When Cancer Returns

Lindsay
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Previously I wrote a hub on my cat Lindsay. She had cancer and we had to do a lot of soul searching at the time to decide if we would indeed spend the money needed for her surgery. Growing up in the country I had seen a lot of cats come and go, especially tom cats that would all eventually wander off. As they were primarily outdoor cats we never did see most of them die. As a child and teen I was attached to my cats but as said they did come and go.

Lindsay was a friendly female cat that had lived outdoors at my families home and when I moved in with my wife for the first time we brought her with us. Over the years Lindsay has become a part of our family. I admit even I've become closer with her than any other animal. We did go ahead and have the surgery done for her about a year or so ago and she bounced back very well unfortunately that's not where this story ends.

Over the past few months we began to notice a large lump on her stomach. As our anxiety grew over time so did the lump until very recently when we attended the vet. He confirmed our worst fears, the lump was indeed a return of the cancer. After discussing it thoroughly with the vet we came to two possibilities. We could either medicate her until she gets to weak and then have her put down or we could have a new surgery done.

Now if I were my father Lindsay probably would have never had the first surgery. he woudn't have spent money on a cat. Not that I blame him, our family was never very well off and you have to think about family before pets. We did do the first surgery and it was about $1200 which even in my mind is more than someone should be spending on an aging pet as Lindsay is now 12, possibly 13. But as said she has become so much a part of our family I can only imagine how my wife and daughter would feel if we lost her.

We also are beginning to enter unknown territory. Lindsay came through the last surgery very well but she did gain some weight, has a real lack of skin to work with and of course has some muscle knots where there were sutures. I also have to admit expenses in recent months have been very heavy as I recently had to buy a new furnace among other things. So at this point I am really between a rock and a hard place.

As horrible as it is I have to be the one to make the choice on whether Lindsay lives or dies and I simply don't know what to do. Let me know what you think in the comments.

If you didn't read my first article on Lindsay you can find it here:

http://terrektwo.hubpages.com/hub/My-Funny-Cat-Lindsay

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writer20 4 years ago from Southern Nevada

Please don't miss understand me,I love cats and dogs Lindsey is around 13 so there's probably three more years for her to live. So I think putting her out of pain would be the kindess thing to do. Although I'm not sure I could do that myself.


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terrektwo 4 years ago from North America Author

writer20 - I understand what you mean, as of yet there isn't much pain showing though, she is herself as we've known her. But the tumor is growing and it will be a matter of time. So even if we don't get the surgery I doubt putting her down right now would be good.


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kashmir56 4 years ago from Massachusetts

Hi terrektwo, Having been a dog owner all my life i know what you are going through,if Lindsay is not in any pain now just take each day has it comes and when the time comes you will know it's time to do something to ease her pain or stop her pain.I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.


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teaches12345 4 years ago

We had a similar situation two years ago. We had a cat who was our friend and a family member (you know how that goes.) He developed stomach cancer and we tried everything to keep him happy and healthy. Food switches, medicine, vet consulations, etc.

The vet finally said, "you have to decide what the quality of life means to you for Spot (our cat)". We knew he was not feeling well and really, he tried to put on a good show. We made the decision to put him down. It was hard to do. We still remember him and love him always.

I pray you will be able to make your decision. Either way, you are a good family for loving your cat as you do.


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terrektwo 4 years ago from North America Author

kashmir56 - I thank you for your kind words, your right of course will take it one day at a time. Thank you for your prayers :)


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terrektwo 4 years ago from North America Author

teaches12345 - thanks for commenting. I know it is hard to put down a pet I too had to do it previously but I was a teen the last time and my dad was the one who took our dog in to have it done. This time it would probably have to be me as my wife would be to upset. But to be honest I just don't know how to make the drive in to the vets knowing I am taking her to die. I don't know how to pet her and then let them take her away and give her that fatal needle. If she has to die I wish the cancer would just take her in her sleep and spare me. But I know that isn't likely. I thank you for commenting and for your kind words though. I really appreciate it.


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Minnetonka Twin 4 years ago from Minnesota

I agree with Kashmir-If your cat is not in pain at this time, just enjoy every day she is well and you will know when she is ready to go. I am so sorry your going through this. I'm a big animal lover and have two black labs who I consider two of my best friends. My thoughts are with you and your family. Give Lindsay a scratch behind the ears for me.


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terrektwo 4 years ago from North America Author

Minnetonka Twin - we'll do thanks for commenting :)

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