Start the Journey
Ever since a young age I have always felt like something was lacking in my life. Like there was a purpose, waiting for me. A small little voice calling out my name, telling me that there was somewhere else I should be. At first I pushed it aside like everyone else, thinking that the life I was living, was the life that was given to me and that I should try to make the best of it. But as I got older, this little voice never stopped. In fact, it grew louder and louder till it was this constant screaming in my head day and night. I knew something had to change, I knew there was no knight in shinning armour that was gonna swoop in and carry me off to a far away land, the only one who could change anything, was me.
So I started on my journey. What attracted me? What made me feel like my life would not be complete without seeing or doing this specific thing? Travelling was my answer. Seeing new places and being placed in a totally different environment than what I was used to. I knew I had to leave my home town, but how? I believe that this is a question alot of people ask themselves. How could I leave my relationships behind? I can't quit my job! How could I give up this beautiful house and beautiful things I have worked so hard for? It got to a point where these materialistic things were taking over my life. Stopping me from doing what I truly deep down was craving so much. Slowly I started weaving threw my life, discovering all the things that were unnecessary. As I started to get rid and sell my material things, I started doing research day and night trying to figure out what was calling to me. Then one day I met this man, Joe, that was going to Australia, he told me so much about it, it sounded so breathtaking. So I started looking into it and it was even more beautiful than I thought. I decided I was going to Australia. Coming from the Capital of Canada, it seemed like such a strange place, where apparently as everyone told me, everything wants to kill you! Everyone thought I was crazy and that I would never go threw with it. But I could not keep living my life in the same place, with the same job and the same people. Since I was a single girl I was a bit nervous about making the trip on my own, so I started looking up websites. I found some amazing ones, travelbuddy.com allows you to talk people from around the world, ask them their travel plans and their experiences and perhaps even find someone to travel with. Wwoofinternational.org is another great website that allows you to go and voulenteer in peoples homes accross the world in exchange for housing and food. These were great resources to have for someone who has never travelled. I did my best to try to convince my friends and family to come with me, some of them said they would, but I knew they would never go threw with it. Everytime I would get close to booking my ticket, these thoughts would run threw my mind, am I ready? Do I have enough money? How will my family be able to live without me? Finally I got to a point where I needed to make a decision for me, so I booked my ticket to Brisbane. I was not prepared, I couldnt even absorb the thought that within a month's time I would be accross the world. Within the month I went threw so many changes, there was so much to think about. When the time came, I got rid of all the stuff, quit my job, packed what I believed I needed, said good bye to my friends and family and got on a big jet plane.
I was so nervous and so scared. I hadn't been on a plane since I was 3 years old. I remember digging my nails into the seat as the plane took off, looking down onto the city I called my home. Feeling every emotion, scared, sad, excited, nervous and a little nauseous. But I did it and it was the best decision of my life. I had never felt so empowered and free, I was in control. I was free of my family expectations, of my work hours, of my phone, that at the time was constantly ringing, of my bills and of my responsibilities. It was the greatest feeling. All of my doubts and worries, were still there, but they were silenced by the amazing feeling of success, freedom and curiosity. I had just embarked on the most amazing adventure of my life, my adventure of self discovery. Hence this is the first chapter of my journey.
Do not wait. Do not wait for that perfect moment. Don't wait for when you have enough money. Don't wait for someone to join you or for when you feel totally ready, because that moment will never come. You are the only one who is in control of your life. Sometimes you just have to take the leap and build your wings on the way down.