Dying in Pain

Dying in Pain

In to the shadows again I walk. I hear death calling and I want to answer. I can't help but think that by answering all the pain will go away.

The only sound I hear is the breaking of my own heart. Gone is my laughter, gone is my smile, and gone is me.

I feel myself drowning, and I know I can stop it if I just start kicking. I don't want to kick anymore. I just want it to stop.

A cold numbness takes over my whole body like a thousand frost bitten bites. Anger is coming I can feel the burn like being consumed by deaths fire.

My heart is turning cold to everything around me. It's like being frozen from my head to my toes. It's welcomed with open arms.

Hate is taking over like the blackest plague. I have never hated anything and now I hate everything. Blackness is my new color.

What you did is the worst thing you can do to anyone. That is make them feel special when you don't mean it.

I gave you my smile and now I know it was wasted. I gave you my touch and now I know you didn't feel it. I gave you my body and now i know you just used it. I gave you my everything, and now I know it didn't matter.

Your name is pain even though it wasn't at birth. You have broke me, drowned me,, froze me, and burned me and taken my breath away.

I guess all that's left to ask is, How many times do you plan on killing me before you are done and end up burying me?

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Johnny Love 5 years ago

Sorrow left inside the smiles wasted on what we want or see as love. Very dark, sad, and so beautiful. Leslie, you write heart. so much heart.


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4elements 5 years ago Author

Thank you Johnny. Sometimes things just hit me and i feel i should write it, like with this. thank you for the cmpliment


Johnny Love 5 years ago

you are welcome. beauty comes from pain and it is a pain to be beautiful


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4elements 5 years ago Author

so are you rested now


Johnny Love 5 years ago

more so than i was. my mother kept texting and calling so i just said screw it and got up.


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4elements 5 years ago Author

man i hate when that happens,


Johnny Love 5 years ago

me too. she is a worrier to say the least. oh well. i am so tired. emotions have been hard on my body these days.


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4elements 5 years ago Author

Sorry to hear that. I smiled today, which was big compared to yesturday .thank you. Ps sent you an email lol


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Mystique Scorpio 5 years ago from Edmonton Alberta ;)

Your expression from the soul is powerful..I can litteraly feel your emotions in the words you write...love and light :)


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4elements 5 years ago Author

Thank you Mystique, it was something i was going through, glad you liked it, thankd you for reading and commenting


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Genna East 5 years ago from Massachusetts, USA

Wow...now this is powerful! We can feel every word you have written. Well done.


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4elements 5 years ago Author

Thank you so much henna that is a great compliment . I was trying to envoke passion and feelings of hurt, pain, and sadness. I must admit I was in a dark mood when I wrote it. I was hurting. Thank you again. Blessings


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4elements 5 years ago Author

I meant genna I was using my smart phone and it changed it, some smartphone, lol


Johnny Love 5 years ago

you have jokes too? all in one person....lol


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Elizabeth99 5 years ago from Milwaukee, WI

I know how you feel, I have gone through these feelings too. Sometimes turning away and feeling nothing but hate is the easiest thing in the world. I have found a way to help thaw out my heart and I am sure you will to unless you already have :) Very very good :))


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4elements 5 years ago Author

Thank you e99 for reading and leaving a comment they mean a lot the feedback. Blessings


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ROMANCER OF LIFE 5 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

Very great piece of ones pain. Beautifully written!

Romancer


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4elements 5 years ago Author

Thank you romancer. I was in a dark mood when writing this. I appreciate you reading and leaving a comment. Blessings


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manthy 5 years ago from Alabama,USA

Thanks for sharing this hub - I think it is very creative & revealing - I wish you only the best ;0)


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4elements 5 years ago Author

Thank you Manthy, for reading and leaving a comment, blessings peace, love and light

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