I originally wrote the first section as stream of consciousness while I was sitting in my work truck, looking at the beautiful scene that surrounded me. It progressed into something I didn't plan on, but I just went with it, then later revised it into a poem.
The second section, in paragraph form, was just me rambling :]
Surrounded by fences
wrapped in menacing spirals
of barbed wire and lost freedom,
they dare us to enter,
or even to attempt
an exit or escape…
The engine idles, and
cool air brushes my face,
relieving me of the outside heat.
Puffs of gleaming white,
trimmed by glaring bright,
but filled with darkening centers,
are floating, changing,
and shaping, overhead.
Beyond the gates,
in every direction,
flooding my view,
are walls of green,
in every shade, dark and light.
Foothills, rich in color,
ever crawling with life.
Cumulus clouds, softly swirling,
graceful, skimming the peaks.
My sadness has vacated,
for the time being,
as the substance inside me,
digesting, is peaking.
The daylight is young.
They say likewise, my body,
but my youth is only a memory,
depleting and faint.
Within my veins, rust is forming.
Beneath the foundations of my soul,
cracks are creeping, increasing.
I was born into my mother’s sweet arms,
and she bestowed to me only love,
but as days and nights passed,
living this life,
learning my lessons,
breathing my breaths,
longing for death,
the cares of this world,
to me now, mean nothing.
I see, and I’ve seen,
the truth, so unsettling.
My heart‘s beat is speeding,
to keep up with my mind’s
perceptions of reality,
which are fooled by my eyes,
which take in the sights;
these illusions of beauty
they thought they could find.
Heat waves, mirages,
they rise from the ground.
Cries from the past,
to the present, resound.
These thoughts speak of deepness,
so shallow, so simple.
These visions, so full,
yet so hollow, they cripple.
Riding back to the place
that I sadly call home,
my eyes begin to blur
at the repetitive road.
Lines, yellow,
spotted, and solid,
on endless stretches
of mans’ faulty making…
The day is so quickly
becoming so tiresome,
and the sun’s daily journey
has progressed around the globe.
We want to believe that the sun
rises and sets just for us.
We desire to think that
we’re rock solid in space,
but the sun knows not
that we even exist,
nor would our passing
mean two shits to it.
It’s sad how my workday consists,
of ceaselessly thinking,
I cannot resist
to ponder this nightmare,
though lovely it is,
nor can I bear for a moment…
to sit, see, or hear,
to smell, or feel, or touch,
to breathe, or bleed, or feed,
without my heart crying out
so loudly to me…
Truthfully, I accept,
but refuse to believe.
The world will change,
by my hand…one day.
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