A Presence of Mine

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Recapture it -

The way you felt

When you were

Twelve,

Walking in the rain,

Deeply touched and free,

Knowing who you really are.


Then explain

It all away ~

If you still can.


____© Nellieanna H. Hay

Helen’s evocative photographs often explore the subtler dimensions that reside beyond the literal. This card, "Contemplation" is one of a  series in celebration of the extraordinary Cereus flower.
Helen’s evocative photographs often explore the subtler dimensions that reside beyond the literal. This card, "Contemplation" is one of a series in celebration of the extraordinary Cereus flower. | Source

There are some

Who mean so much,

Who - even passing -

Cast longer shadows;

Who, having passed,

Leave larger, gaping,

Vacant spaces -

Indelible traces

Upon each passing life

They’ve touched.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay



I tend to disbelieve

That I’m unique

Among my fellow-man,

That troubles troubling me

Trouble me alone,

That nostalgia

For a gentler way

Is mine ~

Exclusively!


So here I am,

To seek,

Perchance to find

~ To be.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay


"The Promise"
"The Promise" | Source



Perfect,

Silent

Rapport

Speaks softly,

Silently,

Drowning out

Raucous distracters.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay



Love sits lightly

On my shoulder,

The butterfly

Who flits always near

The sweetest flower

While making life

Appear.


______© Nellieanna H. Hay




I know my part,

Myself -

And live it.

Wholeness gives

Its sustenance.

Of life I am a part,

A tiny part,

But living.


_____© Nellieanna H. Hay


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Joanne 4 years ago

Beautiful


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xstatic 4 years ago from Eugene, Oregon

A whole series of beautiful poems! We appreciate your sharing them with us. UP and all but funny.


Joanne 4 years ago

Sorry I meant to say more, Beautiful and it reminds me so of my little dog I lost yesterday.

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Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

Those are charming poems. There are elements here that I almost recognize. Unique to you is the subject and the expression but I would give much to know your muse.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Joanne, thank you for a lovely simple comment! Then you added more - my sympathy to you for the loss of your dog. I know it can be like losing a dear person.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

xstatic - Thank you. They come from so many years of poeming. Each one relates to its own moments of my life. One of these just in this hub was written in the fall, 1971, and a couple were written this month. It's a joy to be transcribing them from their original handwritten notebooks onto the computer. 1275 of them transcribed so far, and many more to do; - and I keep writing! Thank you for the accolades.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear JF - Thank you. 'Charming' is nice.

My muse is no secret. No charge! My life has been my muse. Then after I'd been writing about it for many years, someone mentioned a striking similarity between my work and Emily Dickinson's; and as I looked into it, I discovered a kinship with both her life and her poetry style which I felt extraordinarily deeply. So I recognized her as my formal muse.

If you almost recognize any elements here, it can only be because you'd caught a few poems I've reused when they fit the theme of my current hub, sometimes slightly revised.


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Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

I am glad to be right in this instance. It seems that every other thing I try to be right about is too arbitrary to signify.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

OHHHH - I hope you didn't read that to mean I reused any of Emily Dickinson's!!!!! I just now re-read that sentence and it could be misconstrued that way. I meant that I reused some of my OWN poems which I'd already used in earlier hubs if they fit a current hub. For one example: I'd used the poem above, starting:

Recapture it - The way you felt When you were Twelve. . .

in "Dimensions", one of my very early poetry hubs. -

http://hubpages.com/literature/Dimensions


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

If what you felt 'right' about referred to something else, my apologies. But I couldn't let the possibility it might have been that you concluded I'd taken someone else's work go unanswered.


Vincent Moore 4 years ago

Nellieanna your deep affection, expression of life present and past has always moved this writer. Your scribes come from deep within your passionate soul. Your Muse no matter who, simply elevates your talents beyond explanation.

No apology is required your words are your own. Surely all great writers are inspired by other great writers. Their spirits linger and are often captured by the hearts and souls of current poets/writers. The body may crumble to dust but great minds live on and I truly believe flutter like a butterfly into others souls.

You are a gift and I am delighted to have fell upon you two years ago. I may not be often here of recent, my ink has dried upon my page, my soul is dormant, my mind a blank. I linger in between my thoughts and can't seem to compose myself. My Muse has left me for awhile and pray tell he returns in haste and not leave his subject alone to wallow lost in his own darkness.

Yet coming to your page lifts my spirit always and your Muse continues to brighten your corner. My sweet friend you are a poet's poet and I am comforted by your words always. Hugs to you sweet lady. Keep writing, writing and more writing.


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christopheranton 4 years ago from Gillingham Kent. United Kingdom

Dreadful poems and awful pictures. But then, I have always been a liar.

Thanks Nellieanna. You're hubs are always gems, just like yourself.


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arb 4 years ago from oregon

The light continues to escape your cracks and I continue to see, the beginning and the end of you. What a delightful revelation. I need not settle on a flower when there is a complete garden competing for the senses. I simply dawdle in my admiration for the gardener!


Hubert Williams 4 years ago

More beautiful poetry from an ever radiant presence. That video was very uplifting and liberating thanks


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dallas93444 4 years ago from Bakersfield, CA

Nellieanna,

Your writings reveal a zest and appreciation of your life process! Your reviews of your prior writings perhaps is the grist of an evolving you! Your awareness and being alert to the contrast of your prior feelings, emotions and observations has created the "colors" for your life's tapestry!

Your golden threads and silver needles of life's experiences indeed weave a multidimensional medium of self-fulfillment.


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De Greek 4 years ago from UK

You still have the magic touch, Angel Face ;-)


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Jaggedfrost 4 years ago

No, I would never consider that you would plagiarize anyone. That is an act reserved for the insecure. You are definately not in that category.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ah, Good, JF. Thank you. Then I'm guessing that what you were glad to be right about was that ED is my formal muse?


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dimitris! Dear friend. Thank you - did you suppose it otherwise? :-)


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Vincent-Ken - First, foremost - I'm so pleased to see you, and pleased if my little poems lift and comfort your spirits when they've been off wandering among the dreary corners of your 'blank back pages'.

I know it's no fun, but in its own way, times I've experienced similar dullness of sensibility or inspiration, once I gave those times a name - my 'fertile flux' - when one rolled around, I had it tabbed as one of "those" stages. Recognized it, I also knew it would pass and when it did, there would be new strengths or light - whatever was 'in there' being assembled which I couldn't have even recognized till it had gestated. So also, your Muse may be in his workshop working on your next inspirations. May as well relax and let it happen. Do a puzzle. Bat a ball. Kick a tire.

How chivalrous of you to defend my honor. But please know I'm perfectly 'at home' in my skin and have no reason to doubt or to defend my authenticity,even if it were to be attacked. Actually, in my explanation in response to who my muse might be as well as perhaps to explain why some of these poems in this hub might seem vaguely familiar to a reader here, I myself mentioned something I've done (reusing my own poems in hubs occasionally). Then when I again saw that revelation (thinking about it in the context with my muse) I also saw that saying I'd "reused"poems, etc. was actually unclear, if not confusing!

Since of course I wouldn't wish to have created THAT wrong impression my own self and I value Jagged Frost's esteem (along with the other readers'), I thought it best to clarify it and gave an example to help clarify it.

With the volume of my poetry, as I'm transcribing them (and writing new ones) I must keep close tabs on which I've used and where. So I devised a code next to each one's own identification. When I started using my poetry (which I hadn't intended to do) I was determined never to repeat one; but realized that was too arbitrary. Sometimes I find another or a better collection into which it might fit. So occasionally, I do reuse one. That code is added to its identification, too. If I revise - especially if it's already made an appearance, I keep both versions. All part of a behind-the-scenes juggling exercise to stay on top of things! This chore may even contribute to my avoiding writing doldrums, Ken. It sure keeps me occupied whether or not the muse is on the job! :-) And actually, it's part of my fun.

Thank you for the wonderful support and treasured encouragement, my friend! Hugs. Get ready for a new writing boost!!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Chirstopher! hahaha - if you're a liar, you're a delightful beneficent one! Thank you for the good laugh - and for a lovely compliment!! MHWAAAAAA!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Alan! I'm so pleased to see you! Was thinking happily of you visiting your son the weekend. :-)

What lovely comments you've visited here. Long as beautiful interchange happens, with or without the flowers and words, it's all good. Thank you for visiting my garden and leaving your own fragrance among the rows.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hubert, Thank you. That music - The Earth - is a long-time favorite of mine. I still have it on a 33-1/3 RPM record! I'm glad you found it uplifting and liberating. It always has that effect on me.

I want to read some of your work, which looks inviting. Glad you visited mine.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dallas, You've certainly watched my more public - and, at times, its more subtle - writing evolution. It would be impossible for me to not review and mull over each epoch of life as it has progressed I can't imagine it happening in some other tapestry, though some of the effects in the tapestry might have woven smoother

Thank you for having been an encouraging friend and compatriot! I still feel honored by it! Hugs-s-s-s!


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daisyflowrs 4 years ago from Richmond, VA

I had and have been having what I call, "crap-fested" days. Your words have revived my synergy via family, work, and self. Much love.


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neeleshkulkarni 4 years ago from new delhi

you master our senses without ever seeking to master them nellie.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Daisy! Thank you, my friend! That is so gratifying! I'm overjoyed that it revived yor synergy!! Hugs.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Neelesh - And so do you, dear friend! So do you. Hugs - and thanks. . . . :-)


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rahul0324 4 years ago from Gurgaon, India

Hi Nellie! I am so mesmerized while reading your work... each jump of verse is ecstatically connected in beautiful ways!

What more can I say at this soulful poetry.. a gift an honor you provide us to read and enchant, capturing our minds by perfection and flawlessness

Hat's off!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Rahul - what more need you say? Those are the most beautiful words expressing your response to my poetry. Thank you so much. You make it a pleasure to share what I've done.


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empire mike 4 years ago from empire, colorado

there are indeed some who mean so much, do so much, are so much. and there are those of us who stand back and watch in awe.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Well said, Michael. I feel that awe so often. I felt it at the time I wrote the poem. I'm so pleased you came by. Hugs!


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ahorseback 4 years ago

"The tender Earth " from the tender lady! I think this was written for me ! If I might be momentarily selfish. As usual your poetry is far ,far beyond all others. But I agree with the awesome words , it is the surrounding natural earth that is the most loyal lover of all mankind. And just like in real life man cheats on her , uses her for his own pleasure , and moves onto other things. And she ?....Exists in silent loyalty, waiting, eternaly waiting for man to return to her! You are an amazing soul!


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empire mike 4 years ago from empire, colorado

not quite said well enough. you indeed are the former.


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dallas93444 4 years ago from Bakersfield, CA

“…to thine own self be true.” Polonius seems to indicates by "true" he means "loyal to your own best interests." Take care of yourself first, he counsels, and that way you'll be in a position to take care of others. There is wisdom in the old man's warnings. (Polonius's last piece of advice to his son Laertes.)

Perhaps you are being true to yourself! Your inner beauty transcends physical boundaries… You have demonstrated personal growth and acquired wisdom…

You are truly aware and alert!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

ahorseback - Thank you! Yes - that song could have been written specifically for you, who are so close to the earth you love. It's our mother in a very real way! I hadn't thought of that as being fitting for the celebration of mothers we're near. But it is.

Yes we humans don't always treat her well, and sometimes she lets us know it! In fact, I have a poem along this order, though it was meant to describe a person; - but Earth is a person in this sense, just as a person like this is like Earth. It's titled "Earth Person":

So long

The Earth

Sits

Silent,

Ravaged from without

And doubt within,

Until

One day ,

One moment ~

Answering

~ An EarthQuake!

_____ © Nellieanna Hay


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Michael, my love - How can I live up to that? Thank you fort your confidence in me. YOU are so amazing. Big Hugs.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dallas - Just before I came here to my hubsite, I listened to 3 major University commencement addresses: by Ellen DeGeneres, Conan O'Brien & Steve Jobs (in 3 different years). Three very different people. Each with a different delivery and personal story; - all including difficult personal paths, with major challenges to "who" each is/was. And EACH emphasized that message above all: "To thine own self be true". I truly know it to be uppermost.

I also know that for some of us, it takes discovering just "who" that 'self' IS, but it is quintessentially necessary; and it must prevail, no matter what else is going on. One can't be a 'copy' of or be directed from external models and authorities. All that matters must be internalized. Hugs - and thank you again!


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empire mike 4 years ago from empire, colorado

you already have


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Aw. But no one is ever "there" while life brings its challenges. You give me inspiration to live up to, for sure! Hugs and love!


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tobusiness 4 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

The poems are sublime and inspiring, written with beauty and elegance.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Tobusiness - Your comment is so gracious and encouraging. Thank you!


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Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

Nellieanna, such stunning beauty reflected deeply in your words here! Your photography is like nothing I have seen before - superb. You are a woman of grace and great talent. In His Love, Faith Reaper


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ah- Faith - thank you. The words are all mine, but - alas - these photos are not my own - just my choice to accompany my poetry.

You are probably referring to the ones "By Helen" - of the unusual view of the inner parts of a Cereus flower. I have great affection for those flowers. They are a type of cacti, and they bloom only once a year, in the wee hours of the night - and are wilted by daybreak.

My mother raised some of these and she waited up for the blooms - and then went to wake the neighbors to come witness it! -The most amazing part was that - they did!

Thank you for the visit and the sweet words!


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Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

Nellieanna, your words are more than sufficient without any photos, and yes, I was referring to the photos "By Helen" and I assumed they were from you as I noticed your middle initial "H" and thought they were your photos. Nevertheless, they are perfect to accompany your gifted writing. Wow, that is truly amazing about the Cereus flower and it only blooming once a year and your mother waking up the neighbors - I would have come to see! Love it. In His Love, Faith Reaper


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QudsiaP1 4 years ago

Nellie, every time I come across your poems, I am left with a difficult choice to tell which is the best verse I liked. There is such elegance in the way you display and structure your poems. Such love such devotion.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Faith. I started my first poetry hubs accompanied by my own watercolors, but I've MANY more poems than paintings. I've also used some of my photos, and a great many of my digital/graphic amateur artistic efforts. The 'extra' dividers, etc. are things I 'whip up' with Photoshop Elements or PSP. If I have actual artistic talent, it's probably envisioning, designing, coordinating and arranging. I'm more than happy to give credit due for outstanding artwork and photography done by others. I'm flattered you'd have thought those amazing "Helen" photos mine!

My mother was such a creative character, Faith. She was born in 1892 and never ran out of pizzazz till her death at 82. She was an artist and so many other talents, most of all being such a PERSON - truly a "presence" in the best sense of it. I was born when she was 40 and she never seemed a bit "old" to me.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Qudsia - how lovely. I'm so pleased that you find it difficult to choose. Makes me feel I've done well! You're very perceptive to see there is much love and devotion in them Thank you so very much!! I love your work, too!


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drbj 4 years ago from south Florida

You know, nellieanna, that I enjoy reading every little bit of poetry you write, but I have to admit that the following is my favorite ... so far:

"There are some

Who mean so much,

Who - even passing -

Cast longer shadows;

Who, having passed,

Leave larger, gaping,

Vacant spaces -

Indelible traces

Upon each passing life

They’ve touched."

Beautiful .... meaningful ... reflective ... spiritual!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, DRBJ. I admit it's among my own favorites and was especially meaningful to me as it was being written. Hugs and thank you for your continuous encouragement and support.


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Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

Oh, Nellieanna, how precious of a mother you had and the impact she had on your life is evident. That is the way to live, to the fullest right up until the end, spreading beauty all around!!! Thank you for sharing that with me! It takes much talent to, as you say, envision, design, coordinate and arrange. I am thankful to have met you via HubPages. In His Love, Faith Reaper


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

And I am thankful to have met you here, as well! Thank you! Hugs.


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b. Malin 4 years ago

Wow, Nellieanna, what a Treat to read your Beautiful, Poignant Poems...so deep and meaningful...You dear Lady are a True Poet of the Heart.

We have such a Wonderful Talented Family of Women here on Hub Pages. I Vote your work today, as Up, and Beautiful, and simply, Awesome! LOL.

I now look forward to Following your Hubs.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

I'm so honored with your visit and lovely comment - and thank you for following and voting, too! Yes, we most certainly do have quite a great family of outstanding women - a lovely Sisterhood!

Hugs!


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Pamela99 4 years ago from United States

This is another example of your exquisite mastery words and phrases in your poetry. The pictures and the placement of your writing add to the feeling of reading poetry that touches the heart and the spirit. Rated up and awesome-beautiful.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Pamela - what lovely things to say! I appreciate those kind comments so much! Big Hugs!


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mckbirdbks 4 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

Nellieanna I wrote a piece with the line, "To prick with word or turn of phrase the membrane of immortality", I think you have done that.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Mike - If I have in any way fulfilled an idea of yours, I'm humbled and honored. I've enormous respect for you! And that phrase of yours is incredible: I love "the membrane of Immortality"!

Thank you!


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sligobay 4 years ago from east of the equator

Hello Nellieanna:

Rod McKuen provides wonderful accompaniment to the rhythm of your poetry. I now need to explore one of your muses, Emily D. Hugs


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Gerry - Thank you! I've been such a fan of Rod McKuen ever since he first appeared on the scene back in the 60s. I love his raspy sensual narrative voice. And of course - my Emily D! She was almost as much an oddball as I am. hehe. Her work is always fresh and unique - like no one else's. I'm especially fond of her letters which just seem to paint a living picture of the person she was, slight in build and timid in a way, but a gigantic being inside, who interacted with the nature around her and the imagination within.

It's always such a pleasure when you visit my hubs!


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CloudExplorer 4 years ago from New York City

Lovely poetry Nellieanna, it felt like I was in a whole new world while reading it, your words have the ability to remove the reader from the current moment and its miraculous how you arrange it all so elegantly.

It's all so simple yet so poetically complex and in every way, bravo on doing such a wonderful job on this masterpiece of yours that's filled with compassionate true to life emotions, and vibrant lively rhyme schemes.

Thumbs up and getting shared for sure, nice one!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

CloudExplorer-Mike - - thank you for your visit. I'm honored. And your comments will keep me smiling all day! This collection have some of my own favorites. Hugs.


dreamseeker2 4 years ago

I had to vote this poem up and beautiful, Nellieanna. Wow, such a powerful, yet soft way to describe ones feelings. I love the verse:

There feels to be

No boundary,

In timeless distance,

'Tween Me and thee.

Beautiful words! Loved it all! : )


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Gwen, Thank you so much! I'm really pleased you found it to your liking! Thank you for your votes, too!

I'm smiling broadly!


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pennyofheaven 4 years ago from New Zealand

What a beautiful gift you have. To share such depth is truly special. Thank you so much.


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Pennyofheaven - I love your comment and perception. Thank you!


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AudreyHowitt 4 years ago from California

Love does sit lightly on your shoulder my dear---such beautiful verse. I am thinking out the power of love and light quite a bit right now--trying to finish my NaNoWriMo draft --and that is a recurring theme in the draft--see you soon---and thank you!!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ah, Audrey - how lovely. I'm thinking what a joy it is to touch another's current project-in-the-making somehow. It's not describable, but it feels very nice. I look forward to reading the final rendition of your NaNoWriMo. (intriguing!) Hugs. Thank you for the visit and lovely comment!


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epigramman 4 years ago

....well Nellieanna you most definitely have a presence of your very own - a persona - a panache - about you. But gee you're such a nice lady - please don't visit my 'black' stuff - aunts who posion people with their christmas puddings (by mistake of course) and epi being a stud at a stud ranch (true story of course) Nellieanna you must come and visit my pretty stuff - I am concerned now - don't think I am a one way train on a one way track - I compose the pretty stuff too. lol

Again you humble me with your world class presentation here as the first lady of the Hubs - I always hear John Barry's Somewhere in Time when I visit here - that's a nice compliment - you always put beautiful music in my ears ..... sending you warm wishes and good energy from lake erie time ontario canada 7:09pm


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Colin - thank you, m'dear. But don't mistake me for the lady in the ivory tower! My feet are on Terra Firma even when my spirit flies out of bounds.

( I left you a poetic story on your hub about a cake almost poisoned which my mother baked for real!)

I'm not shocked by your 'black' stuff and I've read more of your pretty stuff than the black. Nope, no one-way-train! - You're a fully loaded cosmopolitan train with an elegant dining car, plus a smoking bar where ribald stories change lips.

It is a nice compliment you give me! I love "Somewhere In Time" - the song with its classic roots; - and that haunting story with Jane Seymour and Christopher Reeve before his debilitating accident.

Thank you from a grateful heart for your visit and lovely compliments!


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c-m-hall 4 years ago from York, Maine

Nellieanna ... First of all thank you so much for spending time to wander over to my corner and read up my poetry. You're encouraging words have been an inspiration.

These poems I've just read of yours are magical. I went from relaxed to being 12 again to seeing my Aunt in a space I've not seen since her passing. . (we were in a bingo hall). You have such a way with words and I appreciated every single one of them this glorious morning! Thank you - Cher


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Oh, Cher - Thank YOU! I'm so pleased to see you here! I enjoy reading your poetry - you've a very special, unique style which I know comes from you spontaneously, which I so admire.

Thank you for getting into the feeling of this collection of some of my poetry, and letting me know. Like them all, it's dear to my heart.

Being 12 is - in my belief - a very special time of one's life, when childhood is still a strong pull, yet we're being drafted into maturity, not necessarily smoothly! I've so many special memories of that time of my life. My mother spoke of life-changing events in her life at 12, when she lost her beloved father and, as the eldest of 3 girls, was faced with being strong and responsible to help her mother with them on a farm in the Midwest. Meanwhile, my dad had lost his dad @ 12 a couple of years earlier. Both were eldest - he had 3 younger brothers. Each of their fathers were older men, with second families, which was common in the 1800s (my parents were born in the early 1890s). - The first wives would have had a LOT of children and died relatively young, leaving husbands with a large brood to raise alone or to 'farm out' to relatives to raise. Usually the men remarried, whether or not it involved bringing the families from the first marriage into the second. But there was closeness among them. My own name is a combination of my mother's half-sister, Nellie, born in 1875, and my dad's half sister, Anna, born in 1872. The human chain of life - it's amazing, and we're all key parts of it.


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coffeegginmyrice 4 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

What more can I say? A hub of beautiful set of poems, neat layout, a powerful video. Each describes that "special" moment in life perhaps? So, beautiful Nellieanna!

Voted UP!!!


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you! I just visited your hubsite and I'm entranced! I love your spirit and your writing! I very much appreciate your visiting my site for the first time, and especially for the kind words about my stuff! Welcome into my 'hubhome"! (My profile name is easy - it's the one I was given at birth, except for combining two separate names into the one! :-)

ps - I'll have to give thought to the feast that inspires your profile name! Sounds like something my dad might have concocted. ;-)


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c-m-hall 4 years ago from York, Maine

Nellieanna, thanks for sharing about where your name was derived. That was special. - Cher


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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Cher. Very sweet of you to say so.

I only met each of those aunts once. I never knew either grandfather and knew/met only one of my grandmothers, for a few years when I was quite young. Mother's mother died a month before I was born.

Growing up with so few relatives around, it's sort of amazing to realize what long documented histories there are on both sides. Doesn't leave a lot for me to search out & uncover about them! haha. Just enough for me to appreciate when I look into them.

Hugs - have a glorious weekend, dear!

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