'BABY TEARS'

"Baby Tears"

You who had pledged your undying love to me,
said you would protect me from harm, but you harmed me.
Marriage was a game to you, you didn't get it at all
You wanted something different, you didn't let me in.
You took me for granted, you used me as your mat,
You embarrassed me in front of our friends.
know something else, now that I think of it
you became an expert at doing that.

I could not have a life to live and to enjoy,
you watched me like a hawk couldn't talk
to anyone on my street, I felt so like a snob,
I got the chance when you went to camp, to have a little chat
with my neighbor who lives behind our house, I loved that.
You had been very aggressive lately, more bruises I have to hide,
My doctor is so worried, he said just leave the *******,
I would really like to do that, leave that is, I would.

I told my doctor, "I can't go while he is still around",
if he catches me packing a bag, he will be very angry
he will probably knock me to the ground, he's good at that."
I have to wait for the right time, I'm sick of being bashed
I feel like a big punching bag, that sits in the corner crying.
didn't seem to care at all, about the pain you caused,
when you pushed me up against the wall, I felt like I was dying.
A haemorrhage slowly starting, only to become worse.

You didn't seem to care at all, you said you make too big a fuss,
It's just a bit of blood, it will go away or even stop,
You were wrong about that fact, the bleeding didn't stop.
Instead I went to theatre, a very scared mother to be
When I came out of the theatre that night after tea

I was told that my dream was now in tatters, I cried all night through,
My little girl didn't make it, I was very sad indeed.
She was to be my daughter and I was going to be her mum.