I crashed
I tried to fight it
I am slightly groggy, I tried so hard to fight it but it happened anyway. I crashed. I wrote as much as I could about the stresses in my life, even how to avoid this but it happens.
What I mean by crashing is coming down from a hypo-manic or a manic state. It is like falling down a mountain. I don't remember much except going to sleep. I was in a catatonic state and my eldest daughter took me to the hospital, they loaded me up with benzos I had never heard of and it brings me out of it my catatonic state or as least thats what the doctor said. a bunch of bruises and alot of meds and he sent me home for my MD said "I was waiting on this, becuase u refuse to take your Klonipin." He does'nt realize it takes all my strength to swallow a damn aspirin. I hate pills. I hate em. They cause damage.
Thanks to Sem Pro you are the friend I have always needed. As I read your encouraging words I realize that people like you are far and and too few..
I don't know what else to say except i am a litttle low right now, still a lot of meds in my system and I don't feel like an idiot I am human i am bipolar.
It's not path I havent crossed and beat before.
I am beautiful
I am a good mom
I am a good grandmom
I am a good friend
I am always here
I give
and Karma sucks