My Comparison of My Yesterday Vs. My Today
I Analyze Everything. Especially Life...
It's been a few days, or maybe even a week since I've posted something. I usually can just spit a poem out and tweak it a little and post it the next day. However, this week has been a busy week for me, and it was a little difficult to come up with any good thoughts that were clear and precise. I was really occupied being a mom, helping my kids out with costumes and things like that for our homecoming week here in our little town.
It wasn't until I would lay in bed at night to rest that I would come up with something I thought would make sense for a poem. And still, I'm not so sure I'm completely happy with this one I'm posting, but I will leave it up to the readers to decide that.
As this hub title says, I analyze everything. So, when I lay down at night, you can imagine all the things I ponder in my little brain. I think about life. I think about my life and how its changed through the years the most. I don't know why, because I usually live in the moment. I only visit the past when I am writing or when I have too much time on my hands; which isn't that much. In this particular instance, I just couldn't sleep, and so I started analyzing life; my life in general. This poem is the result of that analyzation.
Definitions of some uncommon terms
AMONGST
a·mongəˈməNG/prepositionpreposition: amongst
surrounded by; in the company of.
GRANDEUR
gran·deurˈɡranjər,ˈɡranˌdyo͝or/noun
splendor and impressiveness, especially of appearance or style.
AMIDST
a·midstəˈmidst/preposition
variant of amid.
ZOETIC
Definition of ZOETIC
of or relating to life : living, vital
VIGOR
vig·orˈviɡər/noun
physical strength and good health.
ANGST
angstäNG(k)st/noun
a feeling of deep anxiety or dread, typically an unfocused one about the human condition or the state of the world in general.
Yesterday Is Gone
I drive along, and I wonder
as I watch a breeze among
the leaves falling from
the trees…
where are we now? How did
this life get so hard to live out?
I used to breathe in those winds
of fall and feel alive amongst
the splendid grandeur of it all.
Amidst the people of the world,
I was here, a part of earth.
I was human, if but a mystery,
yet still feeling completely
part of a scenery.
Though different, I was,
and unique, I remained;
I felt confident enough
to successfully hide any
pain.
Alive in myself and quite
energetic; I felt my rhythms
as continuous zoetic.
Like the cool water that
rolls over the rocks
of a river; I still felt a
flow of contented
vigor.
Now, it is with much angst
that I try to be a part of
life today; my life in itself…
More Uncommon Words and Definitions
AGNOSTIC
ag·nos·ticaɡˈnästik/no
a person who believes that nothing is known or can be known of the existence or nature of God or of anything beyond material phenomena; a person who claims neither faith nor disbelief in God.
REALM
realmrelm/nounLAWarchaicliterary
a field or domain of activity or interest
DULLY
In a dull manner; without liveliness; without lustre
QUALM
qualmkwäm,kwälm/noun
an uneasy feeling of doubt, worry, or fear, especially about one's own conduct; a misgiving.
Today Is Different
Bearable has gotten dropped
a few notches to knowing I'm
alive but feeling agnostic.
Almost wishing death to
knock on my door. Sick of
waiting on that final realm,
so I can explore.
The sun shines but a dismal
heat. Not a warm invite does
it beat. It shines its rays but dully
I say, blister is all I feel today.
The night comes upon, and I
look for the stars who don't
seem to shine quite as bright
than before.
However, the night, as not the
same, is still my favorite from
the day.
The moon shines and instills in
me a weird but peaceful qualm that
boasts you mustn't give up, just
keep hanging on…
I'm Curious...
Do you feel life has changed for the better or worse
© 2015 Missy Smith