Main character
you were in everything i wrote
for a really long time.
i didn't mean for you to be
you just seemed to come out of me
and then, time went by
and i saw you again
and then
everything that i wrote
so horrifically far away from me
came to be
every fantasy
was alive
i felt like i was on fire
and then
it was gone
gone like i knew it would be
if it ever actually came to be
and i mourn the loss
more frequently
than you would think
than i would ever think myself
sitting outside
amidst the rain
with my mp3
listening to songs
that tug on my shirt
and rip at my soul
music that takes me back
to the daydream
i fell into.
you found me
and came to me
and swept me into fu*king Narnia
and i cant escape that it happened
i cant let it go
even though
it is over
and not to be repeated
because, i find
that i cant trust myself with you
you leave me breathless
you leave me pure
and yet
somehow corrupted
funny enough
aparently you think i was the one
that was dangerous.
then why am i the one
curled up in bed
holding onto a love that is gone,
a wound i refuse to heal
and a mischance.
yea though i walk through the valley
of the shadow of sorrow
glancing behind me
when i should look straight to tomorrow
i cannot help wondering
if i turned back and looked
if just one of these times
you would be there
and the force would be strong enough to pull me back
to the pleasure filled pain filled mind blowing fire storm Oz that was you.
with the kiss of a shoulder
i was taken away
clinging to the ruby slippers that i never wanted to use.
click click
and i was home
like a terrible and wonderful nightmarish fantasy.
my mind wears it like a confortable old sweater
that it refuses to get rid of.