Lost In A Sea Of Happiness

I am moving forward where I have stopped

My shadow follows me where ever I go

To remind me where I have been

I have all the energy of ten men

Visions come to me often

My mind wants me to burst out and explain what it is I see

My heart tells me I am where I am suppose to be

All things don't look as if they are in the right place

I am always adding a piece here and taking away a piece there

Like three puzzles mixed together

The past,present and future

I am learning the proper mix

I take nothing lightly

Each day is a new day with a new view

It doesn't bother me that other people can't see my dreams

I know they are real as the air that I breathe

My words may not make sense and sometimes they are jubmedl up

Not to confuse the reader just that is the way I see them in my vision

I tell it like it is

I am honest and hold nothing back

I can only learn from others and I love when they can learn from me

If I can save you time and errors that I have made in my life

Then I have lived a life worth living

If I can make your life more fun

You deserve all the credit I am just along for the ride

You seen through me and carry away what was useful and has purpose

I am always making new things happen

Sometimes I just wish I COULD FORGET WHAT I SEE

I just want to go back to living a life that many live

Day to day without a care in the world

Only living for the moment and doing what they have to do to keep themselves happy

Not caring about the future and what great opportunities await

Seeing only the reality and any shortcomings that are noticable

I keep trying to read into what I feel

I keep trying to see more and why I have lived

I am still searching for my biggest purpose

What can I give to others that they will appreciate

As my conversations with friends seem curbed

They seem to be focused on the here and now

As I explain there is so much more to do

Every day there is not a moment to waste

My friends think I don't understand what life is about

I hold my ground and say they don't see what living is about

Sharing ideas with each other to make life better

I feel like a balloon ready to pop !

Then when I think I have found someone new and different

The people that I know and respect become disenchanted with what I tell them

They slowly let out air in my balloon as if someone had let me go

I fly into the air without a care and end up shriveled up and begin the same process again

Like if I have never done this before

I know better

I search for new friends to share my excitement

I have tried doing it alone and I need help

I battle the hours in a day

limited by the few hours I have left

To make improvements on what I already know

I keep focused and I turn to my own will power to give me steam

For living my life is everything but a dream