That Kind of Faith

She wants to be good
And eternal life
We must not forget about that
So she prays
And preaches
And gives witness
And tempts the Lord
With her faith

It’s so far beyond my capacity to reason
Or maybe it's beneath it


That kind of belief
Cannot be discussed
In present company
I’ve never felt such unworthiness
And the need to reject
All at the same time

Does something terrible have to happen
For me to believe in this manner?
It’s not a matter of humbling myself
For God (if he’s up there) knows my limitations
I’m not fooling anyone
I know this
I really do

So why am I drawn to cemeteries
And crosses
But not to people?
It seems only the dead interest me
Maybe it’s because only they know

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Nellieanna 4 years ago from TEXAS

Mark - your journey winds and meanders, doesn't it? You write about it well, my friend. Following you is a journey in itself. :-) Thank you for sharing it.


Marina Lester 4 years ago

I really relate to this. Some may throw mental stones at me for saying this, but we cannot know there is a God, we cannot. Faith can be the most beautiful and uplifting, yet it will always be blind.

I have had the dearest of friends have profound faith I could no longer share and watched them overcome so many obstacles and achieve so much through it, I longed for that. For faith, but found I could not place it in churches or even a book written hundreds of years ago.

Yet I too am drawn still, enjoy crosses, cemeteries, enjoy verses about angels and heaven...

Very interesting write Mark, made me think about a subject always of interest. Thank you, you always provide food for thought.


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@Nellianna - Yeah it's a lohg winding road and a strange trip too (Beatles/Grateful Dead).... the faith I'm talking about is one that the mother of my children has and this is about her... it's way beyond my ability to relate. I'm not judging but she is almost ready to jump off a cliff because she knows God will catch her....

@Marina - I hear you. I'm like you. It is complete faith. That's what they seem to forget when they want to make laws out of the Bible. Jesus said pray in the closet you know? I wish I had that wide-eyed belief sometimes but I don't think I will ever come to know that kind of feeling.


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WannaB Writer 4 years ago from Templeton, CA

Faith is a gift of God. You can't will yourself into it. Because you don't have it yet doesn't mean you never will. The timing is God's. If you really want to know and follow Jesus, it will be because God has given you that desire, and if he gives you that desire, he will also give you the faith you need to believe he is Lord.


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@WannaB - Thank you for you earnest remarks. Maybe you're right.... we'll see what happens. I feel spiritual but the details seem to hang me up...


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WannaB Writer 4 years ago from Templeton, CA

Genuine faith doesn't normally come like a bolt from the sky and hit you. It come the same way you learn to have faith in a person. Christianity isn't faith in a set of beliefs. It's getting to know a personal God and beginning to trust him. It normally comes by reading or hearing the words in the Bible, which is where we learn how God has behaved in the past and how others have learned to trust him. It is the stories passed down orally or in writing by men who had personal encounters with a God they were not necessarily seeking, but who found them and communicated with them. The book of Genesis is a good example of this, and it's about much more than creation. Rather than write a really long comment, I think I'll write a hub on how one comes to Christian faith.


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@WannaB - That is a great idea and I'm glad my hub prompted you to do this.... thank you.


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raciniwa 4 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

Blind faith is dangerous if the person doesn't know where is the seat of that burning feeling...great poem Suburban...


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The Suburban Poet 4 years ago from Austin, Texas Author

@raciniwa - thank you again for commenting. I truly appreicate you reading my stuff. Yes blind faith is dangerous and I have to contend with this type of person in my life.

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