My Deadly Endeavor
I promised everyone that I would never see you again.
But how could I let you go? You are my friend.
Just the thought of you comforts me.
You give me promise of an eternal place to be.
All I have to do is swallow and I can be with you forever.
I could just disappear by completing my deadly endeavor.
I wouldn't have to worry about the pain anymore.
But the door opens and I drop the pills to the floor.
My husband looks at me in my eyes.
I try to cover up and think of some lies.
With tears in his eyes, he says, "You will never fool me again. I already know."
Angrily I whispered to my friend, "Because of you off to the hospital again I go."
Another suicidal episode has appeared.
But now my family knows the signs, they can save my life due to being better geared.
I am glad that I didn't complete my deadly endeavor.
Because then my family would have to deal with the pain of my death forever and ever.