The Dark Tunnel

I am seeing the dark tunnel again.

I am trying to avoid it.

It has a gravitational pull on me.

I hold on to the sides but it’s still trying to suck me in.

I try to claw my way back but there’s no use, I have to give up.

Goodbye happiness.

I have to exchange you with tears.

I am floating into nothingness.

Space and time no longer exists.

The tunnel is soundproof, so no one will hear me cry.

I can’t ask for help because I have crossed the threshold of helpless.

The deeper I go the more I lose my grip with reality.

I am paranoid and petrified with my sorrow.

I don’t know when this is going to end.

I don’t know how this is going to end.

Each time it’s different.


I can’t explain why this always happens.

I just know that it does.

The dark tunnel appears without warning and consumes me.

I try to fight but it’s too strong for me to win.

It taunts me with the possibility of passing all of the way through.

It makes me feel like I am going to break free.

However, it stops me in the middle.

And pulls me right back to the beginning.

Another bipolar episode has formed.

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JadedLove 5 years ago

I am going to side with my dear friend Epi. Beautifully written and in blessings, may my Mother Goddess light your eyes always. Blessed be


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Kyle Rivers 5 years ago from Detroit, Michigan

I enjoyed this blog very much. I can tell it came from how you truly felt, and that's an important step when it comes to writing things like this.


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sassyk73 5 years ago from Milwaukee, WI Author

Catydid..thank you so much. God bless you :)


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catydid52 5 years ago from Windsor

Beautifully written and expressive!


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sassyk73 5 years ago from Milwaukee, WI Author

Thank you Professor M. What you have said means a lot to me. I am very blessed to have been found you and Epi :)


Aka Professor M 5 years ago

@sassyk73: It is I who thank you for being Brave enough to put yourself out there and enlighten those who have not struggled with adversity and uncertainty, Sassyk73!

This can't be easy to live with and each experience takes a toll, which only the one suffering it can really understand.

I'm told by many that I'm empathic and that I am able to feel because of that ability. All I know is that I can sense from your words and the pictures that they paint for us a wealth of emotion, sensitivity and a need to be accepted and understood.

You have discovered a way to allow others to see through your eyes and connect with you and themselves, Sassyk73!

Epigramman (Colin) is a friend and we have similar traits when it comes to recognizing talent. That he agrees with me only proves that you Do Have It! God Bless you, sassyk73, Always! From your friends & Followers! Regards Mike! (Aka Professor M!) ;D


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sassyk73 5 years ago from Milwaukee, WI Author

Epi....your words are always kind and encouraging. You inspire me and for that I am very grateful. Your comments always leave me breathless. I am blessed that you have found me.


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epigramman 5 years ago

....yes Professor Mike is a good buddy of mine and a true gentleman and I am so very glad (like myself) that we both found you and your fabulous writing.

I find this a very harrowing piece but so beautifully written and so honest too - which I think may be a trademark of yours - honesty always and no BS.

And as I always say - if you write from the heart the mind will always follow and you certainly do both very well ....


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sassyk73 5 years ago from Milwaukee, WI Author

Thank you Professor M. I love it when you pay me a visit. Your words are so encouraging and kind. It is always a pleasure to hear from you :)


Aka Professor M 5 years ago

Reality is how we express, that which is real to us, sassyk73. There is no distinction about existence and acceptance, when how you feel is based on who you are at the time that this sequence is engaged!

Your very graphic depiction and description expresses the reality that you experience and helps those who don't Know, better understand the uniqueness of each session for you.

Thank you for sharing and making us aware of what and how you feel! God Bless, sassyk73! Voted Up and Awesome!

Regards Mike (Aka Professor M!) ;D


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sassyk73 5 years ago from Milwaukee, WI Author

Thank you Denise :) God bless you.


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Denise Handlon 5 years ago from North Carolina

Beautifully written and expressed from the heart. Stay with the experience and the darkenss will eventually shift. God Bless. Voted up, useful and awesome.

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