We all dream. At least I hope most people dream. I don't mean dreams when you're asleep. No those when you're awake. Just dreaming about what you want, what we would like to accomplish in life. Sometimes just very unrealistic like the women can dream about their knight in shining armor or men about the tall blond that brings them their beer in nice lingerie. Some dream more realistic about the job they want, about having a family. You name it.

I like to share my dream with you today.

Every year I tell myself it’s going to be MY year. And it always is. I’ve been dreaming to do things different for a long time now and I really hope that I will succeed this year. I got a great job offer. I know I won’t have as many time left to spend with my loved ones like I have now once I’ve started but that’s a small price to pay for this dream. We just have no home to life yet. At least no home anymore like I thought there was. I just have to find a house for us now. I’m just a temporary residence away of a better job with better opportunities, better surroundings for the boys, better possibilities for our future. Our future, me and the boys,not here in the east but over there in the west. Just for the three of us. And Wednesday I will know if the expensive apartment can be paid with the money I will be able to make on that new job. Wednesday I will know if it can succeed. And if that house is not the one, maybe the house I’m going to see the following Saturday will be the one. I will not do this for others, only for us. My step, my dream, my boys dream.

A dream like I had in the beginning and that was just completely different for a while a few months ago and a dream which I want to realize. At least try to realize it. The dreams that came in between have burst, fallen into pieces, have been destroyed, no longer mentioned. It could have been very beautiful if they had come true too, but sometimes you realize that some dreams are empty when you find out it was just hope that had been given to you and taken away later. Just a story to be told. It just happens that way sometimes.

So Wednesday we will all find out if this dream is going to happen. A dream I have for seven years now. I will even ask my “boss to be” if it’s possible to rent three rooms in the complex next door if that is necessary so we can make part of our dream happen. And if it won’t work out, we just dream on, waiting for the next opportunity.

I keep my fingers crossed and just hope and dream the next dream.