Alone at Last
All alone and the night is still
The words in my head come at will.
The moon shines in my window
I smile, my face all aglow.
I know sleep would be a nice thing
No one to talk, no phone to ring.
But I am missing something good
I believe I’ll tackle - I should.
I sit down and the house is softly quiet.
The babies and hubby are sound asleep.
I’d like to keep them that way for a while.
My time alone, I’d surely like to keep.
My day is so full of busy work, important work
And appointments out the wazoo..
If it were not for schedules and lists
I’d not know what to do.
I’d do something silly and fun
Write to my heart’s content
However, is this time alone for my pleasures?
And could I call that time well-spent?
Part of me says, I’ve done for others all day
My soul replete; my heart I have given
Now is time to pave the way,
It helps me when I am driven.
No, it’s not selfish
And it’s not even rude
For me to ignore this time
Would border on poor attitude.
I’m glad I have this time;
Time to be free and to be me.
No one else will disrupt my brain
I can simply learn to be.
Sometimes I think that I am wholly lost
I cannot find the essence of who I am
I have paid such a high cost
In order to become real, not a sham.
If I continue to remind myself
Of all the good that I have done
Life will not run me over
Eventually, I will have won.
All alone and the night is still
The words in my head come at will.
The moon shines in my window
I smile, my face all aglow.