Better Late Than Never I Will Keep Trying Forever

My progress is slower than normal

I got caught in an unexpected snow storm

No that's a lie you would find out sooner or later I am sure with the internet and all

I have been railroaded and it wasn't my fault

That's another lie

I have been kidnapped by aliens and I had to do whatever they said or else

One could only wish they hand selected me out of the whole world of people

Let's try something more believable

I have been busy with work and the holiday complicates things even more

There is always something to do and it isn't just stay at home and write

Who does that anyway ?

I have been mentally hijacked and they won't let me come back until all my errands are done

Who are they ?

I guess it is a figment of my imagination but it seems so real

I can't even blame this one on my wife

She has been there helping me more times than ever

She has been cooking more

Decorating more

Making out Christmas cards and I insisted I must sign my own name

Talk about little hang ups that really bug me

Here it is she does all the work and I want to take half the credit

I am mentally and physically exhausted

No only partly true

No I don't have a cold and don't even try to make a fake sniffle or say everyone in work is sick

Just one lame excuse after another

Each time I think of one

Than I realize that one is too fake

I try to replace it with another

I am stuck in my head and battling for space

One part of me says we can do this

Another part of me is scared

With a new year approaching there is so much more to say

Afraid I will forget how to write and lose track of all my friends who have followed me all along the way

Now even I know better than that

We have to separate the truth from fiction

Oh now I know that is where the problem is ....

I like fiction better than the truth

I know I will have to return and write my heart out and put in long hours without sleep

No pills please just all natural honest hunger to seek out the unknown

To find the truth that I want to help me discover the real meaning of life

I know the answer

To live each day and ask more questions than the day before

To learn something new

Even my cat growled at me

Because there was no water in the cats two water bowls

What kind of pet owner would do that?

I thought I filled them this morning

No I am sure I did

Tjhey are just extra thirsty and I have come to the rescue

O.k. with at least that done I can start making comments and regain some focus

I still have found time to read and keep my inner spirit alive

Would you believe I actually ran over my own sock with my office chair and I had to struggle to pull it out

It is nothing short of a miracle I didn't break every toe

I did go to two Christmas parties so it wasn't all that bad

Actually both parties were alot of fun

Just to go out of my way to see some friends and family

Well I know the hoidays are suppose to be known for getting people depressed

For what reason I am not sure ???

When the whole idea is for the opposite affect

Well some people blame it on the winter blues

I don't buy it

No snow yet and the weather is like a chilly spring

If I can't sell it or eat it I don't believe it is real

I think we just look for any reason to do less when we could do more

Maybe it is a shocker that all our dreams haven't been accomplished no matter how hard we have tried

Lets look on the bright side

This is our year to show the world something outragious and get away with it

Maybe thinking the New Years resolutions are coming early this year before Chrismas

That can't happen !

That is impossible !

Well get use to it buddy life is filled with surprises

The sooner you realize it the better off you will be

Take your lumps like everyone else and stop the whinning

Well movin on and back to sqare one in many ways

Now remember number one is the leader of the pack

Everyone else has to follow you

I never thought of it that way

I am now proud to begin from scratch and rethink many of my old thoughts

This time writing them clearer and more percise like a laser pointer pinpointing my every move

That's the ticket and soon it will be my ticket out of here

I can't wait to see all the smiling childrens faces for Christmas

That is the true meaning of Christmas

Well for the New Year we will just have to sit and wait

Then when the ball drops for the one millionth time

Hold our love ones real close and say after me

I love you and you make everything in my life special