Depression is a Mind Code Virus
Depression is fed by negative mind code
Depression can be a Performance Issue
Everyone has gone through an episode of depression at one time or another in their life. Millions of Americans experience depression every year. Many don't know that there are different types of depression. The one type of depression I would like to address in this article is situational depression or as I would like to call it "life depression". This life depression is the result of events in life that are not going the way we would like them to go. Because they are not going well we pick at them or over judge them in great detail. When we judge we are not doing them well enough, we become despondent, stop doing and focus on worrying by over thinking.
I have heard helping professionals for over 30 years define this type of depression as "anger turned inward" . Okay they are right. When I was in my throes of my depression, I was angry at me more than others due to situations that went wrong. What was I angry specifically about? That I was not performing up to my standards or expectations I had set for myself, not achieving someone else’s standards or meeting expectations someone had for me.
I am sorry but I always thought the definition "anger turned inward" was incomplete sentence and not an answer that anyone who is suffering from depression. My question is what is the anger about or where did it come from?
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Anger Turned Inward
After 40 years of suffering from bouts of depression and helping other with it, I have finally figured out the whole answer to the question. Ready? Life depression is anger turned inward due to his or her judgment of how they are performing or did not performing in life. What was I angry specifically about? That I was not performing up to my standards or expectations I had set for myself, not achieving someone else’s standards or meeting expectations someone had for me. Now that is an whole idea or definition I can understand and I can sink my mind in to it. For example, when our country or any other country, performs poorly economically the country goes into a period of depression by national and global economic standards. Humans respond in the same manner. If we lose a job, a relationship or a sports contest we experience feelings of depression.
Our society has become so performance based. Some of the highest paid, most revered and judged individuals in our society are sports figures. Being #1 is a value and values are very important in this society. Our performance is rated constantly by others and by ourselves and how we perform in different aspects of our lives; education, job, marriage, parenting, sports, social situations, and relationships to just name a few. We deeply feel that our performance rating defines us as a person, our status and our values. No wonder we get depressed or down on ourselves when we do not perform to an “expected level”. Unfortunately most of the time it is not our expectation we are measuring ourselves against. So we withdraw from others and speak angrily to ourselves. Pondering statement like "I am not good enough", “you could have done better”, or "I am not worth anything, I do everything wrong". Or we consider why we cannot do anything right or are perfect.
Depression is a Mind Code Virus
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What happens when we judge our performance so critically? Well, we get depressed. We review life events from outside ourselves like a gymnastic judge rating a gymnast over minute details of a routine from behind a judging table. "Why didn't you do this?" or Why didn't you said that" for a given life event. Looking for why we did not perform perfectly. Meanwhile we are not experiencing our lives.
I will share piece knowledge I learned along the way about self-judgment. "If you are in state of judgment then you're not in a state of health". Meaning, a human has to symbolically step outside of themselves to be able to view their performance. One has to view self in order to make a comment of any form; critical, negative or positive". That accounts for the feeling of not being self when in a state of depression.
Enough, no matter what I do or not, someone is always judging me. How do I correct this? A saying that I have adopted is in my life is as follows: "life is self defeating enough without your help." I have worked hard on this saying to enhance my ability to experience the here and now I have worked so hard to achieve. So next time you have depressed feelings as the result of a life event, look at what you are judging your performance against and at what or who's standards. Do not be resistant. Recognize those feelings, identify what you have learned from the experience and then make an action plan to improve your situation and life. Get back in the game.
Self-judgment causes Situational Depression
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