Who's Loving You Now?

Michael Jackson talking to audience

I'd like to talk to y'all tonight
About the blues
One of Michaels Brothers:The blues?
Yer the blues?
Don’t nobody have the blues like i have
I may be young but i know what its all about

This was the beginning of a show put on by the Jackson 5 when Michael Jackson was about 10 years old or so. It was the beginning intro for their latest hit “Who’s Loving You”? Then Michael goes on to sing the song about how he messed up a love affair and he wonders who is loving the girl now.

I was pretty young when this show first aired but saw it years later on a show that was a tribute to the late Michael Jackson. It got me thinking that when I first heard this song it didn’t really have any effect on me, I mean I liked MJ a tremendous amount, especially his voice as a child, but I never really listened or thought about the words until I read the interview with Michael Jackson by the man that was to write a book about MJ, and recorded hours of tapes with Michael and the tapes are filled with stories about his fame, fortune and sadly his childhood.

That’s when I got to thinking about the childhood that MJ must have had that a boy at the age of 10 could sing the way he did, with such emotion that it just wants to make you cry because you believe every word of it and it pulls all the strings of your heart and you know deep down that whatever the age of this little boy singing this song, it is apparent that he has felt pain, humiliation, love and disappointment. Yes he had a god given talent to sing but being able to proclaim “the blues” in the way that he did took personal experience.

It was exacerbated even more so when I read the interviews with Rabbi Shmuley Boteach, who was the one interviewing him for the book and the honesty in what Michael was saying about his childhood and what his life was back then.

I personally do not generate any judgments’ about Michael Jackson, he was a man that I never knew, never met. I don’t know anything that he has ever done wrong, I was not on the jury that tried to convict him of child molestation, and I certainly wasn’t there when it supposedly happened. No, I am only writing here about the emotions, absorbing as they were that the song stirred up in me after the interview, and what affect the pain of his childhood might have had on him when he sang the words to the song that was originally for Smokey Robinson, and even Smokey himself said at Michaels funeral that Motown thought that this little 10 year old boy had more soul then him. That is a very telling statement. Here are some of the statements from Michael Jackson about his father that were to be in the book that the tapes were made for.

According to the Rabbi.” Michael Jackson feared his father so much he would faint or vomit sometimes when his father entered the room -- even when the pop singer was an adult.

Michael Jackson's taped statements about his father's treatment of him as a child echoed what he has said previously.

"He was rough, the way he would beat you, you know, was hard," Jackson said. "He would make you strip nude first. He would oil you down. It would be a whole ritual. He would oil you down so when the flip of an ironing cord hit you, you know, and, it was just like me dying, and you had whips all over your face, your back, everywhere. And I always hear my mother like, 'No, Joe, you're gonna kill him. You're gonna kill him. No.' And I would just give up, like there was nothing I could do. And I hated him for it. Hated him."

Another Michael Jackson quote from the book alleged emotional abuse by Joe Jackson:

"God bless my father because he did some wonderful things and he was brilliant, he was a genius, but one day he said, 'If you guys ever stop singing I will drop you like a hot potato.' It hurt me. You would think he would think, 'These kids have a heart and feelings.' Wouldn't he think that would hurt us? If I said something like that to Prince and Paris, that would hurt. You don't say something like that to children and I never forgot it. It affects my relationship with him today."

So here is the song and you may disagree with me on this and that’s fine if you do, but in my opinion when you hear this specific song, it really makes you wonder about the love that Michael Jackson received as a child, if he was ever allowed to be a child, and if you can hear what I hear in this dynamic performance.


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creativeone59 6 years ago from Gold Canyon, Arizona

Thank you for a very nice hub On MJ, thank you for sharing it. Gopdspeed. creativeone59


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Michael Shane 6 years ago from Gadsden, Alabama

Nicely done!


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Pamela99 6 years ago from United States

Good hub


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50 Caliber 6 years ago from Arizona

ladyjane1, I'm listening to the tune now. I think it's ok but if you put a ten year old face to it it's damn good! I never knew about the details and that his father was a man waiting to meet a guy like me who would have shot him in the face for beating a child or woman as well as any animal, that wasn't big enough to eat him, in such a manner.

I never believed the rumors of his child molestation charges, I didn't follow the trials and it seems in my memory he was acquitted of those charges. It was in my mind for folks talking smack on him, "get real folks", your talking about a messed up guy for sure, but he could buy and sell most of us at one time or the other. So I'm guessing if he was that twisted he could fly to any 3rd world and buy as many kids as he wanted and do what ever then bury them under never land, or what ever his personal play ground was called.

Seems to me with the tale of being greased like a rodeo pig then beat with a extension cord if it was fact he would have reason to be as crazy as he appeared to be. So never was a fan and was sad when I heard about his purchase of a part of the Beatles music as well as his death. I figure after so much to do as what flew around him, no one ever got the chance to bring him to lay his soul and sins at the alter. Hope I'm wrong.

Good hub.


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

Creativeone59 thank you so much for reading my hub I appreciate that you liked it. Always nice to see you. Blessings to you.


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

MichaelShane thank you for taking the time to read and comment glad you liked it. Bless you.


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

Pamela thanks for stopping by and thanks for reading. God Bless.


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drbj 6 years ago from south Florida

Fascinating story, ladyjane, and if the disclosure of the abuse he suffered from his father is true, then it's no surprise that he appeared to be "troubled" for the rest of his too short life.

Thanks for this well-written hub.


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

50Caliber good morning to you, it is always nice to have you comment because you always have so much to say and I appreciate that. I agree with you on everything you said. I don't believe for a minute that Michaels father was innocent of beating his children. I think he used them as cash cows from the time they knew how to speak. I think the only love MJ recieved as a child was probably from his mother and siblings and if you ask me they probably were all a little messed up thanks to papa. Whatever the case this is the song that just touches me very deep inside because he sings with such passion. I too was dissapointed when I learned he bought the rights to many Beatles tunes and I'm sure Paul McCartney was as well, since he probably wrote most of them. Anyway, at least MJ is at peace now and whatever pain he indured is over. Thanks so much for reading and God Bless you.


TattoGuy 6 years ago

Great hub LJ, my fav MJ song will always be " Ben "


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

Hey I almost didn't recognize you, thanks for reading and I like your new picture. Oh and Ben is a great song as well.


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amillar 6 years ago from Scotland, UK

He was a good-looking lad before he started messing around with plastic surgery. There seems to be signs of insecurity there; the mind boggles - he had so much going for him.


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

Hello Amillar you are right he did have so much going for him but when a person is so damaged psychologically fame and fortune never matters as in the case of Elvis and so many others. The mind boggles for sure. Thanks for stopping by.


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50 Caliber 6 years ago from Arizona

ladyjane1, you are right, sometimes too much to say. The loss that was Micheal Jackson began when he wanted to be something he was not, it's really too bad he didn't feel well as God made him because I wonder what we lost while he was troubled and going through his physical changes.

A cash cow, a good description. I knew the little girl who played on "The Adams Family" TV series and she had made enough money as a child doing that, she could have been well off, but her parents milked her dry. They did buy a nice house in Laguna Beach in California. I met her at a Narcotics Anonymous Meeting, she had fell to drugs and she was a beautiful woman about 30 to 35 I guess and living in the house after her parents died. Listening to her story of forced fame was amazing and sad to learn what folks do to their kids. We live in a great country with freedom that produces some sad circumstances for children, don't you think?


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

Right you are Caliber and child stars from the past were basically supporting their parents and rarely saw their money but now there is more laws against parents touching money that belongs to child stars, they cannot just bleed them dry anymore thank goodness as so many did such as MCauley Culken and so many child stars from the 50's. I also think that because of the abuse that Michael endured from his father had a lot to do with him wanting to change his appearance. I read somewhere that his dad used to make fun of Michaels nose so much that it bothered him to the point that he had to change it and then the plastic surgery addiction got out of control, just kinda goes to show that he was so uncomfortable in his own skin. His mind was not well.


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

Caliber and you never have too much to say, there is no such thing on my hubs lol.


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Hummingbird5356 6 years ago

A very good hub. Abuse of any kind destroys a person in some way that can never be got back again. Child abuse is one of the worst crimes in my opinion. Michael Jackson was a good singer and until he started messing with his appearance he was good looking. He definitely was not a happy person most of his life.


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

hummingbird thank you for your kind words they are appreciated and I agree with you completely.


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Ghost Whisper 77 6 years ago from The U.S. Government protects Nazi War Criminals

I just loved MJ's music-When I was living and working in Vegas-he was there one day while I was cocktailing-he closed down one of the forum shops in Caesars so he could shop. I saw him from about 200 feet away-he had many around him-and he was wearing his mask. I felt sad for him. The feelings I got from him-so strong as I stood there watching him briefly-so sad! This man was sooooooooooooo incredibly sad-it eminated from him so STRONGLY that I wanted to weep.

Everyone around him did not see his sadness nor feel it though it raged and swelled from him. People are so enthralled by superstars that they are only thinking of themselves when they get near these stars.

I wanted to hug him--when I stood there watching--I just wanted to walk over to him and just hug him. Not because he was MJ but because he was so very, very sad. I will never forget that day--and what I saw and what I felt--I am crying now. I was so deeply sad when he died-but somewhat relieved for him-because his sadness is gone now. God is with him and I know this!

People care too much for money and fame but I am one who knows by that day I stood near the forum stores and 'felt' him...that he cared very little for the money and the fame...he wanted LOVE and his sadness was immense because of the lack of it. I understood him and that energy that was coming from him. :*(

They are just human beings-just like us.


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

Wow Ghost Whisper that was a fascinating experience. Im sure that it was also very sad like you say. I always thought there was much sadness and deep dark secrets in that family because they all seem to look like that. Thanks for reading and blessings to you.


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pammjschaar 6 years ago from Mississippi Gulf Coast

Very sincerely written, LadyJane, and I too appreciate it, as a huge fan...I am very new to HubPages and just ran across your Hub while scrolling through the Hub Fan Clubs. Funny thing, I just published a hub about "childhood" inspired by MJ and how he was the consummate child..So sad, he couldn't be a child when he was SUPPOSED to be one, and when he did act like one, everyone thought he was nuts. Anyway just wanted to say HI and Thanks for publishing this! It's very nice to meet you! L.O.V.E. & God Bless, Pam


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

pammjschaar how nice you are thanks so much for your kind words they are so appreciated. It is very nice to meet you as well and I will look for your hubs as well. Bless you too.


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Ghost Whisper 77 6 years ago from The U.S. Government protects Nazi War Criminals

His sadness was so strong that I can hardly articulate it to you..I don't know about his family-I only know about this experience.I never did get to see his show...:*( He is much happier with God now.


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

Ghost Whisper perhaps that is why whoever his friends were really loved him so much because they felt this sadness about him as well and it brought them closer to him. When I saw "This Is It", I was amazed at how he kept his composer and was so kind to the people that worked with him. Most big stars like him basically treat people like crap when they are perfectionists and Michael just seemed so naturally kind to people even under the most stressful situations. and you are right he is at peace now. Blessings to you Ghost Whisper.


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Ghost Whisper 77 6 years ago from The U.S. Government protects Nazi War Criminals

:) Because his heart was sooooooooo good but sooooo sad.


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breakfastpop 6 years ago

Terrific hub about a very tortured soul. There is no doubt that Michael endured a horrible childhood that helped form him into the screwed up man-child that he became. What a shame. Having said that, whatever else he was, he was certainly talented.


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

breakfastpop thank you for reading. I agree about his childhood. I keep thinking about the funeral and how his dad was the only one that looked like he wasn't even sad. He was making jokes to reporters, who does that at their son's funeral? I dont know. Blessings


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Micky Dee 6 years ago

Michael Jackson is a superstar always. He's now forever young as Merilyn and so many. He's been a victim. I don't know much about much. "He said, they said"- but his "art" speaks true. I'm not into pop idols, sports icons, or anyone "here". We're folks and we need to help people. I think Michael has helped a bunch. He just helped me! Thanks Ladyjane.


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ladyjane1 6 years ago from Texas Author

Micky Dee thank you for your comments its always nice to see you on my hub. I too believe that he was a victim most of his life. Thanks again.


violeta 6 years ago

Creo ,que lo que pasaba con MJ tanto dolor tantas burlas de su padre de sus hermanos lo que el queria ser o llegar a serv no importa como. MJno tuvo infancia fue tormentosa, quiso cambiar para no recordar toda esa tramoya, asi las cirugias iban y venian era otro michael pero con la misma maravillosa voz de siempre my triste pero a la vez nos dejo la riqueza de su musica su voz de angel.RIP michael God blees you always.


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epigramman 6 years ago

Ah Dame Streep (of Meryl) I won a dance contest once to a Michael Jackson tune - Wanna be startin' something - and the MC introduced me as the man who invented dancing - and yes that is a true story - it happened on a cruise ship and my dance partner (whom I only met 15 minutes before the contest) shared a winning bottle of MUMMS champagne under the full moon on the upper deck.

Your hubs are worthing dancing to - I should know - they have a music all of their own!


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freshlaundry71 5 years ago

I was and always will be a huge MJ fan. I still cry when I watch videos of him so alive and brilliant. He was a shining star that was oh so very fragile emotionally. I will always remember his contagious smile and his innocence. Even in his forties he had a childlike spirit. There were many people in his short life that tried to prey on him like vultures and unfortunately the vultures killed him. Its funny how the world will eat you alive if you let it. RIP Michael..you left a huge imprint on this world and on peoples hearts. Great job LADY JANE!!! As always!!!


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ladyjane1 5 years ago from Texas Author

freshlaundry71 thanks for leaving such a nice comment on my hub about MJ. He was amazing and his childhood was so bizzare and he missed out on so many things. I don't for a minute think that he was a child molester but I do think that he was very naive about how he thought about kids. He was childlike and that got him into trouble.

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