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" RYAN "
Sometimes I want to call you but your not there,
I want to scream your name. I want to hide from all the pain
that has left me so drained, since the day it started to rain.
Our lives were swept away in a hurricane on that September day
things were forever changed. I find myself lost in a thunder rain
where I can only feel the pounding pain.
Sometimes I feel that I have become insane lost in my brain,
looking for you in a labyrinth maze. Every once in a great mile
at the speed of light I hit the wall of reality dealing with everyday.
Spending all my lifetime waiting for that second chance for a
break that would make it okay but it's so sad at the end of the day.
I find myself isolated weightless and empty sweet memories of Ryan
get me through the day!
WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO WRITE THIS ? Sweet memory's of my son Ryan, feeling so lost with out his presence in our everyday life.There has been several times where one of us will forget he's passed away and call for him to come inside to eat lunch for example. When this happens to me, I instantly fall deep into this darkened world of sadness. What happens is I start to tear water falls, my breathing fills with congestion it becomes difficult to breath. My heart starts to breath faster and faster I feel seconds from a heart attack. It feels like I'm high up in the mountains, my ears are so plugged up. All I think about is please leave me to die don't help me I want to go to that beautiful heavenly kingdom where my son is!
AGUSTINA GARZA ARELLANO (COPYRIGHT2010)
In loving memory of our beloved son Ryan Izaic Arellano
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