This is a funny situation. It is inexplicably humorous and bone-breaking to the heart.
Why do you look out of the window when there is no window?
I have just caught an eye of the monster.
He was chasing me.
brushing his teeth over me
and finally my dream of 'being caught in the trap' got over.
by telling myself that i'm like any ordinary man.
Dreams, fantasies and desires
and all other stuff that you keep in your mind.
It starts throwing, an image, back of it in the broad daylight
when you see someone else doing
what you're supposed to do days or years before.
Don't you think that you have played your part in him
By telling the mind that this is how it is going to happen and
imagining all those things in mind.
You keep your thoughts collective in mind
a place where others can peep and come to
if they show similar qualities and intensities
to fulfill the desire.
It is not like doing anything without the permission
but the bigger frame of your mind gives the permission
'cause it has seen the dust settling down
and you were getting older then.
You were standing ahead in the line when the thought was being brought to life.
You have moved back now after years and days later.
This ain't a funny situation.
This is inexplicably humorous and bone-breaking to the heart
when you were looking out of the window
when there was no window
A window which was closed by the deep hidden closing (or crashing) walls of the mind
you leave yourself way behind and pick-up the ruins
start a (new) life and treat tragedy as vicious means of laughing at life.
Vicious means of laughing that you have not failed
passed the trick on to somebody else
to be played by another and become an owner of it.
An owner of something, belonging to the universe
it (the universe) belonged to no one in identity.
You make a part of it but never the end shape.
You help it to evolve
but have no power to leave the past behind.
You were sitting behind
catching a glimpse and applauding the creator, the great owner and of this splendid show.
I have caught an eye of the monster.
It is just me who was afraid of his own image
of things being taken away
of things being not belonging to me anymore
which i nurtured, fathered and was mother to them.
If you cannot find life in failure, not even a loud laugh
you simply have failed yourself at that moment.
The nature is singing and thanking you
for providing an opportunity
to learn and grow with you.