.

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      Eileen Kersey 7 years ago from Kingston-Upon-Hull

      Good Luck Wes. Have a great time at home. If you haven't already done so, a hub about why you joined the military would be interesting. Perhaps I should ask you as a question ?

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      wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

      Candie: thank you for the words of encouragement

      Dohn: Thanks

      Ethel: You could ask me in a question but then again you just did. I will write a hub about why I joined the military but it will probably be short. I might need to stretch the truth some. Writers priveledge, and such. Thanks for the comments.

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      Merle Ann Johnson 7 years ago from NW in the land of the Free

      God Bless You for all you have suffered through for us here in the U.S.A. and am sorry it has taken a toll on your marriage, but i can see you are BOTH strong , caring, loving people and I do hope your trip home is a great one and that it soon will be a permanent stay...You are a SUPERMAN TO MANY OF US...thanks...:o) hUGS g-mA

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      ralwus 7 years ago

      Well I am so tickled for you son. I surely wish the best for you and yours. I suppose you may not even read this now for quite some time and I hope you have a wonderful homecoming with yellow ribbons aplenty and hugs and kisses too from your wife and child. Peace forever Sarge.

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      wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

      Thank you G-ma: I really appreciate your sentiments.

      Ralwus: Thanks for the support

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      maggs224 7 years ago from Sunny Spain

      I hope that your leave matches up to your highest hopes for it, coming home on leave is hard at the best of times not just for you but for your wife also, and in war time it is even more so, but with love and patience much can be achieved. I wish you the best of times with your family

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      Organic Thoughts 7 years ago from North Carolina

      Welcome home..... and wish you a super home coming.

      I can imagine the excitement in your family about your return.

      Tons of best wishes!!!

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      Dame Scribe 7 years ago from Canada

      Hi WC, do not be too hard on yourself. We are forever learning. Your marriage takes a amazing couple to stand by each other with the job you do that very few are willing. I hope you have a fantastic leave while home. :)

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      Pachuca213 7 years ago

      Have a great time at home and look forward to seeing you on here again soon! =)

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      Ladybird33 7 years ago from Fabulous USA

      Welcome back, I can't imagine the feeling and what you family is feeling. May God bless you all. Thank you for serving our country, I am very grateful!

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      ralwus 7 years ago

      He must be having a nice time. Hey Wes, take it slow now.

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      wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

      Thank you everyone for commenting. I am having a great time hear at the house in good ole' Texas. Unfortunately all good things must come to an end and I leave again on monday. Really sucks but at least I'm on the extreme down side of the deployment. Not too much longer until I am home for a good while. Ralwus, I have to live my life in fast forward so slowing down isn't an option. I shall try to take things slowly though.

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      ralwus 7 years ago

      I know how it is son. Hang on to every moment is what I actually meant. I will be so glad when you are back for good, I feel...somewhat attached to you in a way I can't explain. Maybe because I haven;t heard from my youngest son, a Marine, In a looong time. I fear for him as well. Don't even know where he is now or what the hell he is doing. Ach, no news is good news, right? peace now and hang on tight son when you can hold them in your arms.

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      Julianna 7 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

      I am so happy that you are home and my husband and I watched "fireproof" and we also utilized the book. It was complicated but before he was sick we found each other again and I would highly recommend it to anyone. My prayers will always be with you and your family as family is very important I can attest to that. Never give up on Love and love the person that you are with, with every last breathe that you take. Love comes once in a lifetime and your relationship is far more important then letting go of everything you love!! God Bless! :)

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      wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

      Thank you Mrs. Evans, I appreciate the comment and am glad that you watched the movie. I only wish that I had watched it about three years earlier.

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      rebekahELLE 7 years ago from Tampa Bay

      I so deeply appreciate what you are doing for our country and I just want to leave a message letting you know there is not a day that passes that I do no think of our troops and the sacrifices they are making. I recently saw the movie, The Hurt Locker and it deeply moved me. There was one part that I just started crying when the soldier riding in the jeep said that he didn't know if he could keep going because he felt no one cared~~~~ I wanted to jump out of my seat and yell, we care, we care!

      Best to you with everything~~ you deserve it!

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      wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

      Rebekah thank you so much for the warm thoughts. I appreciate the courtesy you have shown.

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      Useful Knowledge 7 years ago

      This is very heart filled and really touched me. I know that it must be very difficult to be on the battlefield and then come home. It has to be hard to forget all that you have seen in war. Thank you for sharing.

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      wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

      Useful Knowledge, somethings we hold in our minds will never leave us, we have to learn how to live with it. Thank you for the comments.

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      Crazdwriter 7 years ago

      Very touching hub, Wesley. I know it is definitely hard to elave loved ones but thank you for your sacrifices.

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      wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

      Crazd: It definately is hard at times but we get through it one day at a time. Thank you for the comment.

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      prasetio30 7 years ago from malang-indonesia

      welcome home after long journey. I think you get a lot of experience while on Iraq. Welcome back.

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      wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

      Thank you but I am done with leave and am back in Iraq now. I don't think that I need anymore experience on Iraq three years is long enough. Thanks for commenting.

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      myownworld 7 years ago from uk

      truly enjoyed reading this....I love the line ' I will be tested by myself'....you really have a way with words....... keep posting!

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      wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

      Thank you myownworld. I am honored you have stopped by.

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      Hmrjmr1 7 years ago from Georgia, USA

      Wesleycox- Glad to read things went well at home. Now keep focused and get through the rest of your tour safe. The women who love us are a special breed and those who stay with it are rarer, and more beautiful than all the jewels on the planet. God Bless you and yours...

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      wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

      I really appreciate your sentiments but this is not the case as things did not go well. Thank you for commenting and visiting.

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      poetlorraine 7 years ago

      i missed this one toooooo i wish i would have had a daddy like you...... god i really care about you, hope everything works out for you. You are a humble man, and humility is a very strong feature to posses..... may god grant you everything you ever want, love and kisses to you and yours,

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      wesleycox 7 years ago from Back in Texas, at least until August 2012

      Thank you Poetlorraine, though I hold many titles, Father and husband are the two I am most proud of. Worry not of the hubs you missed, I know you're a kind person. Thank you again.

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