Poem - Forbidden Love

Creativity has its own life
Longing to be free
It's something I must do
Though you may never see

Do it mean I'm crazy?
It may be that I am
I'll let my feelings show
But control myself, I can

You moved into another place
Between casual and intense
It begs for some attention
I'm want to make some sense

How should I act around you?
What am I allowed to say?
Our lovers would not understand
And assume we will wander away

I want to be close to you
We have a connection
But life says no for us
I must accept its rejection

I want to know you
It's clear for you to see
You can be my friend
Are you thinking of me?

Am I being presumptuous?
Something I need to be told
Are you just being polite?
Am I being too bold?

I've thought more than this
It's hidden from your view
I want to tell you what I think
But can I trust you too?

I can be your confidant
Your secret's safe with me
You'll never have to wonder
If I'll reveal for all to see

My age a curse
Yet equally a blessing
I may be too old for you
But I'll never keep you guessing

I give everything I have
Yet never lose control
I am not unemotional
I let my feelings roll

I know who I am
And sadness is part of life
I can live within it
I will remove the knife

It's because I believe in me
Regardless of who says what
I am very strong inside
No matter how deep the cut

But your beauty cannot be ignored
Even though that is what's required
My fantasy, unrequited but alive
It is you, something to be admired

It may be you are appalled
You didn't ask for this
You have chosen your path
And wish to follow your bliss

Confusing as it can be
It's obviously the wrong time
It doesn't help your life in any way
I'll never say you're mine

True as this may be
I still think you're great
But I will leave you alone
And accept my life's fate

In a different world we can thrive
Seeing through our mind's eye
It is not solely from the flesh
We will never have to lie

It may be that close friendship
Spiced with coy flirtations
Is all that we will ever have
No matter our inner sensations

It is ok for you to know
That I think you are so attractive
I will continue on with my life
And not be so reactive

But if you need to confide
And tell me what you think
I will gladly lend an ear
From honesty's cup we will drink

Do not be afraid of closeness
Outside of your spoken vows
You can reveal yourself to others
We will endure what life allows

But it's back to the reality
Of what it all means
I'll go back to my world
And see you in my dreams