Lift up my Spirit, O Lord. Remembering Christ This Easter.


My Beloved has abandoned me;

This Heart is heavy and I drown in a river of tears.

Your Light has become my burden and my pain,

And I sink in an abyss of despair and wailing.

Embraced by the mother of loneliness and sorrow,

My thoughts are like the black-birds;

My food an aggression of rejection and self-pity,

Now forgotten how to call Thy name.

I am lost in a self-made desert,

And my torment is a lava of boiling smut.

I now drift aimlessly among my darkened shadows,

Find myself, in a cavern of solitary grief.

Lift up my Spirit, O Lord,

Let mine eyes be filled with the beauty of lavender,

My Heart sing with a melody unspoken,

In the great Silence of the Soul.

-Manatita, The Lantern Carrier. ┬ęCopyrighted, 25th March, 2016.

~ Awakening The Inner Light ~



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emge 10 months ago from Abu Dhabi

Lovely sentiments that touch the heart. Thanks

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Missy Smith 10 months ago from Florida

Despair in it's own way can be a very beautiful expression just like you have shown here. :)

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manatita44 10 months ago from london Author

Much respect, Brother. Appreciated.

Missy, true, my Friend. Have a great Easter with the family.

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Venkatachari M 10 months ago from Hyderabad, India

Nice lines with great expression of the inner feelings and pain of self. Easter wishes to you.

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shprd74 10 months ago from Bangalore


Remembered again,

Never was I alone,

You were the shade,

While I worried, about shadows.

- hari

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always exploring 10 months ago from Southern Illinois

This is beautiful, so full of remorse, then reviving the spirit within. Happy Easter...

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always exploring 10 months ago from Southern Illinois

I forgot to mention the video. It is beautiful and so relaxing. The words, " You reap what you sew. " So true!

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billybuc 10 months ago from Olympia, WA

Really, all I need to say about this is beautiful. Easter is a strange holiday in this has left the religious realm for many and entered the retail realm.....and I find that sad.

Happy and Blessed Easter to you!

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manatita44 10 months ago from london Author

Venkatachari M, Gratitude ...Gratitude ...Gratitude. Om Shanti!!


Excellent poetry. I am so worried about shadows! Hey hey Happy Easter!

Ruby, indeed, all in good taste, sometimes in our Christianity we wish for only the good things and are wary of the sad. Courage, more courage ... ha ha. About the video, yes. Thank you. Happy Easter, my Friend.

Too right, Bill. More eggs, I suppose. Still, we try. Much Peace this weekend.

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swalia 10 months ago

God is the saviour... Beautiful lines!

manatita44 10 months ago

Thank you Shaloo. Yes He is. Happy Holi.

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AliciaC 10 months ago from British Columbia, Canada

There is most definitely a spirit of despair and longing in this poem! I love the advice from Rumi. "Don't plant anything but love" is a wonderful idea.

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manatita44 10 months ago from london Author

Yes, he is one of my favourites. Thanks again, Alicia. Much Love.

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Frank Atanacio 9 months ago from Shelton

wow this was so draining, but wonderfully written

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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Frank, I do not do them much. I'm more of the uplifting kind. But despair can help us too. This is a deliberate poem, but by His Grace, I'm not in this state, I think. (chuckle) Ha ha. Glad you liked it, but a little heavy, yes.

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aviannovice 9 months ago from Stillwater, OK

Repair hits us al from time to time, but to see the sun again, always a wondrous thing.

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manatita44 9 months ago from london Author

Indeed, my loved one. Good to see you. I have taken about a week's rest and had forgotten about this one. Much Love, Deb.

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bravewarrior 8 months ago from Central Florida

I have so many deja vu's with you, Manatita. I could have sworn I've read and commented to this. I've never felt deep despair and hope I never do.

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manatita44 8 months ago from london Author

Well, my Sweet, Christ is here all right, but it's different. It is a poem of despair and longing. I'll have to come back to that one, as I don't seem to have printed it for Open Mic. Good you reminded me. Thank you for trying to keep up. Shouldn't be long to go. I'm not posting right now. Hari Om!

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