Belongingness - Restlessness


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The Rockies in repose

Invite reflection,

Intertwined with memory

Of Earth's first plaintive pleas.

So soon can I suppose

If I should now recall

Implosion or convection,

Raising nightly chunks

Of basic stuff to thrust them

Out t'ward space's endless seas.

Shy Capulin, when quiet,

You hide your head from view

'Mid snow clouds hiding you

From ancient stony, lava birth,

'Mid bursts of geologic mirth.

〰©Nellieanna H. Hay

A haunting song written by 1930s film star/songwriter Ivor Novello, also a character in this film, acted by Jeremy Northam, who sings and plays it in the film and video.

The film, "Gosford Park", is direicted by Robert Altman and written by Julian Fellows, screenwriter of "Downton Abbey. This is an intriguing murder mystery, set in a privileged class British country estate filled with weekend hunting party guests, interwoven with upstairs/ downstairs intrigue, modified with 'modern' 30s influences. It is suggestive, mysterious, with a subtle adult plot. Helen Mirren, Maggie Smith, Kristin Scott Thomas, Michael Gambon, Clive Owen head a superb cast!

Projected into space,

Set in tune with time,

Poetic mind fleets, flitters

Unrestrained, to know.

Sometimes writing visibly

Upon a sandy shore.

Dresden fancy fixes it;

To finally get to show.

Prescribed a place,

Described in rhyme,

Lost moments drawn

From restlessness,

Set down in every age,

Yet hidden, ever more.

〰©Nellieanna H. Hay

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What to do those times

You pen the lines

And find them

Snapping back at you?

They seem to gape

In jeering rhymes

You never meant to say,

While real intent

Laughs more,

Delighting to escape!


I doubted I should sing again

Nor live where it had been, to be.

I longed to visit songbirds' nest

To feel belongingness,

To nestle in the fluffy down.

That bottle green

I once had seen

No longer strained for me

Though rainbows rise at dawn

Whose filter is the best,

Contain the restlessness.


It seemed my pit

Was the worst of it

Till I learned of many deeper.

The escape-map I'd made

Seemed too steep a grade

Till there appeared

More much steeper.


I often want the other one

Than any I have known.

When summer shines

The snow glows bright.

When winter chills,

A pastel bloom

Makes this one's heart

More light.


Constrain me not

In blackened tower

Of memories outgrown,

Now singed upon

A fire-mount

Too withered to be known.

〰©Nellieanna H. Hay

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If aught but kingdom came

There wouldn't be a shred.

Naught lessor than the same

Might lay me down abed.

I give a little penance.

I pen a little verse.

I go and ponder all of it,

This whole life's universe.

Still I know but little.

Still I ponder more.

But cannot know the all of it

From this beleaguered shore.

Is it enough to ponder,

Enough to wonder why.

To look into the yonder

Still rising, set on high?

If all the moments fused,

If all the thoughts convened.

The end would still refuse

To be more clearly seen.

The better choice lay here

To lace what can be known,

Transcribe a meaning clear

Which may be simply shown.

Letting go of needing,

Let go of all-my-way,

Embrace a golden crystal nugget

To guide my path this day.

〰©Nellieanna H. Hay

Words and words and words.

Whose are they, anyway?

Claim immortality with words

To surely die unsaid.

Others, lacking words,

Will bury you in yours.

Words are risky space ships,

More risky than my head.

〰©Nellieanna H. Hay


I Can Give You Starlight - Novello

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Hello, Nellieanna! I was just here to respond to a comment I had, but then I saw your hub in the feed. Unfortunately the video won't play and the formatting isn't displaying quite right. Has to do with this browser, I think, or the net itself. Plus, I have been ill today, so I won't stay long. I'll come back later to reread and to listen to the video.

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Mhatter99 3 years ago from San Francisco

A flower is in bloom today! Thank you for lightening my fields.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Shan - I know you're ill, so please don't strain! I just visited FB briefly and responded to your note there. Thank you for stopping by my hub and leaving a comment.

But - this will 'keep'. Sorry the video didn't play. Hope it does next time you try it. It's rather nice, in an old-fashioned, British sort of way. It sort of pleases me to think that the setting for the movie and the music is the 1930s, about the time I was born. Gives me an extra insight how it was then, as far as fashion, cars, conveniences, etc. Of course, - I wasn't born in an English mansion with servants, we didn't have tea at 4, dinner at 8 and murder at midnight, as in the movie. ;-)

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Martin, what a lovely comment! Thank you! You are most kind!

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wayne barrett 3 years ago from Clearwater Florida

Up early this morning and as I started checking my feed here I see that Nellieanna has posted a new piece. (Wayne sits up in his chair and is suddenly wide awake!)

What the eye reveals to us at moments and then on others pulls down the shades. Our present emotions and experiences filtering what is, or what could be.

"That bottle green, I once had seen, No longer strained for me, Though rainbows rise at dawn, Whose filter is the best, Contain the restlessness"...and if I quoted every other stanza that moved me, I might as well copy and paste your entire piece in the comment box.

What perfect timing to have immersed myself in your work before the sun has even peeked over the horizon. You have laid out a beautiful path to start my day.

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billybuc 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

Nellieanna, you are so gifted, and what a lovely way to begin my day. I am now smiling and filled with a sense of peace only great writing can give me. :)

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JayeWisdom 3 years ago from Deep South, USA

Dear Nellieanna....Your talent with language is such that the word pictures you paint with your verses can be seen vividly--both landscapes of the natural world and of the mind.

I smiled when I read, "...You pen the lines...And find them... Snapping back at you?" This happens to me often when writing prose. I know the feeling well. Yes, "...Words are risky space ships...." yet still we writers feel an urge to send them out into the void, hoping theirs will be a kind fate.

What a delight to find a tribute to "Gosford Park" in your hub! I like to revisit that video periodically and now that you've reminded me of it, tonight seems a good time to watch it again. I have all of Julian Fellowes' books and re-read them as well. He nails the social nuances and peccadilloes of the British upper class during the turn of the (19th to 20th) century and the Gilded Age so well because his own background was one of privilege. (He is Baron Fellowes and a member of the House of Lords, which you probably know.) I'm very drawn to any book, movie or TV show set in the 1930s, particularly in England. I'm not sure why, but if given the choice between that era and something contemporary, the choice makes itself.

As usual, all of your verses and your original graphic designs form such a pleasing hub that the reader/viewer can move from one area to another and find a different delight for the senses.

Voted Up, Awesome and Beautiful (as always), and shared

Have a lovely Sunday,


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btrbell 3 years ago from Mesa, AZ


"Still I know but little.

Still I ponder more"

Such a familiar feeling! and

"Letting go of needing

Letting go of all-my-way"

Thank you, NellieAnna for your, as always, beautiful ideas, beautiful words and perfect graphics and music to go with it! Up+

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bravewarrior 3 years ago from Central Florida

Nellieanna, you blow me away! This is absolutely beautiful, as is your graphic art. My, what a talented woman you are!

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Martin, what a lovely comment! Thank you! You are most kind and I value your very wise opinion! I'm always honored by your visits! Hugs.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Wayne - I'm truly thrilled by your generous comments! Thank you!! :-) I'm pleased to have shared a good start for your day, too!

Yes, yes. You've so perfectly defined it: ". . Our present emotions and experiences filtering what is, or what could be. . ." Yes. Our emotions, experiences, impressions, responses are the actual filters which interpret 'out there' (and inside) for each of us. It's mainly the presently felt ones, but those we've stored up also add their effects to our impressions now.

I call it 'subjective reality'. It's the only reality we really can perceive, experience and interpret, as our own beings are filtering it through all the experiences of our lives and our responses to them, which, of course, are always painted with the colors of our own emotions and 'how it is/was' for us personally.

Objectivity is a fine ideal, but it's not among our natural talents. We're equipped with sensors for subjective observation and interpretation, not so much for objective, and those we have for it are always further filtered with the subjective store-house which we 'are'. We can try to be 'more objective' and with some measure of success, by applying analytical faculties to what we experience; - but, in order to fully do so, we'd need to be 'out of our own selves', - apart from our subjectivity, which is who we are and how we function, without which we'd cease to BE.

If what we feel seems to agree with the 'consensus' of other subjectivities, we assume it may or must be more objective, and perhaps to an extent, it is. There is a community subjectivity which has additional 'tests' and criteria for 'the facts'; but, essentially, we must trust our own subjectivity if we are to function at maximum as our own selves, which really is a doggone good being to BE! (as if there's a choice!). One of my earlier poems expressed it:

Being Is A Noun And Verb


Not I!

I catalyze,

I prophesy,

I speak,

I write,

I laugh,

I cry;

And try

To light another's fire,





Inspire a flame

With sparks of life,

To salve the pain,

To solve the strife.

To be

A being, -


_________© Nellieanna H. Hay


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Billy - you're such an icon of good writing and honest feeling. I'm honored by your comment and sharing that you received good vibes from my hub! Now my day is improved immeasurably! Thank you, kind sir!

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Jaye, thank you so much! I'm pleased that we share some more common interests, too!

I must track down more of Julian Fellowes works! I was prompted to get "Gosford Park" by the extra features in some of the 'Downton Abbey' series DVDs which have made me a fan of his work; but I really hadn't researched much further and didn't know he was a Baron himself and member of the House of Lords. His overview of both the downstairs & upstairs hierarchies in those upper-class English houses comes from experience and a keen observation & understanding, no doubt, along with a wondrous ability to spin a story!

I'm also a fan of Edith Wharton, who wrote of the New York 'aristocracy' of the turn of the century, - before and after 1900, - also with 'insider' understanding, being one of the privileged New Yorkers. She wrote her first novel at age 11 and began a prolific story-writing life, though her first published work wasn't till 1899 when she must have been 37. She wrote "Ethan Frome" and "House of Mirth", among many others. One of my favorite books & movies is her "Age of Innocence". I guess she captured those vibes in America in a similar way as Fellowes, in Britain. There were active communication lines between the two countries at those levels, as well. Both of them illustrate that in their stories.

There's a book ("America's Secret Aristocracy" by Stephen Birmingham) about the unseen American aristocracy. Quite fascinating, and all too real, affecting government, politics, economy and our lives more than we may realize.

I suppose my reading GWTW over and over in my early teens, and also Anya Seton's "Dragonwyck" (over and over) in the 1940s, may have hooked me on fascination with those layers of society, so 'other' than my plain, rustic West Texas upbringing. Teens tend to search out contrasts, I suppose! "Dragonwyck" (which you may know) is the story of a wealthy, and quite cruel, Dutch New Yorker and a poor & beautiful farm-bred relative he and his wife 'take in', whom he falls for and poisons his wife to have. I can't remember which intrigued me more, - the perfect, gorgeous wardrobe he bought the girl or the depths of the ugliness of her benefactor! The poison he used was from his hothouse garden - oleander leaves. Del Rio is covered with oleanders and my playmates & I made 'leis' of the flowers when we pretended to be Dorothy Lamour in our own little productions. haha. It scared me to know how poisonous their leaves are!

All this may be why I'm still fascinated with stories like "Gosford Park"! I am intrigued by hidden undercurrents which have dramatic effects on what we accept in everyday lives as being 'so', sometimes rather ignorantly. I certainly wouldn't trade places with any of the characters, but it's interesting to see how they surely lived, loved and were 'done in', especially as told by good writers who accurately know whereof they write!

I added another musical selection from "Gosford" to the hub, btw.

I think it's interesting in the ending segment of Season 3 of "Downton Abbey" that, when 'Shrimpy' admits to having lost all the fortune and the Scottish estate which he inherited, he figures he can just go to London and enjoy his club and 'Lords', anyway.

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Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

Oh, Dearest Nellieanna,

You are such a brilliant poet and we all receiving such a blessing to be able to read your magnificent works!

What a lovely read here to enjoy on this lovely Sunday afternoon! Smiles and peace it does bring.

Quite thought-provoking and reflective.

Voted up ++++ and sharing

Hugs and love,

Faith Reaper

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Randi - thank you, my dear, both for the great comment and the votes! That verse you quoted is one of my favorites. It brings one off any ivory tower and reminds one of reality! Can't move forward stuck on an ivory tower!! ;-)

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Those things might not be so bad. However, don't know about you, but I think I could do without the murder at midnight...;) Going to sleep now, but I will try the video again when I can.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Faith Reaper! Thank you! I'm always so gratified when you visit and express your enjoyment and approval of my work! I consider you among the most honest and clear-eyed readers! If I've given anything of value for you to ponder and upon which to reflect, I feel most satisfied!

It is a lovely Sunday here. Our little reprieve from the blistering Texas July heat is such a treat! I realize that many places wouldn't regard the mid-90s as a 'cooling off', or a fraction of an inch of rain as a blessing, - but they are! We'll be plunging back into the triple digits and 'no rain in sight' starting soon next week. Compared to last summer, though, when we had nearly a straight month of 100s and many of them over 105, - it's a miracle, indeed. It's always so good to welcome Fall and the moderation of temperatures, and it's not all that far off! Meanwhile, I'm staying cool inside and admiring the pretty green grass from the recent rains! :-) There is always much for which to be thankful!! Life, especially - and good friends like you! :-)

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Oh, yes, Shan! Murder at any hour is not to be desired! But in a mystery novel, one can sort of expect something of the kind. In this story, it's especially subtle, with deep wrong-doings going way back in several of their lives being oddly put 'aright' by it. In fact, any number of the houseguests & staff have good reason to have committed it, so it keeps one on one's toes. It's a more sophisticated mystery than the usual 'whodunit'.

The actual murder is done to protect someone who thinks he's done it, but due to the anticipation of his intention by his wise, unknown-to-him mother (Helen Mirren), who actually did the deed first by poisoning his whisky, her son (Clive Owen) can never be prosecuted for it because what he did was 'after the fact' & redundant: he didn't really kill the man, his father (Michael Gambon), though he stabbed his lifeless body forcibly & thought he'd done it.

It's a very, very subtle, convoluted story, which I've had to watch several times to figure it all out, really. Of course, I almost never just watch a movie, but am multi-tasking too. The British Isles accents are strong, the lighting in the sets is rather dark, making it not always easy to know who did what to whom! haha. But that's what makes it a great mystery story. Hope I've not ruined the plot for you! :-) It really is a worthwhile movie, and even knowing what to expect, it's still rather unexpected and fascinating, when one is in the right frame of mind for such a story. I'm enjoying it while mine is.

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

It's playing now. Had to re-read your words, too, to absorb them. :) Sometimes your work is not as straightforward with a message as others, that I can discern anyway on first read.

Regarding the plot, yeah, you kinda ruined it. Hehe. But that's okay, I likely wouldn't be able to watch it any time soon anyway, and if and when I do, I'll have forgotten your plot synopsis that gives away the end. ;)

Speaking of 1930,s, though, I was watching something earlier about how the weather caused the Hindenburg disaster. Very interesting. Weather is fascinating, history is fascinating. . . psychology is fascinating. ;)

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dreamseeker2 3 years ago

I like your poem of 'Ponderings' Nellieanna. : ) It is good to have something of yours to read again. I love Jeremy Northam as an actor...he played in the movie 'Emma' with Gwenneth Paltrow, taken from one of Jane Austin's book. He made me wish for a Mr. Knightly, that's for sure! Never saw the movie you've depicted here...but, taking your word for it, I believe it to be good. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and poetry with us. As always...great and well done. Finely pieced in eloquence. Voted it up and awesome!

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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada

Hi Nellieanna, When I came across this page last night I couldn't comment, it is so beautiful, I was just stunned. I always enjoy the subtlety and intricacy of your work, but this poem feels like a step beyond. Powerful, and sharp, I can almost feel the earth forming your words. I don't know what else to tell you. I bow to your mastery...

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snakeslane 3 years ago from Canada

I can almost feel the earth forming 'in' your words, I meant to say ( I think).

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Shan - ah - glad the video is playing for you now! As for spoiling the plot, - trust me, if you do get a chance to watch the movie, you will probably appreciate any clue you can latch onto to help explain what's going on. If you think my work is obscure, you will really think that plot is! It's as if it's designed to be, and the set designers were in on that intention!

I'm not joking when I say I needed to watch it several times to sort it out, and I'm not dense. So, even knowing what I've prevealed, you may still find it a little obscure. If you claim otherwise, I may question your honesty, in fact. I had to intensely make note of every tiny detail to begin to piece it together, and that was after I'd begun to know what was going on from having watched it a time or two already. I admit to not focusing on a movie exclusively, normally, but I can usually follow the story even when multitasking too.

The mystery involved in this story is not just at the final resolution, but all through the whole thing, with many people interacting obscurely! One sensed it was complicated and interwoven, but seeing just where and how it took shape was like a chess game. Fun and challenging, once one gets over the sense that it's all some sort of put-on. Now it's become one of my favorite movies and each time I see it again, I notice new important details. Between Julian Fellowes' writing and Robert Altman's directing and a bevy of major actors, it's extremely well-done.

I remember the news about the Hindenburg disaster. I was five when it happened. It was covered in the newspaper, of course; and I suppose it was included in radio news coverage, but we didn't have a radio at our house, except the one my brother built in the basement, which never dared emerge from there. I listened to radio at friends' houses, and not usually newscasts. TV was nonexistent, of course. We only saw visual news coverage as an RKO-Pathe News film 'short subject' feature among other short subjects, such as cartoons, Previews of Coming Attractions and sometimes a skit with comedians such as the 3 Stooges or The Little Rascals, shown before the feature film at the movie house, which, of course, one had to be attending to see any of those, including the News. By the time RKO Pathe News got a news story, it was passé, almost, though I enjoyed seeing the little princesses, Elizabeth and Margaret Rose, in their frilly little dresses, cavorting with their parents, King George VI and Queen Elizabeth (now the Queen Mother) on the grounds of Buckingham Palace, as viewed on the movie-house screen in Del Rio, Texas. I could relate to those little girls more than to a burning dirigible, though the thought of that was frightening, along with the kidnapped Lindbergh baby. Shudder. The constant flow of disasters & crimes we see as regularly as breakfast and supper now was unheard of then. Yes, things were quite different!

From what I've read about the disaster, there were several factors, including some bad weather; but the exact cause hasn't been officially pinpointed. Fascinating bit of history, for sure. It ended the era of airship travel. I didn't know till I checked that American Airlines had coordinated to shuttle and then fly the passengers from the Hindenburg at its landing to their various other destinations here in the U.S. Heck, I didn't realize AA was even in existence in 1937!

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Gwen! Lovely comment! Yes, Ponderings is a thoughty one. In fact, this collection is rather 'thoughty'.

I'm so glad you mentioned that Jeremy Northam is in "Emma" with Gweneth Palthrow. I had sort of forgotten, though I have the DVD. In fact I've accummulated DVDs and books of all Jane Austen's works (all 6 of them). Mine are not in a matched set, however. The latest to complete my book collection of them happens to be a lovely illustrated and annotated edition of "Emma"! It's such a gorgeous book, it's a 'coffee table' book! The next most recent addition is of "Mansfield Park" and is almost a mini-edition, though very pretty, gilt-edged pages and some small illustrations. But it may take a magnifying glass for me to read it! haha.

I adore Jane Austen's work, her courage and her whole lifestyle. She was so ahead of her times in so many ways! Such a trailblazer! Every woman could take a few lessons from her.

I have 2 movie versions of "Pride and Prejudice". The BBC one with Colin Firth as Darcy is superior. The entire thing is more true to Austen's book and the times it portrayed which paint the background. I enjoyed the other one with Kiera Knightly as Elizabeth till I had the chance to have the BBC version. Now I have both but prefer the BBC version.

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

I'll take your word for it, Nellieanna. Maybe when I get the internet on a regular basis (the 24 hr code is about to run out here in about an hour or so) I will look it up on Netflix to see if the movie is there. I admit, that I am very curious now. No, indeed, you are far from dense! Maybe that's yes indeed? hahaha Perhaps I am the dense one today. :-p Can I blame it on fever? hehe

According to the episode on the Weather Channel, the airship disaster was in large part due to the weather, but really a string of coincidences that lead up to its final fate. If one thing or another had been different, the outcome might've been different. There was, of course, the hydrogen leak from the torn skin, and the ionized skin because of the electricity in the clouds from the thunderstorms that were in the area. According to the show, experts now believe that the ionization of the skin verses the inner shell, which was grounded, created a difference in electrical voltage which produced the spark that set it on fire.

It's funny how things like that are still so well known today. I guess sometimes it is hard to know what will become a part of history. Thus far, I remember things like Diana's death, the Oklahoma City bombing, and 911. I did a hub on the latter two, but I remember her death making me cry, and I didn't even know her, of course. They just covered it so relentlessly and imagining what her poor boys were going through in front of the public eye.

I know about Lindbergh, but do not recall ever hearing about the baby kidnapping until you and Cat were discussing it somewhere on here.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Snakes - what a pure pleasure to see you, my dear! Thank you for the lovely comments! These poems came out of a different era of my life, much more recent, in fact, plus being greatly edited as I formed the hub, since I could barely read my own writing in some instances, so almost had to rewrite some of it. haha Assembling into the hub, coordinating other current thinking, seems to have produced a rather interesting result. I'm so pleased you came and felt the result worthwhile!

Ah - 'forming my words' or 'in my words' - either is pretty spectacular, if not a bit spooky. whoo hoo! Thinking about this. . . I may have to step back and ponder that! ;-) I'm honored by your words, either version, my friend!

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Shan - NO one is dense in this gathering! NO one! It almost goes without saying; but then, admitting to 'not getting it on the first or second viewing' - sounds suspiciously like a bit of denseness might be involved. haha. Well, if THAT is dense, I guess I'm not ashamed to claim it. The movie is quite challenging. Hope you get a chance to see it. Then you may report it was simple as "Dick and Jane". I will ever-after look askance at whatever you claim, in that case.

I would think it would be a welcome distraction from any more immediate real-life puzzles!

When Diana died, we were with friends from the UK in Orlando. I'd met her online when I first got online and we'd formed a friendship. They planned a holiday to the states, we'd just bought a new Casita RV, so we loaded it up and took off to meet them there. Needless to say, she and her husband were pretty devastated by that news. And now those boys are grown and 'Wills' is a new father of a new little prince! How time flies!

That couple invited us to visit them in the UK the next spring, which we did and had a most wonderful time. I'm sure I've mentioned it before.

Yes, the Lindberg kidnapping had an enormous impression on my very young life at the time.

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Hahaha....what makes you think I would now admit to you the truth if I find it easy to follow since you twice or thrice proclaimed you would doubt me? :-p

Yes, my daughter says very adamantly that she is going to be a princess when she grows up. He's only 6 years younger than her.. . ;)

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

I insist on hearing the real skinny if you do view the movie. My second sight will find you out if you withhold any truth.

Well, tell Dallas that Prince George Alexander Louis isn't the only prince in the ocean - or somewhere. There may be some other princes more her age already launched (unless she's just planning to have the 'age card' to pull on him.)

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Age card is a bad idea....LOL....for all kinds of reasons.

As for the movie, I would tell you the truth as I see it anyway. Integrity is too important to me. You'd just have to doubt me and live with it because I wouldn't be living with a lie or half truth! Hahaha

Plus, I have no doubt that you really do have a sixth sense, or second sight. ;)

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Vincent Moore 3 years ago

what a beautiful send off to my evening shift, you are always a breath of fresh air, every word so airy and I savor each one. I read your work and listen to your relaxing videos you always place with them. They accompany your verse like bees to a bud. I will come visit you again, you are still one of my favorite all time poets at the Hubs and I would be remiss to not come to peek, read and enjoy your work. I am in awe of it as you know dear poet. Hugs I send to you this eve.

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Vickiw 3 years ago

Dear Nellieanna, you are so talented, and living proof that age only enhances beauty, in body and in mind. This is so beautiful it is absolutely mind boggling. I cannot take exerpts from it, because I would have to take the whole thing, and then I would be accused of plagiarism, when I only meant to exult in your charm and deep thoughts, your beautiful expressive use of words. Lovely.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Good. Advise her to not pull the age card on the bonnie prince, Shan. For one thing, inequality sets up a poor basis on which to build a relationship, so she shouldn't emphasize outranking him like that. ;-)

Yes, you would tell the truth. Then I'd need to weigh all the factors, including the fact that you'd been clearly told the plot, which would've given you tremendous advantage. hehe. Oh, heck. Maybe we ought not get into any of that. Simply whether or not you like it: - that sort of thing would be a better area for discussion of it, probably, now that we've almost worn out all this other. Unless you come up with some wildly innovative perspective on it, drawn from your creativity!

Probably if I've anything, it's fairly keen observational skill & rather clear awareness of the moments in progress which enable seeing 'through' the clutter. But I'm a bit of a sceptic when it comes to claims of supernatural powers, except that it sometimes does seem that ordinary ability to focus & notice, coupled with keen intuition & insight may be so rare as to seem a bit extraordinary. What do you think?

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hello, my dear Vincent! I love your simile: "like bees to a bud" and appreciate the compliment in it! You're such a poet, your mind can't help expressing itself in poetry!

You needn't ever feel remiss for not coming by. When you do come by spontaneously, it's such a treat and how would I ever know you wanted to visit, if you came because you'd feel remiss not to? :-)

Ah, and I like that hug! Hope your evening is going well! Thank you for cheering mine!

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Vicki, thank you. I like that you see age as a favorable factor. I certainly do! It's a little like the rarified air as one climbs closer to the top of the mountain, perhaps. Just never want to lose touch with those not as far along the climb! Each step is so valuable!

I so appreciate your kind and lovely compliments! From one as talented as you, they are especially valued!

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

I tend to agree with tou for the most part. But having experienced a few strange "supernatural" things, I tend to fully consider qho I am talking to, what is claimed, and how. if you wonder why, read Mission of Love hub.

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Well, there are Biblical explanations, and I'd be skeptical, too except that this eas not deja vu. I had visions of a place I'd never even seen. I just cant explain it any other way. As for ESP and such, I think that is mostly just observation and knowing someone fairly well.

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Tonipet 3 years ago from The City of Generals

Hello Nellieanna, how are you? In my little heart, I should say that one reason of restlessness is the desire for belongingness :=)... this is perhaps why the human heart has searches that he hardly ever understand. Wow,

"Letting go of needing, let go of all-my-way, embrace a golden crystal nugget, to guide my path this day."

Like usual, your words touches hearts. Thank you Nellieanna. May you have a wonderful Sunday night. Love you! :=)-Tonette

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Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

This is oh so beautiful Nellieanna and the final verses were indeed my favourites. You are so dignified ;this pours from your words and also so talented. Voting up and sharing ; also wishing you a wonderful day .


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De Greek 3 years ago from UK

You never cease to surprise me with your genius and to give me pleasure with your use of words.

And make sure you save this:

"Others, lacking words,

Will bury you in yours."

One day the so called experts will be forced to admit how blind they have been to your genius and will be quoting lines like these in order to show how well they understand you.


Kiss you my love ;-)

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ImKarn23 3 years ago

my friend, if i were to guess your physical age simply based on the lightness, the optimism, the inspiration - and the brilliance?

I'd guess about 35-50.

If i were to guess your spiritual age, your...'soul-ful' age simply based on the insight, the tolerance, the inspiration - and the brilliance?

I'd guess several thousand years!

You 'simply' amaze me, Nellieanna!


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OK. And I appreciate your letting me know what you think. I'll ponder it.

Hugs and goodnight.


It's today - and this little comment which I posted last night before your last one, Shan, doesn't show up on the comment thread. I saved it along with the heading as posted last night & saved in my 'comments' backup, but it's just not here from last night. So here it is again.

Anyway, now it's today. I did want you to know I appreciated your thoughts on what I'd said. One thing of which I'm convinced is that I don't know everything, if anything, - and that anything I think is no more than my subjective perspective & opinion. Therefore I can reason it is the same for other subjective beings, whether or not they've noticed their own subjectivity & have realized that the vast body of truth is ever a step or twenty beyond their/our perspective view. We may nibble at it. We may choose to nibble at what others have already nibbled at, sort of second-hand nibbles, don't you know. But our beings, though pretty well equipped to be able to comprehend what is vital for us to know about this life (though sometimes that seems debatable, too) - are simply ill equipped to really KNOW much beyond it, conjecture and nibble though we may.

Attempting to explain moments of seeing beyond seem to me to be a bit like attempting to contain an elephant in a matchbox and sell the closed matchbox as a re-inflatable elephant, if given enough faith in it. I've no quarrel with anyone who does feel any measure of elephantine knowledge; however, though I seldom feast on others' nibbles or buy 'white elephants' for myself.

I would have to agree with Socraties that ". . As for me, all I know is that I know nothing . . " and then try to claim only to know whatever of it I can (nothing). Even if sometimes it seems to me that some stuff I've ascertained about living this life on this plane may be proving to hold a little water, I definitely do not have the temerity to claim that anything much which I may think about any other possible plane of existence holds any, except as I sum it up in my 4-word declaration of faith: "There is no problem"; - that, of course, referring to any other plane of existence which one may or may not perceive or encounter.

I know you were only stating your view, which I fully respect. I would even follow up on your recommendations for other authority to support it, of course. But this IS my view on it, you see, which is not saying these things are or are not so. It simply says that knowing they are or are not is beyond the scope of this plane, though perhaps that knowledge is, too. So there's no debate here. It's a potent discussion, perhaps, for another time & place.

I came to reply to comments while I eat my morning fruit, but will not linger; - and now I've finished it. My other replies are ready to post and then - I'll be off. My day is fully packed, so if you don't see me when I'm finished here, you'll know why. Hope your throat and all are better today. I am praying for and thinking of you, my dear.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Eddy, dear one! It occurs to me that those words you've quoted simply restate in my own way what most of the wisest teachings do. Letting go of grasping needing and insisting on getting one's own way belie the abundance of life and the universe, which are throttled by our own efforts to possess and our neglect of patience & preparation that's in store, perhaps. Some philosophies call this letting go, 'detachment'. Many refer it to tending to others rather than focusing on oneself. In all cases, it is good advice, for sure, if and when it's done honestly rather just to try to 'get more' that way.

It is a wonderful, though busy day! You're so kind and I appreciate your visit and great comment, my dear sweet friend! Hugs.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

My dear Dimitris! What a treat to see you here - always! Yes, those words are etched on my heart. . . but they're no hindrance. I just go on goin' on my way. ;-) (as you know!) My impetus is never to 'prove' anything or get approval. If I please myself and my beloved and admired friends, I am 'here' for the day. Tomorrow - ? Who known? I will publish or be published. I may prefer to wait till the deluge has subsided. hehe.

Kiss you back! Hope you're feeling well! September is not far off! Whoopee, huh?


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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Leslie - wow - Now I won't be able to squeeze my inflated head through that little kitchen door to start cleaning up that room so the carpet cleaners tomorrow won't throw up their hands in disgust! I only bought the economy package which doesn't include pre-vacuuming & vacuuming is a chore these days. ugh. That's when I know I'm not 35. ;-)

Well, I guess 35-50 would be a nice time slot. I must admit that I enjoyed 40-on more than the 30s, though. I've been having a ball ever since, oh - 41, say.

I so appreciate your seeing me as fully alive and functioning, and that is what you're really saying! I hope to remain so till I go; - hopefully no sooner than 100, but whenever, kicking and singing, just maybe not vacuuming! hehe.

That's why I like the term, "ageless". It can easily handle from 1 to - oh a thousand or so! I do think I'm an 'old soul', though, as you may have detected.

You amaze me, K. Leslie! Your verve and brilliance are unexcelled! So, of course, your praise is especially meaningful to me! Thank you!

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Hello, Tonette! Apologies for replying to you out-of-sequence! (It's like saving best for last; - except then I'd have to keep juggling them all - you're all best! ;-)

What a delight to see you here, my friend. I'm fine and thank you for asking. Just terribly busy right now, preparing for guests from out-of-town, - special guests - my grown grandson and granddaughter whom I've never seen!

I like the thought from your 'little heart'. Yes, restlessness surely does stem from the desire and need to belong! I could almost say that this visit I'm anticipating is a good illustration of that! The human heart is surely as vast and inexplicable as the realms beyond this realm! Perhaps we need to try to understand it before we get too involved in the other! ;-)

Thank you so much for your visit and insight! Hugs.

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pagesvoice 3 years ago from New York/Pennsylvania border

Voted up and +++ - As ImKarn23 will tell you, I fail miserably at understanding poetry although I still give it the old college try. However, I found your words in this piece, along with the first audio to be both magnificent and timeless. I feel honored to have taken yet another leap into reading and attempting to comprehend your glorious words.

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Thank you, Nellieanna. Your thoughts and prayers are much appreciated. I am fully aware this is only a discussion, not a debate, but you asked so I answered. Most topics are merely discussions to me because of the subjectivity issue. In fact, I sometimes feel

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Oops, I hit post and this is a finicky phone to edit with. I was saying that if more people actually Realized things can be discussed and views exchanged without right or wrong or any hard feelings, conversations could be more enlightening or at least more interesting and possibly thought provoking.

As for the hub, it isn't really a recommendation. It just includes a specific 'supernatural' event I've experienced, though I would call it more spiritual, which I suppose would be supernatural as well. Anyway, was just further explanation of my point of view if you were interested. Not a big deal.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dennis, I'm pleased that you came by and gave my poetry a try. Sounds like you did quite well at it!

In all honesty, I'm not always into all poetry, which sometimes ranges from too simple, (almost trite) to too complicated and almost incomprehensible. I do like it when it says something of value in a poetic, almost musical way. I can empathize with you when it's just not getting across!

Thank you for your visit and kind comments. I especially appreciate that you wanted to read it!

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Yes, Shan, I agree. Mutual discussions with effort to look at it from each side are quite beneficial.

I will look forward to checking out that hub, but can't right now. I'm quite weary and am very involved in the house project at hand. Morning will come very soon. Good night.

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Tonipet 3 years ago from The City of Generals

Maybe last but I still feel so special Nellieanna, thank you:=) Your special guests - grown grandson and granddaughter whom you've never seen, means it's going to be really special moments to savour. I wish you all great times and smiles. What's exciting is - your granddaughter might even got her lovely looks from you! :=)... Enjoy!

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Gypsy Rose Lee 3 years ago from Riga, Latvia

Voted up and awesome. Your poetry always paints such wonderful pictures Nell. Really enjoyed this.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Oh, yes, Tonette, it will be a very special visit! I don't know about looks, but I've already realized many things we have in common. What a privilege to get to know them. Hugs and thank you!

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Rasma, thank you, dear. I appreciate those kind words!

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Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain

You have such a gift, Nellieanna. Your talent amazes me.

This poetry is no exception. Awesome and beautiful.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

You are so kind to visit and to enjoy my work. I'm most honored!

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Uh, two days late,but goodnight. Whenever, if e er, you ,are to tead it. I am a bit curious now of what you might think, though my experiences merely have been, believed by anyone else or not. Haha If your hole rescuet really was an angel, then you have expwrienced it as well. Blessings, miracles....supwrnatural by definition much of the time. Please excuse me phone texting spinach. ;-)

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Shan, sure you wanna know (what I may think)? (applies both as a question & a statement, with a comma after 'sure').

Seriously - you usually hear it and if I'm silent, it's either because1) I think better of saying it, 2) I haven't been thinking about it and don't intend to think about it, at least not then 3) I'm still mulling it over and not ready to share it, or 4) I'm thinking 'don't prompt my thoughts &/or when I disclose them; - I'm capable of deciding when or if to think about whatever it is.' :-D Love ya - - -

Now I'm thinking 5) I've finished my fruit and one cup of coffee for Thursday & am headed for the salt mines. Getting down to the wire.

Thanks for the comment & hugs.

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drbj 3 years ago from south Florida

Your lovely, inspired poetry, Nellieanna, just keeps getting more brilliant as well as relevant (a very difficult task) with every piece you write. Kudos and salutes and Bravas to you, m'dear. Don't stop sharing your gifts with the rest of us mortals.

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Haha. Yeah, I've heard your thoughts a few times when I didn't ask or have intentions of talking about the thing that prompted your thoughts. :-P In this case, you sorta said what ya think just in that response. ;-)

So, one should not ask Nellieanna to give a penny for her thoughts? you too.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Dear Dr. BJ - Thank you, my friend, for your lovely comment. Revelance is quite a factor. Some which relates only to personal experience may have relevance only for similar experience. But I truly am aware of more of what is going on than that. Sometimes it's best to contain it within a poem or a funny - or both. I just express it and hope it falls on sympathetic ears. :-) Glad yours are! Hugs.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Shan, I challenge anyone to say anything that is what he/she doesn't think, even when it's, "I guess I'd better say what is expected/needed/wanted or will get by." That reflects much about what he/she thinks at that moment in time. Haha.

But seriously, I have thoughts I think have value which have been earned, so I sometimes offer them where they might fit. I have enough respect for others to allow them to sift and filter for themselves, and evaluate them. I'll have done so before I offered them. Not expecting agreement. But worthwhile enough to venture.

As for deciding for others what is or isn't appropriate, much is involved which isn't my domain. So I leave it to them to judge. I've all I can do with my own, much less second-guessing others.

A penny? You're kidding, of course. . . . ;-) Too little and too much. How about priceless? tee hee

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Oh, Nellieanna, how I love you. B-)

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

:-) -

I'm feeling satisfied that my house is OK and have food stocked for the company - more than my usual fare, but generally healthy. I'm pooped and am aiming for getting to bed @ 10 or 10:30 so will shut this down after I post this. Can't believe I've accomplished what I set out to do. Couldn't have without the Reeboks! :-) ____________ (that's a graph of my remaining energy level. Hugs.

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Somehow I am not surprised that you accomplished all you set out to do. Just a reminder of the bacterial outbreak on fresh fruit and veggies in the DFW area. Your poor company might just have to forgive 100+ temps, too. Big hugs to you! Your energy level will surely be through the roof tomorrow.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you, Shan. I wish the upstairs were as clean and neat as the downstairs! haha! I'm even tidy, myself. I've been so wretched while cleaning!

About to make some potato salad for our lunch. The eggs and potatoes are cooked & cooled.

They land @ 10:30; figure it will be 11:30 or 12 by the time they get their luggage, pick up the rental car and drive to here. They offered to take me out to lunch but I told them I have something planned, so we'll eat here. Seems less of a hassle, besides, right after they arrive.

This morning, I've watered the yard & the house plants, made a trip to the store for something I forgot, tried out the coffee pot I haven't used in almost 5 years since George died, showered & washed my hair, fixed my fruit & am now trying to relax & get rid of the catch in my side/back, and eating the fruit.

Speaking of which, I got some Taylor Farms baby spinach to sauté with one meal. Their pre packed salad is one of the culprits, it seems. Hm-m-m - May use something else. Certainly don't want to poison my guests! I heard that not only washing all produce well, but using some lemon juice or vinegar in the rinse is helpful. I may try that.

I've pre warned them about the heat. Of course, they live in the Ohio River Valley which is one of the most humid places on earth, I think. Makes the heat index really bad, even when the temps are less. I have the house comfortably cool. Had to set the temp down in order to have it cool enough upstairs to get my shower, shampoo & dressed. My hair goes crazy otherwise.

So - I'm off to the potato salad.

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

Yes, well, you and I both know the difference between the kind of heat and cold from up there in that region and down here in this one.

I'm so craving some fresh veggies right about now, but all I'd be able to get are the bagged things and I'd heard that the prepackaged salad mixes are at least part of the outbreak problem. I love a good salad.

Anyway, enjoy the visit and talk to you sometime soon, I'm sure.

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

The visit is wonderful! We had so much to talk about. My potato salad was yummy with the sandwiches and big hit for lunch! :-) They took me to El Fenix for supper. I'll make brunch tomorrow morning and for supper, plan to use the green beans instead of the spinach for the vegetable. Just don't trust the spinach. I have meat to cook but may just stick some of the prepared stuffed chicken in the oven. Dunno. Otherwise, I'd do my famous chicken piccata or my famous beef-eggplant casserole. The casserole takes more time to prepare. The piccata is quick and delicious and the green beans would be good with it, I think. Will see how it goes. Stephanie is so determined not to overdo me & I don't want to spend the precious time cooking, though I love that they come in the kitchen and we go on visiting anyway. Feels so natural. Know what I mean? I feel like I know them and should have known them all their lives.

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shanmarie 3 years ago from Texas

It shouldn't be any other way. It is natural. Cooking together is a great activity. :-)

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

:-) It's true! It was all great!

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MartieCoetser 3 years ago from South Africa

Each and every verse to be pondered! And especially this one for me today -

"It seemed my pit

Was the worst of it

Till I learned of many deeper.

The escape-map I'd made

Seemed too steep a grade

Till there appeared

More much steeper."

(xxxxxx) - lots of hugs to you, my dearest CM :)

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Ah. Must be something in the stars! Today seems a bit 'steep' for several people I know! May be why they call these hot, sticky end-of-summer days of the year, 'the dog days', - though I suspect dogs have less anguish than their owners. . . Oh - then again, - it's the end of winter there! So that term doesn't correlate! ;-)

Anyway - thank you so much. I always so welcome your astute comments! Hope things are generally going well for you, my Cyber Daughter! Here, I'm trying to stay cool during these days of well over 100 degrees F, one after another. I have my methods, but if or when I must go out during the heat of the day, they're not much use. I try to schedule my errands & appointments as much as possible earlier in the day before it starts to sizzle. Already eagerly looking forward to Fall and the break from all this, although it's really been much less brutal than last summer was.

I so appreciate your visit and comments! Hugs!

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Victoria Lynn 3 years ago from Arkansas, USA

I love these lines: What to do those times

You pen the lines

And find them

Snapping back at you?

As everyone else says, you are so good with words. And your hub is so beautiful with the photos and videos dispersed throughout!

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Nellieanna 3 years ago from TEXAS Author

Thank you much, dear Victoria! Thank you for the generous compliment, but I must mention that you and I both understand how naturally words come to a writer who can't keep from writing, even when the words do 'snap back'! Another of my indulgences is putting together hubs or anything in which I can call on and use my enjoyable interests! Thank you for that lovely compliment, too! It's good to know if it touches others whom I like and respect!!

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