A recurring dream I had the last two years before retiring, an answer to Billybuc's challenge to write a dream sequence.

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Some evenings I was the only R.N. on duty in the rehab. dept. at the hospital.

I was alone, driving my car in the middle of night, attempting to locate Healthsouth Hospital where I'd worked for years as a R.N. The road was unpaved, and it was pouring rain. My tires were drudging through deep, muddy ruts. I'd driven for hours when suddenly the hospital came into view in a forest-like sitting in the middle of nowhere.

I pushed on my car door handle to exit my car, it wouldn't budge. I grabbed the remote control, it was useless, just when I thought I was trapped inside my car, the door opened.

When I reached the hospital entrance, it was locked. I pushed the after-hour buzzer, no one came. I frantically started beating on the door, no one heard me. Suddenly the door swung wide open. When I entered, I couldn't find my nurses station. I noticed people milling about but didn't recognize anyone. With desperation mounting, I turned a corner and there it was!

I must have drawn blood from a patient because I was now walking to the lab with a bucket ( not a vial ) of swishing blood.

I guess my shift had ended, I was at the door attempting to leave, the door wouldn't open. After several attempts, the door swung open.

When I got to the parking lot, my car was gone. After running around like a crazed lunatic, there it was, and yes, the door wouldn't unlock.

That's when I woke up, perspiration dripping, my heart pounding like a drum. When I realized I'd been dreaming again, I was giddy with pent-up relief.

This dream was a recurring dream or night-mare I'd had the last two years I worked at Healthsouth.

I'm quite sure stress was a major factor. The hospital had recently initiated a new policy, only an R.N. could start an iv and only R.N.'s could do admissions. ( In the past if a licensed practical nurse was iv certified they could start and maintain their own iv's, and they were allowed to admit parients. )

Some evenings I was the only R.N. on duty in the rehab. dept. I remember well the last evening I worked. I had eight patients of my own, plus maintaining several iv for the LPN's, and I received two admissions. When the Dr. asked about the second admission, I blew!, Informing him that I had just finished the first admission. ( My tone was anything but pleasant. )

At that precise moment in time, I positivily knew it was time for me to retire. ( Phew! )

P.S. This dream slowly disappeared overtime.

I also want to thank Annart for daring me to write a dream sequence. Thank you Ann.

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billybuc 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

Thank you for taking on the challenge, and taking it on with gusto. This dream would fit well in a short story or novel...not that you have plans of writing a novel, but it is perfect for a thriller. Well done, Ruby!


DJ Anderson 24 months ago

Were you truly an RN before retiring, Ruby?

It certainly sounds like you were. They expect too much from the RNs

in most places. Recently, our hospital affiliated doctors were told they

could no longer have an RN assistant. They could only have an LPN.

Then, they were told that they had to be fully automated with no paper,

by a given date. My doctor is a terrific doctor but she had no computer skills. After a year of being told what she could do and had to do, she

walked away from her practice. She is married to a doctor so money is not a factor in her decision to leave her practice. She is sorely missed.

You did a great dream story, Ruby. Sounds like you got away from that place at the right time.

DJ.


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always exploring 24 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Bill. I'm so glad you think my piece is good enough for a thriller. It is all true, the drean and the work experience. Thank you so much. I know you usually take the weekends off, so I'm honored to see you...


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always exploring 24 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello DJ., yes I was a R.N. and worked in nursing for 34 years and loved it until the hospitals tightened their belts too tight. There should have been at least two R. N,s working each unit after they changed to the new policy. I really could ever understand that change. I've worked with some LPN,s who were excellent iv nurses, in fact if I had difficulty starting one I had a LPN I would go to for help So glad you liked my story and yes, I got away at the right time, although I do miss nursing at times...Thank you so much...


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Jodah 23 months ago from Queensland Australia

This dream would have been quite scary Ruby especially the fact that it was recurring. I think it was certainly telling you that you needed to retire as an RN. Yes it would fit well into a short thriller type story. As i told Bill I have a number of my dreams written down, but the challenge is to fit them into a story. We shall see. Voted up.


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Frank Atanacio 23 months ago from Shelton

I guess stress will always be a main factor.. to recurring dreams.. the skipping from starting work to actually been at it carrying a bucket instead of a vile of blood.. was creepy, Im so glad it has faded.. bless you


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Jodah 23 months ago from Queensland Australia

Ruby, you may wish to correct the spelling of "recurring" in your title. Delete this comment if you want.


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annart 23 months ago from SW England

Well, Ruby, you did it! Well done! Those dreams when you can't get out, you can't access anything, you're blocked at every turn, are really scary and frustrating, aren't they? Glad it subsided. Stress can affect our bodies and minds in so many ways, it's quite spooky!

I was right there with you in this; well-told and with good pace.

Ann


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello John. I know for a fact that it was stress related because the dreams slowly diminished. It's good that you have your dreams on paper, now write a dream sequence. Thank you so much..


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Frank. That was the weirdest part about the dream, a bucket of blood. lol I'm always happy to see you on my page. Thank you...


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello again John. Thank you for spotting my typo. I'm sure I reread the title three times before hitting the publish button. I would never delete your comment, I'm thankful for any help on any of my hubs. Cheers...


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Ann. So glad you were right there with me and you thought it had a good pace. It was fun to write. I read Mary's piece yesterday and was blown away by her flying like an eagle. Thank you again for the dare, it gave me the courage I needed to write this....


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annart 23 months ago from SW England

You're welcome! Don't wait for a dare, though, just go for it next time! Never underestimate your writing abilities.

Ann


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mckbirdbks 23 months ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

Hello Ruby. Now that was one muddy, bloody, ruddy dream, sure glad you have let that one slip away. You had a colorful career.


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m abdullah javed 23 months ago

Hi Ruby. Excellent piece of write. It fascinates as the short story has a very thrilling ingredients. Apart from stress, I think the recurring of dreams silently convey your inner strength that needs to be portray with loads of guts. Thanks for the share.


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Faith Reaper 23 months ago from southern USA

Whew, I am so glad this dream faded eventually, as it is truly terrifying. Bless your heart with all of that stress and so glad you knew when it was time to leave. You may have read about HealthSouth's founder, Richard Scrushy, and his prison time and where he was ordered to pay 2.87 billion in connection with HealthSouth's fraud. HealthSouth is headquartered here in Alabama, where prosecutors did their job, believe me!

Merry Christmas and blessings always.


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Genna East 23 months ago from Massachusetts, USA

Hi Ruby. I’m just now getting caught up with Bill’s dream-sequence challenge. Your opening paragraph keeps us glued to this dream: The long, difficult drive to the middle of nowhere and an area that was unrecognizable, as were many of the staff members, who had apparently locked the door and didn’t answer the buzzer. I see your deep caring amidst the indifference of others, the struggle to find your way do what your conscience said must be done – despite being overworked in an environment that changed so significantly, it becomes too stressful, unrealistic, and unworkable. Inevitably, the right choice was to retire. Good nurses are gem-treasures, Ruby. You were (and still are) one. For your sake, I’m glad you retired when you did. Excellent write! Voted up and shared.


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Venkatachari M 23 months ago from Hyderabad, India

Very horrific dream. It is a relief that it stopped coming now.


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rebeccamealey 23 months ago from Northeastern Georgia, USA

Maybe you should turn the dream into a short story? Well-written!


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bravewarrior 23 months ago from Central Florida

Wow, what a dream, Ruby! I can imagine how relieved you were to wake up and realize it was only a dream. I can also feel the stress, frustration, and fear that propelled you through it. I'm glad the dream has finally stopped haunting you. Seems it was a message that you'd had enough.


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello agaim Ann. I am just now getting comfortable writing without rhyming. I guess poetry is my passion, but trying something new is fun too. Thank you so much...


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MartieCoetser 23 months ago from South Africa

Very interesting dream, Ruby, exposing your feelings of that time. Your wish to get out, to move on, but you are trapped until someone/something else frees you. Interesting, just like in your dream the door eventually opened unexpectedly.

Hugs,

Martie


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Mike. I did have a rewarding career. I met some remarkable people who worked in the field, plus patients who taught me so much through their many cultures. The only time I wasn't happy being a nurse was my last two years at Healthsouth. When I gave my resignation to the DON she asked me to just take some time off and come back. There were days that I missed being there but knew I'd done my part. Thank you much...


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello M abdullah javed. Your comment is heartfelt. Thank you for always reading my hubs...


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Theresa. I remember when Scrushy was indicted for fraud. I was working at Healthsouth. Many of the employees lost their life savings from their 401's. I'm glad I never bought into that, I did CD's instead. One of the nurses who had worked there for years was unable to retire when she wanted to because of her loss. That's another case of greed, he wasn't satisfied with millions, he wanted it all. Thank's so much for your valued input..


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Genna. Your comment is so pleasing to read, your kind heart shines through your words. I loved nursing so very much. I can't imagine doing anything else. When I was a child I knew what I wanted to do and thankfully made it through three long years of highs and lows in training. Thank you for an excellent write comment and for sharing...


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Venkatachari M. Always nice to see you. Thank you for coming by...


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello rebeccamealey. I'm not sure I could add enough to this to write a short story, but thank you for suggesting it. Thank you for the well written comment....


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Shauna, it was definitely telling me I'd had enough. Why it took me two years to decide tells me that if circumstances had been different, I would probably still be there. I have a good nurse friend who still works part time there. Healthsouth hospital was taken over by Deaconess hosp. after Healthsouth's founder was sent to prison for fraud. ( See Theresa's comment above. ) Thank you for coming by.....


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Martie, little did I know that I would fill the void left from nursing with writing. If someone would've told me that I could write I would've laughed my head off. I had never written anything ever and I'm still amazed that I took it up, but I must admit I love it. I'm slowly finding out when one door closes, another one opens if you're willing. Take care my friend..Lot's of hugs and goodwill...


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Nell Rose 23 months ago from England

Phew that's some dream! but I totally understand it! you were under so much stress that it was pouring into your nighttime dreams! I often dream about my last job, but in silly situations!


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Faith Reaper 23 months ago from southern USA

Not only that, dear Ruby, our Governor at the time, went to prison too for his dealings with Scruchy! I can say without a doubt, our prosecutors are not swayed to the left or right, but stay on the trail of the stench of public corruption no matter who the person is, for if there is wrongdoing or criminal activity, they will be found guilty here.

Hugs and, yes, when one door closes, God surely opens another door. His plans for us are far better than anything we could ever come up with no doubt.


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DDE 23 months ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

An interesting thought from your horrid dreams. You certainly got my interest here. You should get more into the real art of writing in expressing your mind as you have in this hub.


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Dip Mtra 23 months ago from World Citizen

Interesting article. We have dreams,everyone, but it's difficult to recollect them as vividly as you did in the article. Well written and recollected!


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Nell. I had a dream last night and I was cleaning house. yuck! lol..Thank's for coming by...


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Theresa, I didn't know about your Governor. I am happy to hear that the prosecutors did their job without any political persussion.Our Governor Rod Blagojevtch went to prison for fraud too. It is such a shame when our elected officials put greed before duty. and yes, I believe a door opened for me because I love writing so much. Thank you again..Hugs and blessings...


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello DDE. Always nice to see you. Thank you for coming by..


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Dip Mtra. The dream was so vivid and recurred nightly, I could always remember every little detail..Thank you for the well written comment...


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tobusiness 23 months ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

Ruby, boy oh boy, can I relate to this! We are currently in the midst of political madness. The hospital trust where I work is undergoing massive changes, far too complicated to go into, but as always, nurses are having to bear the brunt of our politician's craziness.

In my recurring dream, It's the end of my shift, I'm walking around the unit to check up on the new admissions when to my horror, I come across a patient we'd forgotten. There's an immense sense of relief when I wake up in a panic, only to find that it was only a dream. It's incredible how the subconscious mind can affect our dreams. This is a great response to Bill's Challenge.


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radhikasree 23 months ago from Mumbai,India

I read your recurring dream with much zest and curiosity. My cousin has married a nurse some days back and I heard from her much about hospitals and their duties. Your dream is full of climax with fine describing words....Sharing in Hubpages.


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Jo. Why am I not surprized to learn of problems existing in England too? The greedy cut-backs do affect the quality of nursing and the stress comes through in our dreams. I hope it gets better for you. Thank you for coming by. Maybe you will write a hub about it? I know I'd be interested...


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello radhikasree. Thank you for a thoughtful comment. I wonder if hospitals in your country is the same? Thank you for sharing on HP...


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PegCole17 23 months ago from Dallas, Texas

Ruby, It's safe to say that you were definitely feeling the stress and pressure of your job. That dream must have seemed like working all night after working all day, or vice versa. Our body is trying to tell us when we've had enough if we can take time to listen. Your job as an R.N. had enough pressure without the additional nagging of your doctor. I really don't know how nurses deal with the constant responsibility of the job. Thank goodness they do.


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Hello Peg. I was totally stressed out when I finally made up my mind to retire. I just received a Christmas card from my R.N. friend, Pat and she has now retired this year, and she said she didn't miss it at all and it had not changed. I loved being a nurse and sometime I still miss it. Thank you so much. Happy New Year...


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The Examiner-1 23 months ago

That was really something Ruby, especially since it was true. I did think that it was you until I read your comment/post previous to this. Now I am cofused wether it was you or your friend. I voted it up, shared an pinned it.

Kevin


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

Kevin, this is about me, it was my dream, thankfully it is gone since retiring. Thank you for coming and sharing it...


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The Examiner-1 23 months ago

I am glad that you got it out of your system Ruby. It was probably stress from your job.

Kevin


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always exploring 23 months ago from Southern Illinois Author

I'm sure it was Kevin. I never have dreams about work anymore. Thank you for reading and commenting.

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