Poem - Forbidden Love

Creativity has its own life
Longing to be free
It's something I must do
Though you may never see

Do these words mean I'm crazy?
It may be that I am
I just let my feelings show
But control myself, I can

You moved into another place
Between casual and intense
It begs for some attention
I'm just trying to make some sense

How should I act around you?
What am I allowed to say?
Our lovers would not understand
And assume we will wander away

I want to be close to you
We have a connection
But life says no for us
So I must accept its rejection

I want to know you
It's clear for you to see
You can be my friend
Are you thinking of me?

Maybe I'm being presumptious
Something I need to be told
Are you just being polite?
Am I being too bold?

I've thought more than this
It's hidden from your view
I want to tell you what I think
But can I trust you?

I can be your confidant
Your secret's safe with me
You'll never have to wonder
If I'll reveal for all to see

My age a curse
Yet equally a blessing
I may be too old for you
But I'll never keep you guessing

I give everything I have
Yet never lose control
I am not unemotional
I let my feelings roll

I know who I am
And sadness is part of life
I can live within it
I will remove the knife

It's because I believe in me
Regardless of who says what
I am very strong inside
No matter how deep the cut

But your beauty cannot be ignored
Even though that is what's required
My fantasy world, unrequieted but alive
Focuses on you, something to be admired

It may be you are appalled
You didn't ask for this
You have chosen your path
And wish to follow your bliss

Confusing as it can be
It's obviously the wrong time
It doesn't help your life in any way
I'll never say you're mine

True as this may be
I still think you're great
But I will leave you alone
And accept my life's fate

In a different world we can thrive
Seeing through our mind's eye
It doesn't have to be about the flesh
We will never have to lie

It may be that close friendship
Spiced with coy flirtations
Is all that we will ever have
No matter our inner sensations

It is ok for you to know
That I think you are so attractive
I will continue on with my life
And not be so reactive

But if you need to confide
And tell me what you think
I will gladly lend an ear
From the cup of honesty we will drink

Do not be afraid of closeness
Outside of your spoken vows
You can reveal yourself to others
It can be managed with what life allows

But it's back to the reality
Of what it all means
I'll go back to my world
And see you in my dreams


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PaperNotes 5 years ago

Wow, very interesting story in one very good poem.


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

Thank you PaperNotes... I wasn't sure what effect this one would have but it's part of the world we live in....


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acaetnna 5 years ago from Guildford

You have such a talent and I LOVE reading your work. Awesome!


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Ashantina 5 years ago

This speaks to me. Real talk...


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

Thank you acaetnna... I'm just being bad on this one...


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

Thank you Ashantina,

I think this sort of situation is common... women always say "the good one's are all taken" and men, while we don't have that saying we are just as vulnerable to meeting their soul mate who has mistakenly committed to another....


ariasnote 5 years ago

Forbidden love is always so intriguing. You put it down in words so eloquently. Thanks for sharing your poem.


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Scarlett Rain 5 years ago from Bakersfield

Amusing:)


scriber1 5 years ago

SP, you said: I've thought more than this, It's hidden from your view, I want to tell you what I think, But can I trust you? And thus you have described the place on the planet that a majority of its residents find themselves at some point during each and every day, and in each and every way. This is our human mission -- the acquistion, retention and distribution of trust. Happy New Year.


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Tammy L 5 years ago from Jacksonville, Texas

Well done! William Shakespeare would have been proud of this one!


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Scarlett - amusing? Do I amuse you? How do I amuse you? Like a clown? Exactly what is it that is so funny...

Ha... little Joe Pesci for you.. thank you for commenting...


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@ariasnote - yes it is always intriguing because hope and fantasy are still alive...


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Tammy L - Whoa! You broke out the "S" word... no way but I appreciate you saying that anyway..


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puresilence 5 years ago from New Delhi

I salute You for writing so many incredibly beautiful poems.. I guess you are one of the few gifted ones. I feel like privileged every time I read your poems.. You have magic in your hand.. keep writing more


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Nayothara 5 years ago

TASTEFUL POEM.... I enjoyed every little bit of this beautiful HUB! I felt it is so honest and beautiful thought that we can bring up, to share the love and the feelings......

AWESOME and BEAUTIFUL!!!


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syzygyastro 5 years ago from Vancouver, Canada

Refreshing! Rhyming verse; so rare these days!


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@puresilence - thank you for the flattering praise... I am not worthy of your remarks but keep 'em coming!


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@scriber - thank you again my friend... but there is irony with this trust... the one asking for the trust is asking because they do not want to be betrayed to the one with whom they are breaking the trust...

It's not a good situation for anyone but it happens...


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Nayothara - thank you again for your consistently kind remarks... it is honest; it is not the nicest situation though for the partners of the writer of the poem and his muse but it is an open acknowledgment of what happens so many times in life...

"The good ones are already taken..."


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@syzygyastro - thank you for your comment... I don't make everything rhyme but it seemed to work with this one...


scriber1 5 years ago

Indeed, SP. Perhaps the ultimate irony in the universe. A Happy and healthy to you and yours.....


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@scriber - yes there is much irony in the universe... much irony, tragedy, pain, sorrow, ugliness, meanness, selfishnes... but there is also joy, euphoria, happiness, bliss, passion...

It's a tough place to live... you have to be able to roll with it...


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azure_sky 5 years ago from Somewhere on the Beach, if I am lucky :)

Such a tragedy when life throws its proverbial wrench right into the middle of your path....Very well written, as always. Wish that I had half of your talent :)


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@azure_sky - thanks... don't say that about talent... it's just a matter of wanting to do it....


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Amy Becherer 5 years ago from St. Louis, MO

It is always a mystery to me why, in coming to the brink or crossing the bridge, one or the other, backs away. If conscience were the inspiration of denial, why entertain thoughts and fantasies? In the case of an affair of longer standing, why does one or the other, just inexpicably leave? I guess the answers are as myriad as the participants. But, after the fact, I thnk it has to do more with fear rather than conscience. I suppose my questions are about character, really. If I am in love, it is because I allow it. I give in to it because I want to. I don't understand going back and forth, but I know it happens everyday. And, regardless of the circumstances, they are a known entity to be dealt with, such as vows, then either do or don't, but make a choice. I like the fact that in this poetry, you did. But human nature being what it is, will you change your mind? How many times? That is the issue that is torment for me. Powerful writing, Suburban Poet!


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LaurieDawn 5 years ago

Your words speak a sadness but yet beauty. Daunting but yet stunning. A love that brews forth with the intensity of emotions that cannot be released, but yet embraced with the warmth that surrounds them.

Wonderful prose for a Poet that speaks from the heart of a man.

Blessings,

Laurie


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daravuthz 5 years ago from Cambodia

Very good poem. Thank you so much for sharing.


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Amy - I appreciate the exploration of the problem that you provided. I guess we become attracted to other people not thinking with our conscience and later when confronted with the choice (yes or no) our conscience then enters the picture and stands there with it's arms folded... so we then stop thinking in terms of fantasy and think practically.... in this case the story was an acknowledgement of attraction and possible love colored with hesitation due to uncertainity of reciprocity...


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@LaurieDawn - thank you. What I tried to show in addition to the obvious attraction was the ability of this man to fully love in a healthy manner. Right and wrong is addressed but also the ability to weather any rejection regardless of the depth of his feelings. He can love you madly and if need be leave your life intact. He will leave nothing on the table in terms of his love for you but he will not die. There is no romance in a weak-minded lover. He is of sound mind and can be counted on in any situation. In other words he won't ruin your life over his own pain. He can take it and recover even if he never forgets you...

You can be the love of his life but you won't destroy his life because he has a life of his own....


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@daravuthz - thank you very much for you kind words...


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maven101 5 years ago from Northern Arizona

You have taken a blank canvas and thrown words of lust and paused love into a mishmash of pliant evocation...This must be a dream, a dream that has no reality, only a smug, self-satisfying theme that dribbles itself on the cold floor of reality...spoken vows have meaning, and for some that meaning is eternal...

I know you are pushing the envelope, but for some that envelope may be already sealed...Have a happy and safe holiday season, my friend, and keep writing...Larry


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Maven - thank you for your comment and it is a controversial topic... I appreciate you giving me the latitude to explore these things even when they possibly reveal moral turpitude in thought... I'm not glorifying adultery or the possible theft of another man's wife... it is merely the acknowledgement of the selfish feelings.

I hope you also have a happy and safe holiday season...


Pachuca213 5 years ago

This was totally awesome! and I am sure so many people could relate to this one. Great poem!


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Pachuca - thank you for commenting and being so nice... yeah I'm afraid too many of us feel these things...


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abradford55 5 years ago from Howell,MI

That was pretty sweet it speaks to the heart.


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@abradford - thank you for the comment; it's to the heart but I guess it's to the forbidden heart...


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Micky Dee 5 years ago

Sometimes it's easier to see in dreams. God bless Suburban Poet.


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Micky - safer too! Stay cool...


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Nan Mynatt 5 years ago from Illinois

Your poetry speaks to me like a painting on a canvas, and the beauty stands out. I enjoyed the poetry!


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Nan - thank you for the very nice comment!


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starflakes 5 years ago from Florida

amazing ,in awe


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@starlfakes - thank you again and you are much too kind... but I like it! You're making my day...


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MyJourney 5 years ago from Texas, United States

Love it!


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@MyJourney - thank you!


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R.Cochran 5 years ago from Dahlonega, GA

I really like the way you write, seems more from the heart and soul, more than from your mind. It reads like a story, but has a rhythm all it's own. I'll read more.


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@R. Cochran - it is about a person who is struggling with their feelings yet their mind intercedes a bit, but not completely because as you can tell the point is to ask the girl of his desire if it is ok to move closer.

The best way to write (not that I do this deliberately) in my opinion is to have your heart and feelings involved because then I think you push things towards how you really feel and you can open up and let it flow. It's good to know things and be informed by your mind but your heart does not compromise and as a wanna-be poet I wish to be able to "tell the truth" about myself somewhere and this is where and how it happens for me....

Thank you for your remarks...


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Little Kim 5 years ago from Any town U.S.A.

Very beautiful and something many can relate to but do not confess. What if you never admit to how you feel and then you lost the "one". I have a tendency to admit my desires and feeling too quickly. Early in life I never admitted how I felt and never knew what might have been.Luckily I found a loving man who makes me laugh by doing goofy things and truly loves me(even though there is another man Rick Springfield) My husband loves me enough to drive 700 miles to Biloxi,Ms to see him in concert.


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Little Kim - thank you for commenting. I'm glad you have found the right guy for you. We all struggle with knowing when it is time to reveal our feelings. It seems the heart falls in love at first sight so luckily we have a brain. We have to know the right balance...

Is your husband named Jessie? Ha....


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Little Kim 5 years ago from Any town U.S.A.

Ha! Love that! No, but ask my husband and he'll say Rick is the other man. Only in joking though! Keep up the great work.


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Little Kim - Everybody has that famous person or two that their spouse/partner just has to understand.... stay cool...


Sabriel 5 years ago

That is one beautiful poem! It speaks right to the heart. For my case...it's hopeless. Like the poem says "..But life says no for us. So I must accept its rejection."

We'd be years apart without seeing, talking or writing each other and still know that we're both thinking about each other and feeling love sick for one another. The society will never accept us. And he'll never live to see his grandkids, that is if we decide to spend our lives together.


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The Suburban Poet 5 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Sabriel - Hello Sabriel; thank you for the complement... I'm sorry about your situation. It's tough to find that love that's on the other side of an impassable barrier. You live apart and try to forget, but do you ever?


SamanthaMiller11 4 years ago

I really love this poem. It is emotional yet strong, empowering yet sad. I like that in any kind of writing. Congratulations on a great poem :)


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

Hi Samantha... thank you. This topic seems to strike a chord in people.


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kate2709 4 years ago from England

A truly amazing piece. I can relate well to these emotions. As a writer myself i would be happy if we could share ideas, we seem to share similar talent. Empowering truly....


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Kate - Thank you. I appreciate your kind words. I just try to share my thoughts and life.... it's tough to be honest sometimes especially on a subject such as this.... thank you for the fan mail too...


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kate2709 4 years ago from England

Yes i truly agree, for the last 6 months i have been writing similar words, and often found this very difficult. Its a touching subject and you have a similar writing style to me. Its the most beautiful gift to be able to share such close words and present them in such an enriching way.


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@kate - I love to write as you can probably tell. I'm always thinking about it... why don't you post something of yours? We won't bite!


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kate2709 4 years ago from England

Yes, You have an amazing way with words. Where would i post a piece of my work?

Regards


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

http://hubpages.com/faq/#hubtool

Just read through the link and it will show you how to do it...


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kate2709 4 years ago from England

Thank you. I am intrigued by your way to write and look forward to reading through the rest of your work. Do you have work published?


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

Hi Kate, you sure are being nice to me... I have one piece that has been published in an anthology. It's the one entitled "The Abridged Constitution." I have about five more that have been published/printed in my hometown newspaper. Otherwise I just write and write....


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kate2709 4 years ago from England

Its a great talent, being able to write, and although like me you most likely do not feel that way, It is. Like you i just have the need to write and share feelings and emotions, and this is the best way to do it. Keep at it!


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kate2709 4 years ago from England

Just to say i have taken the plunge and published my first hub....


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@kate - Hi... I'm sorry I took so long to respond... thank you for your kind words; I don't know about talent... I know how I feel about things yet always feel I have fallen a bit short of my ambition everytime I write something. But writing has become very important to me and I hope there is something inside of me that is truly compelling and artful all at the same time. I'm glad you published a hub. It's a great outlet...

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