I'm not a Ragdoll

Twenty five years...it's been this way or that...the counterbalance of diffused purposes... I sincerely try,
The greatest times were never my greatest...I gave and gave and most certainly never received,
Truth be told...I love with all my heart...but every heart that has been with me held reservations,
Contemplations always held the variables for disaster in others...why cant they realize...I was once a rag doll.

Until today...I have given my heart and soul...but pull back and watch...the chase might be delayed,
It's too controversial...too many maybes and what if's...the world doesn't understand the creation of rationalities,
Waiting and waiting I do...wish for an answer that will never come...that decision can't be made,
I was a rag doll...a reformed lover that wished for only the best relationship.

Why doesn't the world want a nice guy finish first model...it has to be the other way around they say,
If the world needs that...then I no longer wish to break the mold...Simply give me another mold and throw the old away,
The new mold will be shaped into a sight worth the function of greatness...worth the controversy,
It will be a mold worth that attachment...but if one doesn't want it...perfection through practice will find another.

I am not a rag doll anymore...the once tore up soul...it's thrown away for slick and lean,
Placing others first over myself for they and them and those to stomp on...I wont lose my cause,
It pains to see the differences that others make...the allegations of ones true self attacked and mutilated,
This won't happen again...realize or understand my needs and wants...for I love but must be loved...I'm not a rag doll anymore.

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HattieMattieMae 5 years ago from Limburg, Netherlands

When you don't need a girl anymore, and you love yourself

she'll show up. lol

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BakerRambles 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

That is very true, I do have someone, just want love.

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BakerRambles 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

Thank you and you as well.

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Sunnie Day 5 years ago

Hi Baker,

Really deep hub and yes everyone wants to be loved but not thrown around like a rag doll, and disregarded. It is a funny thing sometimes people fall in love with the rag doll and when the person is no longer a rag doll..it confuses the other person maybe intimidating them abit..Too bad they can not celebrate the changes as our relationships grow

Thanks for a great hub


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BakerRambles 5 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

That is very true, I don't want to be one anymore for sure

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Sueswan 5 years ago

Hi Baker,

Soemthing that many of us can relate to. We want to be love and accepted for who we are. Not only physically, but emotionally for who we are not who someone wants us to be.

Voted up and awesome.

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Deborah Brooks 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

I hope you have found someone to love you the way you deserve to be loved. wonderful poem


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BakerRambles 4 years ago from Baltimore, MD Author

Thank you Debbie, and I don't think it's any particular person anymore. Hearts are always smashed at some point. The biggest thing is to help anyone and everyone on a path to moralistic nirvana.

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