Death do us part - Ready for that Day

Death do us part - I am ready

I took this vow twenty years ago, not fully realising what it actually meant. I knew that until I died I would be faithful to my husband, but the understanding was only at the surface level. I learned the meaning of this vow as life took strange turns and twists. Sickness, kids, life itself all took its toll on me... and though it is negative in someways it did have its positive effects. I knew what it is to love, especially when I became a mother, life took on a whole new meaning. It was AMAZING! Love is Amazing!
This hub is not about my life, but it is in someways related to it, because it is about death. Last week I had the silliest of all urges to write about what would I like to do before I died. This is not like a bucket list of how I would like to climb the Everest or to go to some exotic destination. It is about the things that matter so much to me. I still do not know why I have to write it here.... but the urge is strong, I would like to heed that inner voice. Hey, no, don’t mistake me.. I am hale and hearty and not contemplating on taking my life, far from it, I want to make each moment of my day count. I live each day with gusto and passion and would like to embrace death in the same way.

Priorities in life

I had listed all the things I would want to do.. last week, but put it off hoping that the urge would go away. For some inexplicable reason it stays on, who know the ways of God!

So here I go...
I would want my family and friends to know that I love them. Each one is so special to me. Somehow I feel that each person was chosen and brought into my life for a purpose and I am grateful for having had the privilege of spending some part of my life with them.

I would want to spend all the time I have with them, especially with my darling spouse, my soul mate, and my best friend. I could not have wished for more in this life. He is indeed the better part of my life and the very reason for my happy existence. A gentle human being, faithful, loving and kind. I really am blessed by you! (You know that, don’t you?)
I would like to share with them all I have learned in this life and where I have failed..but leave it to them to derive their own lessons.
I would be happy to give them all I have, in terms of material, love or whatever is left of me.

Being forgiven is as important to me as to forgive. Asking to be forgiven for any harm or hurt I caused them would be very important to me. Especially to my children, I may have been harsh in my enforcement of discipline, I could have been a little more gentler.

Spending time with God is something I do everyday, but if I was going to meet Him I better put on my best robes in terms of cleansing of my soul. I would ask for his forgiveness though I believe he has put my sins away as far as the East is from the West the day I accepted him and started a new life.

I would like to make each day I live the most memorable day and the happiest day of my life, doing what I love to do.
Having done all this, I would like to establish my peace with all things, settle my accounts (not that I have too much to) and tell my dear ones about every thing they need to know about me. Only so that they do not have to treasure hunt in their time of grief. I would probably prepare a list of the things I have or done and how to find them.
I would spend each moment doing things that are well thought out, prioritise my time in such activities that would not seem like a huge waste of time.
I would not like to waste a minute thinking of anything negative, of past regrets and pain. Instead I would do all the good I can. Keep focusing on the positive and that alone.
I would make very minute count and work against time to make my life richer and get as much out of it.
I would love to sort out any issues that I might have had with people and without hesitation try to make peace with everyone, whether they like it or not.
I would take pleasure in arranging my funeral myself. Maybe indulge myself for one last time (I don’t do that so much in real life) I would order flowers and ensure that my coffin is decorated with pink and white flowers, I would like to leave in style..they way I lived, making the best of everything. I would like to avoid any trouble for others so I would take care of all the important stuff myself.
I would make requests to my family and friends that they don’t cry for me as I am happy and that I leave in peace.
I would leave a letter or a special gift to those I love just as a keepsake.. telling them they could throw it away if it didn't fit in..
But most of all I would share my secrets of happiness with them as I see so many unhappy people around.
I would like to have one last wish, hold my husband’s hand and smile as I leave. I smile so much everyday and would like to leave that way.
I would like to be mad, crazy, funny mad as I am everyday. That would be me, the true me to the very end.
I might break down, not because of the fact I am leaving but because of the fact that I will miss being with my family and friends so much. I might try hard to hold back my tears, but I know I would laugh one moment and cry the next, alternating until I am gone finally to rest forever more.
And Ah Hubpages .. I would ask my friends to write about me without mentioning my name of course... .lol :) I was just being naughty as I always am... :)

I guess I will be happy in death as in life! :):):):)