How I Lose My Mind Daily!

This is an absolute emergency.........I have just realized my mind is missing, now can anyone tell me how to get it back?

It all happened about 9 years ago....I had just had my first child, a daughter. She was the picture perfect infant, hardly cried, slept through the night after a few weeks, and she hit every milestone on time if not sooner. Life was great, calm and somewhat quiet. I would sit and daydream about my little girl who would grow up in dresses, never talk back, and she would just be calm and sweet. Three years later my first son was born. He was also that picture perfect infant for awhile, but then out of nowhere he just started to scream about and for everything. He had some delays with his milestones which is fine, but what he learned was absolute torture. Instead of learning to talk, he learned to scream. When I say scream I mean scream for hours and hours and hours.......He is turning six this week and I will tell you this is a habit that he can do perfectly to make any sane person lose their sanity. So another three years after him I had my second son, he decided to leave my body two months early. I guess I can't blame him for that, the constant screaming of his brother would do that to anyone. He just needed that peace and quiet after birth and just decided he would only get it in the NICU. Now he is two and I will tell you he is the picture of the terrible twos. He has had alot to study so far in his life between his sister and brother. Also added to this precious mix is my stepson who did I mention is just about the exact age as my daughter, so when my fiance and I got together it was instant twins.

So here I am, a stay-at-home mother to four kids under 10, a maid, a cook, a financial planner, laundry room, personal hair dresser, and the list just goes and goes. I wake up before the kids everyday faithfully because I know that will be my only peace and quiet for the day. Once I hear the kids begin to wake up I brace myself, but I still have the hope that maybe today my wish for the calm days will begin. Nope think again!!!! Five minutes awake and the screaming, taddling, and meanness between the kids start. I am up on my game, figuring out disagreements, making breakfast, and trying to distract the kids from each other. Lunch time roles around and I am starting to lose the battle, the kids start to sense my weakness and it is all down hill from here. By supper time I can't even get their names right, and I think I just actually called one of them by the dog's name. Now they are really on to me... By 9:00 I am ready for bed but they are not, it is now going for 10:00 my white flag is in the air and I surrender. They stole my mind from me and now I just hope I can find it before morning so we can do it all over again!!!!!!!!! Just having the kids in my life is enough, who needs a mind right???????