MY PRISON CELL (Where Have I Been)

This poem was written for me by my beautiful Mother, Virginia, on February 21, 1995.  It has never been seen by anyone but me.  Since I've been writing about my Mom lately, I am compelled to share this short piece.

I was going through a rough time trying to end a bad relationship.  She was there for me and extremely concerned.  She felt my pain as most mothers do.  I've made some bad decisions in my life and no doubt caused additional pain as well.  No matter what, she loved me unconditionally . . .

My Mom's original title of this poem was "Where Have I Been."  A similar title has already been used here on HubPages and therefore, I've renamed the piece "My Prison Cell."  The poem remains in tact as written by her so long ago.

My Prison Cell

Oh my God, what have I done

   What has my life become

   A haven for the sick of mind

   The low, the hateful, the unkind.

Trying to make them better

   Has crushed my very soul

   To depths I can no longer find

   Because I've lost control.

Please help me from this lowly place

   Where I have fallen deep

   Engaged in fear of those

   Who only make me weep.

The brutal eyes of hatred

   The hold they had on me

   Were so intensely frightening

   I looked, but did not see.

They turned me from my loved ones

   And my friends who really cared

   And made me leave them all behind

   Because I was so scared.

But now my life has turned around

   My mind is seeing clear

   The painful burden that crippled me

   Is not any longer near.

And now I am with spirits high

   I've left my prison cell

   The best is yet to come, you see

   For I have just left hell.

                                               vls 2/21/95

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Sunnie Day 5 years ago

Heartfelt poem by a mom who was seeing a daughter emerge from a sad place. How she loves you to have taken the time to write such a sweet poem about you. Thank you for sharing.

Sunnie


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youmeget 5 years ago

What a poem....

Oh my God what have I done

Trying to make them better

Please help me from this lowly place

The brutal eyes of hatred

They turned me from my loved ones

But now my life has turned around

And I am with spirits high

How do you see this arrangement? Beautiful work even these lines make meaning if read separately from the original poem.

Very good hub.

youmeget.


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mslizzee 5 years ago from Buncombe County, NC

You are very fortunate to have had a mother that put this much thought into your emotional state.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Good Morning Sunnie D,

Thanks for being the first to stop by. I appreciate your comments, always.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Dear youmeget,

It is very nice to meet you. I agree that many of the lines read separately still give a strong voice. Thank you for your wonderful comments and the fan mail as well.

Sharyn


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

mslizzee,

I was extremely fortunate and continue to remain very grateful. Thanks for stopping by.

Sharyn


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Really great poem Sharyn:).


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Hey RH, Where have you been? Missed you! Thanks for stopping by!


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

I was on Spring Break with my kids - took them to see my uncle in Mountain Home - NO Internet service there:(. I have missed hub world so much! All you smart writers:)! Great to be home!


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

You are a true asset RH - glad you are back!


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RealHousewife 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

Aw thanks Sharyn! I have REALLY missed hub world - my fingers were itching to get back to my wireless router;). Thanks so much formwelcoming me!


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Chatkath 5 years ago from California

Sharyn- this poem is amazing, I see where you get your insight and writing ability. Much like my Mother - your Mother could not bear to see you hurt and was elated to see you break free. She would be very proud of you and this poem right now!


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Thank you for the wonderful compliments CK. I do take after my Mom in a lot of ways :) Have a good night!


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katiem2 5 years ago from I'm outta here

Oh how perfectly beautiful and what a wonderful tribute to your dear sweet mother, she has written a treasured keep sake and how nice to honor her by this. I love it!

BTW you now on the list... :) Katie


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Thanks Katie for your touching comments! BTW, you are very sweet. I saw my addition (but you didn't have too) and am glad to be on the list:) Thanks!


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Little Kim 5 years ago from Any town U.S.A.

So glad for the positive ending. Walk on and never look back!


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

You are right! Thanks for stopping by Little Kim.


Ghost32 5 years ago

Simple, to the point, Up and Aweseome.

Sayeth the dude with 6 divorces before hooking up with Pam in 1996....:)


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Hi Ghost,

Thanks for stopping by and for the wonderful votes!

As I am getting older, I am believing more and more that it is ok to keep searching for the "right one." I am so glad you found yours!

Sharyn


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Just Ask Susan 5 years ago from Ontario, Canada

Wonderful Poem!


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Aw, thank you Susan!


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cindi h 5 years ago

Beautiful!! I got not even half way thru when the lump in my throat emerged. I look forward to reading more.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Thank you Cindi ~ These were pretty powerful words from my Mother to me.


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GmaGoldie 5 years ago from Madison, Wisconsin

Oh, the walls we build. Beautiful poem. Thank you very much.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Hello GMA,

Thank you so much for stopping by and commenting. It is great to meet you!

Sharyn


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

And GMA,

Thank you so much for the fan mail. I appreciate your comments ~ they made me smile.

Sharyn


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tumblintumblweed 5 years ago

OMG.. that is a beautiful poem! Thank you so much for sharing that!....Awesome and voted up!

Blessings

TTW


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tnderhrt23 5 years ago

This is a beautiful, heart-wrenching piece that I can relate to on so many levels! Thank you for sharing it, and for sharing your mom's love. Hugs!


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Good Morning TTW and thank you for your kind comments and support as always!


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Hello tnderhrt23~ thank you so much! It definitely shows the love and concern I received from my Mother. No doubt she was preoccupied with the pain I was in at the time. I feel bad for that but am so glad she was there for me.

Have a beautiful day!

Sharyn


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MobyWho 5 years ago from Burlington VT

I should have written that poem for my daughter...so many painful years for both of us, but she has finally found a meaningful life surrounded by great friends. And I love Facebook, because each day I can keep in touch and know she continues to do well - and we can "talk" in easy ways. Thank you for sharing it with us.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Hi Moby,

It is so obvious that my Mother felt my pain too. I'm glad your daughter is happy now. Isn't it great to be able to keep in touch with avenues such as Facebook. Best wishes to you, have a beautiful day!

Sharyn


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Mrs. J. B. 5 years ago from Southern California

Stop making me cry.... This poem was beautiful and truly touched my heart.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Sending virtual tissue J.B. :)

I've stirred up some emotions, heh? I guess that's good in a way. Thank you for reading and commenting on so many of my hubs today. I'm thrilled that you and I are following each other. I am SO behind on all my reading but I will get there. Take care!

Sharyn


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Lucky Cats 5 years ago from The beautiful Napa Valley, California

Amazingly beautiful. Heartfelt, real. WOW!! What a sensitive and caring woman your mother was. Very empathetic words and love coming to you from her. She feared for you, too, didn't she? All I can say is this is truly awesome! Kathy


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Hello LC,

Yes, my Mom absolutely feared for me. And she knew me so well that I didn't even have to say anything. If I was in pain, she just knew. I so much appreciate your thoughtful comments.

Sharyn


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Poohgranma 5 years ago from On the edge

You come by your extraordinary writing talent naturally I see. Amazing poem, amazing pair of women.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Awww, thank you so much Pooh. What a truly heartfelt comment. I miss my amazing Mom so much. She would be thrilled to see all that I have been writing lately.

Have a wonderful day!

Sharyn


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Carrie Hollister 5 years ago from Ohio

Beautiful. Voted up!


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Hi Carrie,

Thanks for the comment and vote! It's great to meet you. Have a great day!

Sharyn


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fpherj48 5 years ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

OK...easy to see the tracks of your DNA.....Your Mom's loving poem brought tears to my eyes, Sharyn. You are blessed to have this treasure from your mother...as I can see she believed you to be HER blessing. Very sweet, very touching.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Paula,

Thank YOU! To this day, this poem that my Mother wrote means so much to me. She obviously felt my pain which I feel bad about that. But she was always there for us with open arms. Thank you for stopping by. Have a great night.

Sharyn


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marcoujor 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

OK, at this point, I feel as though I am delving in your private underwear drawers in the archival wonder of Sharon (LOL)!!

Oh my dear, how similar our Mother's love, devotion, loyalty, protectiveness from anyone or anything set out to harm their girls. This is the kind of piece (for me, Mom's journal entries) that gets us through the day to day traumas and strife we continue to deal with, girl. Words are meant to still help guide and strengthen us.

This is amazing, as was the bond you and your Mom continue to share-- Voted UP & UABI, mar.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

Hi Maria,

I don't know about the underwear drawer, but you are always welcome in my private space. Our mother's were amazing, weren't they. True unconditional love. I know my mom is saddened by things I have been going through lately. All she ever wanted was for me to be happy and make good decisions. I hope she knows I am working on it. Thank you, Maria, just for being you!

Sharyn


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marcoujor 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

Dear Sharon,

Note to self, don't make silly jokes on serious hubs... (I don't like to be in my own 'proverbial' underwear drawer most days)... but I wanted to say, in my own 'odd way'... that I believe in my heart that your Mom continues to look upon you, after you and is exceedingly proud of you/ everything you do.

Please be gentle withg yourself always, mar.


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Sharyn's Slant 5 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA Author

I believe so too. Knowing that Mom still looks out for me calms me. I haven't found any dimes in about two months, so I am due. But I know she is always there. Thank you Maria for your encouraging words. BTW, silly jokes are always okay :)

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