Is Depression Real? Can Cymbalta Help? - a Poem about Depression

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April is National Poetry Month

For National Poetry Month, I thought I'd answer a question asked on HubPages, answering with a poem that addresses the thoughts and feelings of those living with depression. I hope you are appreciating National Poetry Month by reading--or writing--more poetry than you usually would! #15

Is there help for depression?

Depression hurts. Cymbalta can help.

Well, that's what we hear...as I start to yelp.

I'm not making fun or taking this lightly

'cause this funk at its worst is dark and unsightly


Lost in my thoughts with little recourse

but just hang in there with forlorn remorse.

So sorry that I have to be this damn way.

If you don't believe me, you don't have to stay.


I don't like this either. I can't just cheer up.

I don't choose the deluge that makes me erupt

with clamoring emotions tight in my brain,

my heart overrun with storm clouds and rain.


If I could be happy with some magic pill,

Don't you think that I would? I assure you I will.

I enjoy the bright sun and the gentle moonlight,

but the monster that lurks in my head I must fight.


As much as I block it, it's always in there.

It's not that I'm acting, or that I don't care.

With the blessings I have and my life going well,

To still have to fight the darkness is hell.


I try to be light, my heart heavy and raw.

I don't want to be broken. If you knew what I saw

When I look in the mirror, it makes my soul whine

to see despair in the face that has to be mine.


The sadness persists...it comes and it goes.

It thrashes around...I'm trapped in its throes.

And when it keeps staying...and hanging around,

it thwarts my brave efforts; in its abyss I drown.


The smile on my face hides what's raw and what's real.

Perhaps over time, and with patience I'll heal.

But I'll never be normal like you want me to be.

Maybe I can be happy. But I'll never be free.


Cymbalta can't help. Depression is real.

I can never atone for the way that I feel.

Give me some space, but hold out your hand.

Just know that I'm trying...the best that I can.



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writer20 4 years ago from Southern Nevada

Please take your rant poems to your doctor so he can see the despair your feeling, then see if those meds can help. Joyce.


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Just Ask Susan 4 years ago from Ontario, Canada

Up, Useful, Beautiful. Fantastic poem. You've described depression perfectly through your poem!


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DanaTeresa 4 years ago from Ohio

Beautiful... This really brings forward what depression is and how it feels..... I really connect with the cymblata reference. I yell at that damn commercial all the time. It helps a little. And it helps me gain weight, and spend money, and waste time at doctors. It is no miracle cure... Thank you for writing this.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

writer20--Thanks for the comment, but, actually, this isn't a rant. It's just a poem to describe what it feels like to be depressed. I know that many people find it hard to understand depression and why people can't just "get over it." See the question asked about depression being in the imagination; that's what I was answering with this poem. It's not in the imagination, and I was trying to convey that. I think it's important for people who are NOT depressed to understand how real it is, and for those who ARE depressed to be validated by others. Meds may help some people to some extent, but it is hard to totally obliterate a real illness. Anyway, I hope the poem imparts some understanding about depression--something that is very real to a lot of people. Just Ask Susan has a great poem, too, that describes feelings of depression: http://just-ask-susan.hubpages.com/hub/Remembering... if you want to read it. Thanks for reading.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Thanks, Susan. I wanted others to have some understanding about how real depression is...how it feels. I'm glad you saw that. Thanks!


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Nat Amaral 4 years ago from BC Canada

A beautiful poem. It almost put me into tears because I can completely relate to this. I had dealt with this time and again. Doctors and friends have been helpful, but unless they're going through it ourselves, it's not something they can understand.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Dana--Yeah, the commercial is too much sometimes. I'm sure meds can help a little, but it's hard to fine one, and it's not a cure-all. It doesn't seem to totally fix the problem. I want people to understand that dealing with depression is real...and not easy. Thanks for the input!


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

You're right, Nat. Nobody really understands unless they've been or ARE going through it. Glad you could relate. Take care. And thanks for commenting.


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emilybee 4 years ago

It's kind of like the "depression hurts" commercial with the sad face cartoon. Nobody knows what it feels like because I'm sure it's different for everyone. It's crazy though, sometimes it can really get turned around, a simple smile or a hello can mean the world to someone when they are depressed. I try to think of that when I'm out - a cashier having a rough day could possibly be turned around by a simple, friendly hello. Lovely poem Victoria :)


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teaches12345 4 years ago

I have a friend who occasionally suffers from depression. She says it is like being in a fog. She cannot motivate herself to even get off the coach, she means to, but she just cannot do it. People think you can just snap out of it, but it isn't so easy. Feeling for you, and remember that others do care.


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A.A. Zavala 4 years ago from Texas

Depression is such a heavy yoke to bear. I suffer from it, and was unable to take medication because of the side effects. I didn't think I would ever be able to overcome it. I took a pharmaceutical grade fish oil, which is the only thing that ever worked for me. And dark chocolate seems to help me as well. Poem describes the gnawing suffocation of depression perfectly...


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

emilybee--Exactly! Actually, I revised the first line of the poem to match the commercial to "depression hurts," so thanks for the reminder. Good thoughts there on thinking about how others might feel. You're cool, emilybee!


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Curiad 4 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

Thank you Victoria, it is true that those that do not suffer from this have a hard time understanding it.

Well done!


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

teaches--A fog is also a good description. And, as your friend expresses, sometimes the inability to do anything is insurmountable. What a frustrating feeling! Thanks for the comments!


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prairieprincess 4 years ago from Canada

Victoria, this is so beautiful and real. You have really described the feeling and I agree with your sentiments. I don't think people that haven't had it, can really understand it. I understand it and it is something that a person goes through and then emerges from the other side. Blessings.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

AA--How high a grade of grade fish oil? Interesting. I'm glad you think that the poem describes "the gnawing suffocation of depression perfectly." What a wonderful comment. Thanks.


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A.A. Zavala 4 years ago from Texas

I take a high potency fishoil with a high DHA level, which is the oil that directly impacts mood. EPA is important also, but a high DHA level seems to be what moderates mood. I have used two that are good. Here are the links from the Vitamin Shoppe of the two brands that worked the best:

http://www.vitaminshoppe.com/store/en/browse/sku_d...

http://www.vitaminshoppe.com/store/en/browse/sku_d...

I have tried many different brands, and these two seem to work the best. Try the cheaper one first. When I first used the supplement, I noticed a difference in my mood within 48 hours.


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RealHousewife 4 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Hey Victoria - I think you did a great job. Depression is totally real and normal. I think everyone - whether they recognize it or not - goes through transient depression. It is no fun but at least if you see it for what it is you're going in a good direction toward the coping with it. Excellent!


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Richawriter 4 years ago from On Top of the World

Great poem!!

Nice flow, great rhyme and an important topic.

I have suffered from periods of depression in my life but I never dealt with it by using medication. I chose to deal with it by becoming my own psychologist. Trusting in myself more and listening to my own advice.

Depression is a thing of the past for me now, however, I do feel for those who are out there suffering and relying on drugs to relieve the symptoms. They are stuck in a paradox. No offense meant to anyone by that.

Natural remedies, I agree with.

Great poem!


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Leaderofmany 4 years ago from Back Home in Indiana

Awesome poem, I can relate to it so much. I have been in the middle of depression and is devastating for me as much as my family. If I don't take my medications I fall so far down that it is hard to get me out of the darkness. Now that I am better, I am watching my husband go through the depression related to PTSD. It is hard for me to watch him suffer this much. Keep spreading the word about depression, many do not understand.


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tillsontitan 4 years ago from New York

What a terrific way to deal with such a difficult and delicate subject. You've painted a sad picture with your words but one that might help others understand. Voted up and interesting.


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Hyphenbird 4 years ago from America-Broken But Still Beautiful

You wrote it well. In my world, I often hear how a "real Christian" should not be depressed and how we have been redeemed from all that. It is true indeed but depression is a thing that likes to come back and hangs on like a bulldog. All the sun, rainbows, friends and flowers in the world do not kill it, just make it manageable. Medicines help some people and I am happy for them. It does not help others. I get the best relief and help through prayer, quiet time with God and natural herbs.


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Poohgranma 4 years ago from On the edge

Victoria - You've written a very clever poem about a subject near and not at all dear to my heart.

You've made a valiant attempt to educate those who haven't a clue. I've learned to dismiss those who ask what I have to be depressed about, encourage me with suggestions of exercise and a healthy diet and have forgiven friends and family who have disappeared from my life because I can't be depended upon to keep commitments for public activities.

If only we broke out in neon colors or our bodies became as twisted and withered as our minds and very souls, then, perhaps, folks would understand the difference between a depressed mood and having Depression.

Keep writing. You are talented, gifted and you still have the fight left in you to speak for those who have no voice.


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Cardisa 4 years ago from Jamaica

I too have been there Vicki, this was like my own echo...lol. I don't take anti-depressants because their side effects usually make people a little coocoo.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Thanks, Curiad. I appreciate your comment very much.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Thanks, prairieprincess, for that validation of what I was trying to describe. I'm just trying to make people understand. Thanks so much for that input.


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jonmcclusk 4 years ago from Cinnaminson, New Jersey

You have so accurately captured the looming shadow of depression in this poem that I'm sure everyone who reads will surely now understand. Thank you for sharing this fantastic poem, and of course, many votes!


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Wow, AA, that's amazing that you could tell a difference in 48 hours with the fish oil. I didn't know that it could make such a difference so quickly. I might have to try that myself. Thanks for the links!


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Thanks, RealH. I agree. Seeing depression for what it is is a great starting point. Always like your comments!


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MizBejabbers 4 years ago

Anyone who has ever lost a loved one to depression would never take your poem lightly. I think you described her completely. Thank you for putting it into words.


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jhamann 4 years ago from Reno NV

This poem needed to be written, I feel that we overmedicate for this condition and that we need to reevaluate what people need during boughts of depression. I think the medicine can cause more harm than the condition. Jamie


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

"Stuck" is a good way to describe it, Richawriter.Interesting on becoming your own psychologist. That would be a great skill to learn. You should perhaps write about that. Thanks for the awesome comments!


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Leaderofmany...I'm sorry for your personal pain with depression and hope your husband gets better. You're right in that many do not understand. The word does need to be spread about something that is so misunderstood. Thank you.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Thanks, tillsontitan. I hope so. Thanks for the votes.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

So well said, Hyphenbird. I've heard that too about Christians. Christians are depressed, too, just as Christians get cancer, too. Great comments.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Gosh, Poohgramma, your comments are so amazing and hit close to home. Telling sometime to exercise who is depressed is like telling someone who has cancer to eat right and all will be well. Your comments say it all.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Thanks, Cardisa! your comments always mean so much!


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Thanks so much, jon. That means a lot coming from you. Your poetry is so passionate and real. Thanks so much for reading mine!


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

MizB--Glad you think I described depression well. Those feelings associated w/depression should never be taken lightly, that's for sure. Thanks so much.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

You may be right about the meds, Jamie. Sometimes people need understanding, for one thing. Thanks for your input.


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AKqueencrab 4 years ago from Juneau, Alaska, USA

oh my gosh, that was amazing. That last verse made a tear come to my eye. There are so many that really DO understand, we just might not always feel like they do.


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Yes, AKqueencrab--there ARE many who understand. Thanks for reading!


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AudreyHowitt 4 years ago from California

Such a great description of how depression is and how it feels!!!


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Victoria Lynn 4 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Thanks, Audrey. Much appreciated.


AudraLeigh 3 years ago

I had to pause and take in what you said in this pretty powerful and seriously amazing poem of yours!

"Maybe I can be happy. But I'll never be free"...This sentence; There is actually something very positive...take each happy moment and embrace it...FOCUS on that! I too hope I can be free like you and everyone who feels this statement!

"Perhaps over time, and with patience I'll heal."..."Patience"...yes...the key word. I have a hard time with that.

Your words were embraced by me this morning...thank you!!!


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AudreyHowitt 3 years ago from California

Depression is a very real and devastating condition--med have a place in recovery, but are really only a part of the process--Your pain is made real for us through this words--take care of yourself my friend


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

AudraLeigh--I'm so glad you appreciated the poem. Your feedback means a lot!


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Audrey--I appreciate your comments.They are right on target. You take care, too. :-)


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Capedium 3 years ago from Texas.

What a perfect way to start my day..

You know what I say

This is poetry at is peak

U just reminded me, why I truly love poetry

More than just piece of words that perfectly fits

This poem of yours is a food for thought

A message from the heart that clearly speaks

One can't deny the truth it convey

So palpable u could feel

Thanks Victoria Lynn

This is the definition of Poetry

Love love this poem..


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Capedium--Those are some great compliments. Thank you so much. I'm glad I could help start out your day!


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Misfit Chick 3 years ago from Seattle, WA - USA - The WORLD

What a beautiful, expressive poem that captures the essence of the pain and agony of people who go through this. I'm one of them, too. Thanks for being so sweet and brave and sharing this. *Hugs*


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vandynegl 3 years ago from Ohio Valley

I like this! Yes, it describes the feelings perfectly AND it is helpful for those who haven't "been there" to really understand. I've been told several times to "suck it up." Oh well!


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Misfit Chick--I'm sorry for what you've gone through, but it's nice to connect with others who have also. Thanks so much for your sweet comments and hugs.


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pinto2011 3 years ago from New Delhi, India

You have written on a topic which is very much needed to be discussed as I think almost every1 passes through this phase quite a few times in life. And you have treated the subject quite beautifully. Thumbs up!


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cclitgirl 3 years ago from Western NC

Poignant and true: depression is so real and I think we really need to address why so many people might feel this way in our society. I feel like it's a quiet epidemic.

Your poem is fabulous and so well-written. :)


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KrisL 3 years ago from S. Florida

Hi Victoria Lynn, your poem really does nail those feelings.

Did you know that both depression and creativity can run in families?

I hope that you are doing better this year than when you first wrote the poem.


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

I know what you mean, vandynegl. I wish more people would understand that saying things like "suck it up" is not helpful, besides it being impossible to do. Thanks for your comments!


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onegreenparachute 3 years ago from Greenwood, B.C., Canada

Hoo-boy! Have you been rooting around in my brain V.L. ?? I can relate completely! But.....I did find Cymbalta to be a help. Not a cure but a help and I'll take any help I can get. My Dr. also prescribed Abilify in combination with Cymbalta and that helped even more. I hate taking drugs but I can't endure the non stop mental chit chat nor the slug-ifying effects of depression any more.

Thanks for this poem. It's excellent and makes me feel less alone.

Voted up and shared.


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

pinto2011--Thanks for those lovely comments. I do agree that many people suffer from such feelings of depression. Thanks for reading!


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

cc--Well said. "A quiet epidemic." I think your'e right. Thanks for the nice compliments, too!


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Krisl--Yes, I have heard that they run in families. I am doing okay. Just one day at a time! Thanks for reading and for your kind comments.


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thewritingowl 3 years ago from Ireland

I too suffer from the dreaded D word. I tried a few brands am currently on Cymbalta. Like the story it doesn't seem to be working so great anymore. There are some side effects too weight gain being one. Coming off it though is hell, the withdrawal is really bad. Makes me wonder what the long term effects of it could be but then if I give it up the anxiety does get worse. Depression definitely does run in families and is also very common in people who are on the Autism Spectrum. Well done for poem I enjoyed it.


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

onegreenparachute--Yes, I can relate because I feel it! Interesting about Cymbalta and Abilify. I'm glad to hear that. I'm afraid to try too many drugs. I've tried some before that didn't work. I just take it day by day. I appreciate your comments. They're very real and helpful. Thanks so much!


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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA Author

Hey, writingowl--It seems there are always side effects to everything, huh? I guess we just have decide what we will live with. Thanks for the input. I'm glad you enjoyed the poem.

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